5. Obsession

A few days have passed since Kyung-hee was confined to the house.

Fortunately, Kyunghee wasn’t too anxious.

I apologized for not being able to stay by your side because I was going to and from university, but I said it was okay.

Rather, he cried and apologized to me, so I had to sweat to calm him down.

It seems that the dependency has become a bit severe, and it seems that he often asks for affection.

But other than that, Kyunghee was the same as always.

Honestly, I was more anxious than Kyunghee.

The whole time I was in college, I was so worried about Kyunghee that I couldn’t concentrate on my studies.

I’ll make sure that my grades don’t drop with that, but I can’t help but worry about it.

There are many CCTV cameras installed in the room. The bathroom and my room were excluded.

It was because of the strong government’s insistence that Kyung-hee should not behave abnormally.

And even in the bathroom and in my room, Kyung-hee couldn’t stay long.

30 minutes was the maximum without anything special.

Even if there was something special, men would come in if there was no presence.

The men in black suits were kind, but they didn’t try to talk to me too much.

Whether it’s interfering with research or because of authority.

He avoided talking, giving various reasons, but he didn’t seem to think badly of me.

So after some time, I memorized the name and got to know the face.

The NIS agent, a man in his 30s, said his name was Park Chan-ho.

The NIS agent, a man in his 40s, said his name was Park Tae-ho.

Both of them were incredibly large, sport-cut haircuts, and wore sunglasses, making it difficult to recognize them.

Every time that happened, Agent Park Tae-ho joked about looking at the wrinkles on his face.

So, I thought I was lucky.

At least the people imprisoning Kyung-hee weren’t inhumane.

Everyone was thinking that there was nothing they could do about it, and they were making the most of it.

So I was able to think that the situation was better than others.

“I’m gone.”

“yes!”

As if she had waited, Kyunghee ran and hugged me.

While stroking Kyung-hee’s hair, he thought about the schedule.

Kyung-hee came to be managed by the government.

Health checkup once a week. Psychiatric checkup once every two weeks.

Gynecological examination once a month. It happened that tomorrow was the day of the health checkup.

“Isn’t tomorrow the day of the health checkup?”

“Yes, Siwoo. Let’s have a drink when we come back.”

“The doctor in charge would hate it.”

“Heng, I hate that doctor. You only need to see the doctor’s face once every few months.”

“yes?”

At first glance, it was a normal conversation.

However, Kyung-hee was staring at me intently throughout our conversation.

How my facial muscles work. at what rate does the heart beat

I was desperately gathering all the elements that could guess my feelings and drawing conclusions.

Maybe he didn’t hurt my feelings.

what am i thinking right now how you see yourself

And while thinking about it all, I just smiled as if nothing had happened.

It was so pitiful that I couldn’t stand it.

Abandoned by parents, abandoned by acquaintances.

They were so crowded that they even had to come to me, who didn’t even know their face.

I wondered if life was opening up there, but now it’s at the government level.

It was really pitiful and pitiful. So without saying a word, he hugged Kyunghee tightly.

“it’s okay?”

“Yeah. Because you are Siwoo.”

“I thought it would be uncomfortable since I couldn’t go outside. Can I get some sun?”

“With permission, I can take a walk nearby or go up to the rooftop. Oh, I can’t go up to the rooftop right now.”

“why?”

“Because I shouldn’t jump down, I said there’s a fence there.”

“ah.”

“It’s okay, Siwoo. If the fence is closed, you can go up there too. Let’s grow flowers too.”

“Yes. The roof is large, so I could make a farm.”

“yes.”

After hugging for a while, I was about to go to the bathroom.

However, Kyunghee suddenly blocked the bathroom and opened her arms.

It didn’t seem like he was doing that because he wanted to go to the bathroom.

If it had been, it would have been verbal.

Seeing him smile so awkwardly, it seemed like he was doing something that shouldn’t be known.

And as soon as I opened the door, I knew.

A pair of dirty, dirty white slippers lay on the bathroom floor.

“this……..”

“yes.”

“Are you…”

“Yeah, that’s right. I was going to jump off the roof of this building.”

“……………………………”

“I put my slippers on the railing, but I was scared and couldn’t jump down.”

“I’m glad.”

“I slipped because of the rain, but I fell backwards. So I came down straight away. Then I met you.”

That’s not what I wanted to ask and what I wanted to hear.

Why did you bring those ominous slippers here that give you goosebumps just by looking at them?

I wanted to hear about it.

I wanted to throw it away because I felt like my heart was being cut just by looking at it.

“Me, that one. I’m going to wash it and wear it as it is.”

“why?”

“When I go home.”

“ah.”

“I want to wear the same clothes I came out and hug my little sister tightly. My parents…”

“Let’s not meet. Wouldn’t it be better if we never met?”

“………………………………………….”

Kyunghee shook her head slowly.

Then, in a trembling voice, he began to speak.

“Because we may never see each other again.”

“…………..why?”

“First, go to the bathroom and come back. I think the story will be long.”

“………yes.”

It was certain that something serious was about to happen.

So, after quickly doing my errands and washing my hands, I took off my bag and sat down.

Kyunghee was twisting her hair with her fingers.

I must have been very anxious, my ears were down.

It’s been a long time since I couldn’t control my emotions well, and the hair on my arms and legs.

“Yeah, I kept doing health checkups. Right, Siwoo?”

“……….yes.”

“I said I’m the best among the Mutants. Isn’t it funny?”

“what?”

“That I, who always failed and was last in life, is number one among mutants.”

“……………..”

“Don’t worry, Siwoo. There was no such inhuman experiment as you think.”

“then.”

Little by little, emotions leaked out.

Feeling the anger in her voice, Kyunghee shrank.

Kyunghee did nothing wrong. Kyunghee was just nice and knew nothing.

It was just that the situation forced Kyeong-hee to sacrifice.

There’s no way I don’t know what comes next.

“In exchange for experiments. Didn’t the government say they would give money?”

“You’re smart, Siwoo. Unlike me… isn’t it?”

“You have enough money, don’t you?”

“Siwoo. You know that’s not the case at all.”

Kyunghee cried.

His mouth was smiling, but tears were flowing uncontrollably from his eyes.

Kyung Hee is right. Money was not enough.

The reason I could take responsibility for Kyung Hee was because I was attending university.

My parents gave me money because I had to live on my own while attending university.

But if you don’t wake up. If you go to the army, you don’t have to give money.

At that time, I will no longer be responsible for Kyung Hee.

Although Kyunghee is said to be making money from novels, there was a high possibility that she would not be able to continue her life.

Even if I were to give Kyung-hee the entire salary of a small soldier, it would be difficult.

Up until now, I hadn’t told the truth.

Because it is a burden to Kyunghee.

I was just looking for a way to fix it somehow.

But now that Kyeong-hee knew that, there was nothing he could do about it.

“Siwoo. I’m not the only one who’s entangled.”

“…….then.”

“Kyung-hye is also involved. He said he would support her. Get away from her parents’ pressure.”

“……………………………”

“You know. What kind of people my parents are. I can’t leave Kyunghye alone.”

“…………………………..”

“And Siwoo, you can’t even take responsibility for Kyunghye.”

“…………………………..”

“It’s okay, Siwoo. Just draw blood and take medicine. It’s just that. It’s the same life as before.”

“still.”

“I know what you want to say, Siwoo. But now it’s time to give back what you’ve been given.”

“……………………………”

“Hug me when you feel unfair and angry. It’s better if you kiss me.”

I hugged Kyunghee. And when I was about to kiss, I stopped.

Kyunghee’s ears were up.

I wondered since when.

Kyunghee can hide her expression, but not her ears.

Ears are the clearest indicator of Kyunghee’s feelings.

I don’t know if it just went up. But the ears were already up.

…… It seems that this has happened before.

Even then, I felt a similar sense of incongruity.

I wondered if Kyunghee was cheating on me, but that wasn’t the case either.

Kyunghee is a pitiful child. Abandoned by parents, abandoned by acquaintances.

He is such a poor child who was almost abandoned by me, and he is the lover I love.

I didn’t want to borrow a hand from me anyway, so I learned to draw and write.

As I studied the definition of obsession, I was trying to write and be helpful in my life.

He is such a kind, naive, young and pitiful child.

So you couldn’t fool me. So, this is… that’s it.

My ears went up in joy because I thought of him.

While deceiving himself like that, he kissed Kyung-hee.

As if the world would end soon, they mingled tongues and met eyes.

And we focused on each other at a distance so close that we could only hear the sound of our hearts.

Then I opened my mouth and said.

“Don’t worry. No matter what happens. I’ll be by your side no matter what.”

Kyung Hee smiled silently.

Instinctively, goose bumps ran down my back. An alarm bell rang in my head that I had heard before I was hit by a bicycle when I was young.

but was ignored Because the woman I love can’t do that.