49 – Finn and Lily (1)

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“…”

Lily’s lips trembled, making several movements that simply did not contain sound.

A few minutes later, a word that was captured only then.

“why…?”

In Lily’s eyes as she says that, she’s both happy and sad… Contradictory tears were overflowing.

“Did I… forget what I did to you without knowing grace? I…”

Tears flow down the curves of your cheeks and form on the tip of your chin.

Tok. Every time her tears touch the ground and disappear leaving only traces, she spits out words to me that are completely different from what she had in mind.

“If it wasn’t for you, I would have died a long time ago. I…!”

Tok.

“But without knowing that kind of grace… I collapsed on my own in the sadness of losing my mother, and I resent and hate it on my own!”

Tok.

“Now it’s gotten to the point where I don’t even know how to repay the favor I received from you…”

Tok.

“But why am I such an unscrupulous person who is happy that you like me…”

Seruk. As if he didn’t have the confidence to meet my eyes, the gaze that did not intersect with the hands that were gradually loosening as the strength slipped away.

As if wanting to catch her, I grabbed her wrist as she slipped away from me.

No, maybe it was because I didn’t want to let her go.

“…”

“…”

Realizing that I had stopped by holding her wrist, she

Because he was pouring his pitiful eyes full of tears at me.

please let go

Please don’t do me any more than this.

What you’ve done so far is enough.

Why are you trying to give me not only grace, but even love?

I said to her who puts such feelings in her eyes toward me. The smile he had been making a while ago was light, but his eyes were still on her.

“Why, isn’t it strange to attach a reason to love?”

“Yeah, but…”

As my eyes continued to look at her, her voice gradually faded and soon became inaudible.

His expression looked as if he wanted to ask how love without reason could be so sacrificial.

“Isn’t it too contradictory to dismiss my love as something without reason… is that what you want to say?”

As if my prediction was correct, she slowly shook her head.

Even in a very embarrassing situation where I had to explain the reason for my love to the object I love, I smiled knowing that I understood her position.

She doesn’t know that I’ve been watching her from outside her world.

Of all the many characters, only she is stuck in my mind and never leaves, so I don’t know that I have been called into her world.

The sacrificial love she herself showed me before our time rewinded… Because I don’t know that I’m just following what I’ve seen and learned.

so that,

I said, stroking her wrist.

As much as I can convey to her, it may be a question that will still remain unanswered by my foolish answer, but with the thought that it would be nice to know at least a little bit why she is loved.

“It is love and love that have blossomed because I have held the fruit in my eyes that I shouldn’t have overlooked.”

The fact that I had you in my heart in the novel is the cause of my love.

“It’s my insignificant heart that I naturally embraced because of chasing without cause.”

It wasn’t intended, but because of being with you, the favor became stronger and it became love.

“Nevertheless, if you want to find a reason and attach it…”

He raised his gaze from the wrist he was caressing and met her eyes.

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Joy, sorrow, perplexity, touching, love. She came into my field of vision with all kinds of emotions gathered together and making an indescribable expression.

He untied the clasp of his right hand and reached out toward her face.

My shoulders trembled when I realized my hand was pointing at him.

Even so, she did not reject my hand that slowly approached her cheek, but she quietly closed her eyes and greeted my fingertips with her tear-stained cheek.

“Because he peeked at a fragment of a deep daydream, he couldn’t bear to erase the memory of that time and may have reached out for a fruit that should not be overlooked.”

… Just like now.

At my whisper, she probably recalled the time I had fun with her using the original.

She probably thinks of my foolish love, who is now obsessed with memories that she can only recall.

This stupid attendant had endured all the sacrifices because he couldn’t erase the bittersweet first love of his immature days.

In some ways, stubborn, in some ways, pure love, in some ways, obsessive.

All those moments that did not even exist in the memory of this world have become a memory to me, so you will not know that just being by my side is a grace to me who is obsessed with those memories.

Tears then fill and flow in my eyes, and fall endlessly down my cheeks towards the ground.

He said, recalling the sad but happy life he had spent with her in a run-down cabin, with only regrets at the end.

“So, please, allow this reckless servant to dream.”

Lily’s eyes follow my tears.

At my confession of wanting to be by your side, she opens her eyes wide and smiles lightly.

“It’s stupid, really… If this is the case, I won’t be able to repay the favor for the rest of my life…”

“You don’t have to pay it back. Just being by your side is enough grace for me.”

Yes, because I am still in the process of repaying the favor you gave me. I hope you don’t show me more grace than this.

Rather, I would end up not knowing how to repay the favor.

Then she rubbed her face against my hand that was caressing her cheek, and took both of my hands and hugged my hand to her cheek even more.

Like a movement to feel the warmth of my hand more clearly.

My gaze, which was smiling happily with loveliness, and her gaze, which was smiling wet with tears, crossed each other, and soon, without anyone saying anything, our lips slowly began to draw closer.

As her lips approached almost in front of my nose, a light breath wrapped around my lips warmly.

That’s how Lily and I kiss… .

kiik-

“Berry-sama, now that I think about it, I remembered something I couldn’t tell you… Oh my.”

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Years like Grace dog. I really want to tear it apart.

Lily, who was exhaling a painful breath and creating a mysterious atmosphere,

Before I knew it, I saw him sitting in a chair, breathing hard, and patting his reddened face, trying to cool it down.

“Excuse me…Have a good time….”

Leaving aside the atmosphere that had already been blown away, when Grace closed the door again and tried to leave, he stopped her.

“Shut up and tell me what you’re here for.”

It’s already over for you bitch.

My tone became ferocious because I was interrupted at the most important moment in my life.

I thought that bitch would be useful, so I picked it up, but I started to think that turning on the candle whenever it was important was like a bitch that was useless except for being a lie detector.

After that, Grace, who was sneakily watching me and Lily, slowly opened her mouth.

“Uh…then let me tell you two things.”

And the story of Grace that follows.

It was a story that she delivered the results of the investigation to Ian, Selina, and Lily, who were around at the time, as well as the instructors who had arrived with Irene, to the Archbishop of the Divine Faculty.

“First of all, they said that the knight, owner of Solaris, appeared out of nowhere, defeated Berry-sama and the huge number of demons that attacked Her Highness, and then disappeared.”

Grace’s face, as she casually told me that she had lied to me, was as calm and calm as always.

And Lily reacted as if she knew this.

However, I tilted my head as I did not understand why she had been lying.

“…You, that is a lie.”

“That’s right. It’s made up of lies.”

“But why…”

Grace, whom some people even talk about as the true saint?

Like the last time in Triang village, she blurted out the end of her words on an issue that did not even have a corner to spread her theory of herbal justice.

Then Grace gave me a benevolent smile.

“Faithfulness, of course, is very important. However, I was willing to give up the truth because the rightness I believed in could not be obtained by doing the truth.”

“…What?”

Grace lowered her gaze, stared at my chest, and continued.

“It’s an arbitrary judgment that I’m still immature, but I decided that it was right to nod my head. If bad things happen later because of this… that, too, would be my job.”

For the first time, it felt like a halo emanating from behind Grace.

The open mouth does not close and only lets out a hollow breath.

Is this how a teacher feels when he sees his pupil grow up?

I just watched, fascinated by the growth of Grace, who unbeknownst to me was demonstrating flexibility.

Grace smiles at me and brings out the second item she mentioned.

“And the second issue…”

“…Uh, uh…what is it?”

Grace looked back and forth between me and Lily, then licked her lips and said,

“First of all, Berry-sama’s use of artifacts was clearly detected, and Berry-sama’s ranking was confirmed as runner-up. Since the artifacts did not affect the battle, I think they were given a lenient punishment.”

“Uh… that’s what…”

Now, the tournament didn’t mean anything to me, so it didn’t matter much to me, and I didn’t feel any special emotion from the fact that I won the runner-up, which I originally aimed for.

However, Grace continues the story, saying that the main subject has not been taken out yet.

“However, due to the rush of support from Ian-nim, who was confirmed as the winner, many instructors who received reports that Bifrons was defeated, the president, Irene, and many of the students, wanted to see the final match properly… Regardless, there was talk of wanting to play the final one more time.”

“What?”

“that’s good…!”

Why bother doing that… !

Unlike me, who frowned at the thought, Lily clapped her hands in delight.

When I turned to ask why she reacted like that, she wiggled her fingers and glanced at me, her jewel-like eyes.

“I…I also…I want to show everyone how cool Finn is when you show your sincerity…wouldn’t it be?”

With a determined expression on his face, he turned to Grace and said.

“Tell me you can do it right now.”