5. Obsession

He thought that if he continued to hug Kyung-hee, the anxiety would disappear.

Really, it didn’t seem like a big deal.

As always, I hoped I was sensitive.

But the uneasiness did not go away even though they continued to hug each other.

Rather, the shaking started to get worse.

Kyung-hee asked if it was strange that I was shaking like that, making eye contact with her.

“Are you scared, too?”

“no.”

“The government, the NIS, and agents in black suits. It seemed scary.”

“it’s okay.”

I forced my voice out.

Originally, Kyunghee, who should have cried and asked if she was okay, did not respond.

I felt I had to run away.

But I couldn’t move. It was just that Kyunghee was holding her.

It did not move as if weights were hung from the body.

And I could tell.

Kyunghee’s eyes were shining.

It was looking at me lovingly, giving off an ominous red light.

Kyunghee smiled meaningfully and slowly rubbed her cheek against my chest.

“……………..”

“Heart is beating. It’s okay, Siwoo. I’m here.”

“……………………….”

“My heart is beating even harder, Siwoo.”

Kyunghee said coldly.

Only then did the puzzles fit together and fall off.

I could somehow guess what had happened.

The dependence, which I thought was staying at a decent level, had become quite severe.

And when I found out, I fell in love with a person named Kyung-hee.

Kyunghee slowly backed away.

Then, as if nothing had happened, he picked up a ballpoint pen and started drawing.

No matter how many times I drew it, within seconds the face shape was drawn.

And after 10 seconds, my face was drawn.

Kyung-hee giggled and started to shade her face.

1 minute. It was one minute. The time it took to draw me wearing jeans overslept.

Kyung-hee showed me the picture drawn on the exercise book as if she was really proud of it.

It depicts me looking the other way with a slight blush on my face.

His right arm was in his pocket, but his posture was strange.

And I could tell. That was the posture when Kyunghee crossed her arms to me.

It was only natural that there was only one person drawn in the place where two should be.

“…………………………..”

I wondered if I should run away.

If I had to run away anyway, there was nothing I couldn’t run away from.

Kyung-hee is in a position to be protected by the government, and I am just an ordinary person involved.

The government won’t catch me.

Because the mutineer to be arrested is Kyunghee.

“……………………………”

“Siwoo. How is it?”

“Well done.”

“Right? A lot. A lot of effort.”

“…………………………..”

“Every moment. Every moment. Except when I moved to solve a physiological phenomenon.”

“How many hours did you spend?”

“I’ll show.”

Kyunghee stood up from her seat.

Then I headed for my room.

My room was clean as expected.

Come to think of it, it seems that lately, I’ve had Kyunghee do most of the cleaning.

Kyung-hee knelt slowly and lifted the bedspread.

“……………..”

“It’s a gift. Siwoo.”

“A lot.”

110 sheets. I remembered. 1 piece is double sided.

So, if you draw one picture on one side, you can draw 220 pictures.

Kyung-hee did not paint very large. Because I could draw three or four pictures on one side.

And under the bed, there was a 110-sheet practice sheet, but I passed ten books.

That wasn’t the end, but the spring notes he gave me to write on were also organized.

Kyunghee laughed like a child confessing something embarrassing.

Then he told the truth.

“I think it’s polite to write and draw by hand.”

“So, did you draw and write all of them?”

“Yeah. I bought a notebook to save money on painting tools. After all, I don’t need anything but black to draw you.”

“……………………………”

“I love you. Siwoo. I love you. Even if you hate and despise me. I can love even those eyes and expressions.”

“Since when did you cheat on me?”

“I didn’t cheat. I thought you’d be scared, so I couldn’t tell you. If I’m abandoned by you too, there’s no real reason to live.”

“……………………………”

“So, Siwoo. If you’re scared of me, finish it with your own hands. If you enjoyed spending time with me in the meantime. If you want to end it, do so.”

Kyunghee cheered.

It was a hunch, but Kyung-hee was lying now.

It’s not just this exercise book and notebook that I’ve been hiding.

From a very long time ago, when he thought he was saved.

He hated being far away from me, so there was a high possibility that he worked his head as much as he could from then on.

Rabbits are said to be cunning and cunning animals.

There was a saying that they dig three burrows in order not to be discovered.

The current Kyunghee was exactly like that.

They dug layer after layer of traps and led me to get caught in them.

I made myself feel sorry for my less fortunate.

Knowing that I was offering a helping hand, I lowered the intensity to show that I had developed a dependency.

If the robbers had counted from the very beginning, I would have escaped.

I lied to myself to the extent that I thought I could bear it.

And until my feelings for Kyunghee grew, the clever rabbit waited in the burrow.

I wanted to run away, but I couldn’t.

It was because of the saying that if you really want to leave me, end it with your own hands.

If I leave, Kyunghee will die. Because there is no reason to live.

And I don’t want Kyung Hee to die.

But I can’t even kill Kyunghee.

I fell in love and even confessed.

When I came to my senses, I had both hands on Kyung-hee’s neck.

Kyunghee laughed as if she was happy.

As if I was willing to accept death at my hands.

Even though my hands were straining, Kyung-hee did not resist.

He just hugged me and then smiled.

“You… you.”

“Tell me, Siwoo.”

“It’s terribly selfish. You know?”

“I know. I want you to only look at me and think of me.”

“……………..”

“I can allow my family members and really close acquaintances of the same sex, but I can’t allow other acquaintances of the opposite sex.”

“……………..”

“Siwoo, just thinking about you laughing and chatting with another woman makes me feel jealous and go crazy.”

“then no.”

“I know it’s not right. But at some point you’ll pick up a cleaver.”

“……………………………”

“If you’re scared or disgusted with me, strangle yourself. Come on. I’ve told the men. Even if you kill me, please do it for nothing.”

“……………………………”

But there was no way I could kill him.

There was no way I could run away.

Because I knew that I was longing for love because I was not loved.

In the end, he put his hand down from Kyunghee’s neck.

And he hugged Kyunghee.

At one point, Kyunghee was smiling as if she was really happy.

My ears were trembling at a tremendous rate.

Her hair grew to cover her buttocks and then puffed up.

Kyung-hee, who had hair on her hands and feet, hugged me tightly.

Then she smiled, her red eyes shining.

I could tell from the parting of my lips.

so i kissed You can’t run away anyway. If I can’t put an end to it with my own hands.

Because I had no choice but to stay.

That’s how Kyung-hee held her breath until she choked her tongue.

The kiss was deeper than ever.

Kyung-hee slowly began to melt in my arms.

At the end, my body was so weak that I couldn’t stand, so I had to continue kissing while on one knee.

After the long kiss ended, Kyunghee laughed.

“Originally, I was going to cheat more.”

“…….how.”

“If you become pregnant and accept future examinations, you will release the restraint. Thinking about it again, it’s a forced lie.”

“……………………………”

“Siwoo, I knew you would respond. I was thinking of sneaking it like that.”

“……………………………”

“You seem to be thinking how could that be, but that’s right. Originally, it couldn’t have been.”

Kyeong-hee sat down and pulled out a 500 won coin from her pocket.

Then, slowly grab the 500 won coin with both hands.

And the unbelievable happened.

Kyunghee tore it up as if it were colored paper and threw it on the floor.

“In the first place, among the mutants in the world, no one can control their bodies as freely as I do.”

“……………..”

“China. India. America. Even in other countries where there are many of them. Only Korea. Choi Kyung-hee.”

“It’s number one.”

“Right, it’s first place. That’s why I’ve always been top. Ugh, I wanted to tell you about this later.”

Kyeong-hee panicked like a child who spilled food.

Then I remembered one thing and laughed.

“Siwoo. Do you remember what I said? I asked you to use it.”

“yes.”

“If you want. You can use me as an outlet for your emotions. You’re very angry.”

“……………………….”

“It’s okay. This body will heal soon anyway. And I’ll think of it as punishment for deceiving you.”

I tried to be patient, but I couldn’t. In the end, I ended up slapping Kyunghee on the cheek.

Kyunghee’s cheeks turned red. However, Kyunghee stroked her cheek as if it didn’t hurt at all.

Kyunghee was right. The flushed cheeks quickly returned to normal.

As if it didn’t fit.

After a while, I politely asked Kyung-hee to leave the room.

And when Kyung-hee went out, I locked the door and lay down on the bed.

I wanted to sleep a little.