16 – letter

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“I’m sorry, but I guess this is all…”

The man handed the girl all the frayed and torn pieces of cloth and announced the result of the girl’s order.

The ending of the attendant who could not bear the bullying and chose to escape to the Holy Land.

“…is this all?”

A girl looking at a man with dull, lifeless eyes.

Not long ago, he did his best to carry out his best despite receiving contradictory and absurd orders to find the target he ordered to kill with a ferocious expression, and to rescue him quickly.

He just shook his head when he saw his lord with a pessimistic smile on his face that had lost his soul.

Then, a girl holds and caresses those insignificant pieces of cloth in her arms as if she were handling precious jewels.

The girl’s small lips, blanched from not sleeping a sigh, opened lightly.

Only then did the name of the boy come out that he had longed for.

“A pin…a pin…my one and only pin…”

The girl handled the pieces of cloth in her arms as if she were caressing Jungin.

“The Princess’ War…”

The man, who was about to ask why the hell was doing that, swallowed his words behind the sight of the girl smiling.

“…”

To be precise, it was because I saw the final expression of those who were ready to die.

“…I’m so sorry…I won’t leave you alone anymore”

Soon after, red flowers slowly bloom from the hands of the girl holding the boy’s belongings in her arms.

“Wow, Her Highness the Princess!!!”

Seeing this, the man’s model disappeared, and before long he grabbed the girl’s arms and headed towards the sky.

Then, the red flower that had bloomed from the girl’s hand shot out a sphere that glowed red like a red moon into the sky, and the man was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief.

-Pooong!!

The flower the girl was trying to give to herself, the light. Because I managed to narrowly stop it.

However, the girl still refused to give up her will to take her own life, so the man shouted with a voice that trembled like never before.

“This, let go…!”

“Everyone!! Hold on to Her Highness’s prison body!!! No damage should be done to Her Highness!!!”

At the man’s command, the escorts hold the girl’s arms and legs one by one as if they were hugging them. It was a choice they had no choice but to make because they couldn’t bear to hold on to their master as if they were transporting criminals.

At this, the girl, who had been trying to escape from the escorts’ arms for a while, screamed in pain.

It was because he could not stand the sense of shame and self-loathing that pierced his lungs.

“It’s an order! Let go of this right now!!!”

“…I am very sorry, but that order cannot be accepted!!”

It is obvious what will happen if they let go of the girl in their arms. For them, who were merely escorts, the girl’s safety was the priority over her orders.

“I told you to put this…!”

“Li, Lily…!! What the hell is going on!! What the hell was that just… Che…”

The girl, who continued to struggle to get out of the arms of the escorts, soon stopped moving because her father appeared.

I don’t know if it was difficult to show the image of a son who chose death in front of his father, or if he thought that even his current appearance was not worthy of being seen by his father.

“Li, Lily… I can’t believe that… was it you who did it? No… why the hell…?”

The girl’s father noticed that his daughter was being restrained in the arms of the escorts because she had just fired her magic.

He did not know why his daughter, whom he had lost because he had suddenly run away screaming, was being held in the arms of the escorts with such a painful face on his face.

The only person who hasn’t been informed of that fact yet is the girl’s father. Because he was the only emperor.

“Your Majesty…actually…”

A man who explains what he knows to a man who does not yet know what has happened.

The more he listened to the man’s explanation, the more the emperor’s expression grew darker.

Disappointed at first.

then disbelief.

doubt.

collapse.

pity.

Sympathy.

remorse.

And only after realizing everything… the pain of guilt.

“Then, that magic just now…”

The emperor’s eyes turned to the girl.

“Do you understand now?! Do you understand now!! Me!! I mean the year I paid back the favor with my enemy!!! I can’t go back now!! I have to live with guilt and guilt for the rest of my life…!!!”

Then, the girl shouted to the emperor who, like herself, realized that she was the one who had pursued and killed the attendant who had run away to find a way to survive.

He said he was a sinner who repaid the favor with his enemy.

He said that he was the unreasonable human being who did not recognize his benefactor and gave such orders.

… So please, a girl begging me not to live in this endless hell.

The girl seemed to think that the only way to pay for her sins was to follow the boy and choose to die with her.

The emperor who moved his mouth that could not bear to leave him.

“Fin…!”

“Finn made the sacrifice because he wanted you to live, but if you choose to die here, Finn’s sacrifice will be in vain!!!”

The expression of the emperor who said that was somewhat unnatural, a distorted face.

Even he knew his own disgust. It was because he thought that he was so repulsive to see himself trying to protect his daughter by using the boy’s sacrifice until the end without knowing grace.

‘But it will work’

A girl who just smiles at the Emperor’s persuasion that if she chooses to die here, even that grace will be useless, as if the boy hadn’t made any effort.

The thought that it was not right for him to die along with the boy who died lonely and lonely,

If that happened, he seemed to be unable to make a decision because he was mixed with the thought that he was really wasting the boy’s death.

Driven by this momentum, the emperor clung to the girl, who was still at a loss and didn’t know what to do, pleading with her eyes wide open.

“Lily…even for the sake of this father…and for the sake of the boy who gave his life for you, you shouldn’t choose to die…huh? Don’t you…Lily…”

“…”

The girl hangs her head, unable to face her father’s tear-soaked face.

Then, the boy’s belongings in her arms caught the girl’s eyes.

‘… Finn, do you really want me to live… ? I made you die… ?’

The girl moved her head left and right in response to the question in her heart.

No, it can’t be. No matter how much the boy sacrificed himself out of love for him, he would not be willing to accept even death.

‘okay… I will remember you as I live with the guilt and pain of letting you die like this… I am just like you… ‘

‘this… ?’

At that moment, something flashed through the girl’s mind.

In her own words, the girl realized what mistake she was about to make.

Even the fact that he chose to die like this was a decision he made because he couldn’t overcome the guilt of causing the boy to die.

So, choosing death itself here is nothing more than a very unseemly act of trying to escape from pain.

so… .

‘The real atonement is… I will remember you until I die… remembering… it hurts… It will be a real atonement… ‘

The fact that death is nothing but a luxury to you.

It is natural that even giving up everything in a faint like when her mother died was unacceptable to her now.

The girl realized.

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In order to accept the hell given to her, the girl catches her breath and lets out a shrill voice with chapped lips.

“…I understand. Obama”

So the girl resigned herself and made up her mind. He resigned himself to choosing death. Instead, she decided to spend the rest of her life remembering the boy and thinking only of him.

“If I don’t die… will it work?”

“…”

Saying that, the girl looked up at the emperor, but the emperor could only feel a sense of horror in his daughter’s eyes.

Even though his daughter was clearly looking at him, the focus was not on him.

I just swallowed my dry saliva in the eyes of my daughter who seemed to accept everything while staring at some empty place other than herself.

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“…Pin! I brought you Cosmos today! I don’t know if you’ll like it…I picked it myself! So I hope you’re happy with this…”

The girl knelt in front of a stone slab placed on a slightly yellowed field bathed in the autumn light and said that.

As if repeating the same thing several times a day, it was to the extent that a new path was made on the field following the girl’s footsteps.

Perhaps she is really expressing her will to remember and live with the boy for the rest of her life, since the girl has come to live in the boy’s grave except for sleeping and using the bathroom.

To the point of bringing a packed lunch and chatting in front of the boy’s grave.

Even he speaks alone, and chides himself.

Whoever sees it, he looks close to a psychopath… .

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“Finn…! It’s raining a lot today! So, I’ll cast a spell on Finn so he won’t get wet in the rain today?”

Soon after, the girl chanted an incantation, and a curtain of wind wrapped around the boy’s grave and began to bounce off rainwater like an umbrella.

“Ehehe…how is it? I’m amazing? Thanks to the elixir that Finn gave me… I can use magic this much… It’s only natural to use it for Finn…”

Saying that, the girl just continued to reach out toward the sky.

And that’s 1 hour… .

2 hours… .

3 hours… .

As time passed, the girl’s breathing began to become rough. Soon after, the complexion darkened and the girl collapsed on the spot.

The escorts, who had been watching this, hurriedly approached the girl, carried her on their backs, and ran toward the imperial palace.

… As if it’s always been like this. With very familiar footwork.

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“…Today, too?”

“…Please punish us helpless.”

The emperor waved his hand at the man who bowed his head toward him and held out his neck.

Because he was no different from a man… No, on the contrary, he did not think of punishing the man because it was even more difficult for him to escape from that responsibility as he was unable to do anything despite being a father.

“…That’s okay. I didn’t even expect you guys to be able to solve problems that even I couldn’t do… Huh… More than that, what the heck should I do with that child…”

-Suddenly…

The emperor watched as the papers on his desk flew away because he was in agony while covering his head.

Soon after, the emperor, as if remembering something, took out a letter he had hidden in his drawer.

“Your Majesty? Is that…?”

There is a possibility. Apparently, the attendant himself said that if it was his daughter, he could recognize his own handwriting, so it’s worth a try.

The emperor didn’t seem to hear the man’s question. Soon after, the emperor opened his eyes and ordered the man who looked up at him with a questioning look.

“Everyone, bring a wizard who can use clairvoyance magic right away!!”

‘I hope the contents of the letter will be helpful to Lily… Please… ‘

The emperor hoped that this letter would bring the faithful servant back to his daughter’s rescue. I really don’t mind, but I was hoping for it nonetheless.

Did the emperor’s wish reach the sky?

… Shortly thereafter, the court wizard used clairvoyance in a letter and informed the emperor of the contents.

The emperor, who first checked the contents of the letter with magic, took the unopened letter and moved to find his daughter.

If this is the case, with one hope that her daughter will be able to regain her original form.