207 – Self (1)

#1

Smart-

Student Hall, 「Exodus」 Circle Room.

Saira de Bayern, who was managing the data alone inside, raised her eyebrows.

Did the members come? Judging from the way she knocks, it doesn’t seem like Aru.

Putting down the ink-stained pen, Seira clears her throat. Big, big As I held it with her hand, the slightly protruding part of her was jarring.

“Stay inside. Come in.”

While tidying up her long hair, Seira spoke so that she could hear it outside. Then, as soon as she finished speaking, the door opened.

“Ah, you….”

What appeared was a face I had seen before.

“1St grade Mew. Right?”

“Yes.”

A master of swordsmanship. 1St grade 1st Mew.

“What’s up?”

It is not strange at all for members to come to the club. Seira greeted Mew normally. She even has a small smile.

But Mew walked without saying a word.

With something in her hand.

“Uh… Did you come because you have a complaint about something?”

“No.”

Mu shook her head. Seira came close to where she was sitting and held out the item she was holding in her hand.

“I have no complaints. So, please take care of this.”

“This is… ?”

White paper and black letters.

At the top was written ‘Circle Withdrawal’.

“Uh… ?”

“Let’s go back now. Work hard.”

“No, wait… !”

As Seira stood up from her chair, Mu looked back at her just once before leaving her door.

“Participation is free. Non-participation is free. So isn’t it free to leave? The reasons are all written there, so please know that.”

Her long black straight hair was lightly brushed.

Kikkik, Kung─

Seira couldn’t catch her after all.

“… Mmm.”

‘I wish I could have explained at least what I was dissatisfied with….’

I let out a sigh. Was there something lacking as the president? That’s why she hasn’t even done a proper activity yet. No, is it rather like that?

Palac─

No matter what, it is impossible for a member to just ignore the wish to leave. Feeling a bit bitter, Seira read the part of her reasoning in her resignation letter.

‘Yes… ?’

There was only one line written on it.

Even if you look up, look down, and look at the light, the hidden letters do not appear.

‘I lost interest… Is this the end?’

… It’s a little hard to tell me to write this down again, so Seira decided to accept Mew’s resignation letter in the end.

#2

“Ezio, what matters is an unbreakable heart.”

“What kind of bullshit are you talking about all of a sudden?”

Thursday’s swordsmanship lecture was over. These were the words of Gabriel, who walked me by the shoulder.

“Just because you lost to me once doesn’t mean you need to be too heartbroken. Isn’t that what life is all about? There are times to win and times to lose. There is no need to dwell too much on a match….”

“The tongue is long. Are you so happy that I won?”

“Yes. Fucking I’ll be cool inside.”

Gabriel revealed his true feelings and giggled. He had such a mean laugh that he wanted to grab his slit eye with his hand and open it all the way.

It wasn’t a big deal. I just lost to Gabriel in a swordsmanship match. It was just that.

As Gabriel said, there are times when you win and times when you lose. I never hurt my pride or anything.

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Just….

─Ezio Cranil, did you quickly fall into arrogance just because you gave me some flattering words? If that’s the case, I have no choice but to lower your rating.

I thought my skills were on the rise, but today it seems that I was unstable enough to hear Professor Abel’s harsh criticism rather than harsh criticism.

In fact, I myself knew the exact reason best. I removed Gabriel’s arm from my shoulder and walked quickly.

Then Gabriel chuckles from behind.

“Are you mad? Are you mad? I’m angry, this baby. Look at the expression If I get so angry, will we come together again? But what to do with this, I’m very tired today….”

“Gabriel. Why do you think I lost to you today?”

When he stopped, Gabriel, who had been following me, spoke earnestly.

“Because you’re not good at it.”

I’m pissed off, but I don’t have the energy to fight back.

“Wrong. It’s because I can’t concentrate.”

“I’m tired of making excuses. Don’t you know that being careless is a skill?”

“… So do you know Let’s stick to it next time. Right now, I’m not in good shape either.”

“Hmm?”

Since I’m constantly at low pressure, did Gabriel notice something? He frowned and pondered something.

Actually, talking to him didn’t seem to help anything, so I kept shutting up. This time, I just want it to turn off quickly.

“Aha, got it.”

Because he seems to be quick-witted, but he doesn’t have a reliable corner….

“It’s a woman’s problem. Right.”

“… !”

“Tsk tsk, I knew that. Do you think you could have avoided this brother’s eyes? If it’s your problem, it’s most likely that way. Cancer.”

As I respond, Gabriel grins.

“Good, good… I mean it was….”

Have you been caught? During the sparring, my eyes were constantly shaking….

“So, it seems that you are having the biggest worry in your life about who to go with at the festival.”

What?

“A festival?”

“Yes, man! Isn’t it May now? Since you know that one of the reasons I came here to study is the Taeshin Festival, you are thinking about what kind of girl to enjoy dating right now. You know when you see it.”

Taesinje 太神祭.

A grand festival held simultaneously by all classes of the Frontier on the same day. As you can see the origin of the name, it is a festival for the sun god. It must be because the state religion of the empire honors the sun god.

Actually, this is an event I hadn’t even thought of.

Of course, something like that happened a while ago, so I thought of holding a large-scale event where many people would gather as it is….

A festival for the sun god above all else. Something is not comfortable After all, few people attach great importance to something like the name of a festival.

“Let’s see, there are roughly three or four candidates selected from among me… I don’t know if he’s more handsome, but I’ll give you some advice for this older brother to become very bone and flesh.”

“No, I—”

“The moment you become greedy, everything ends. It just sucks. Got it? They say that if you try to catch two rabbits, you will miss them both, but now you are trying to catch more than four. Then what will happen It’s not enough to miss… Your body will be torn in four parts.”

The expression on his face was quite serious. It seems that I think it will definitely help me. I just decided to keep my mouth shut and let them misunderstand.

“So, there is a very good method for this brother.”

“Come. Talk about it.”

So I wanted to give him some advice, so I listened politely.

“If you have a lot of prey, you can increase the number of hunters.”

Gabriel walks over the shoulder again.

He whispers to me like a demon.

“I will be your strong ally by your side. So take me.”

Gabriel….

As expected, you can’t.

“Even if it’s impossible to do it alone, two people can cover it. There’s nothing good about making someone lonely. In other words, a so-called double date… Wow! My eyes!”

I stabbed Gabriel’s eyes without hesitation. Gabriel bounced off like a spring and rolled across the floor.

… Aldrie, who happened to be passing by, was startled when he saw us. Then, ignoring Gabriel rolling on the floor, he disappeared to the other side again.

‘I have to go prepare for the next lecture.’

It was when I passed the corner of the hallway while thinking about that.

And then, I immediately stopped walking.

“… ….”

The cause of my distraction today.

Myu, who left the classroom first, was walking far in front.

Mu’s appearance was the same as usual. Haughty black hair and sharp eyes. The indifferent feelings contained in it. It is evident from the look in his eyes that he does not pay much attention to others.

But those eyes were on me.

I haven’t even had a conversation with Mew for a few days.

‘… You probably don’t want to talk to me anymore.’

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Just like now, we sometimes follow with our eyes from a distance. Without being able to make any more or less contact points, the cold atmosphere continued.

The cause was me. Because I rejected her from her.

Let’s go back the other way, I thought.

‘Oh.’

Suddenly, a rather tumultuous sound came from the other end. When I focused my eyes, it was the same people.

No, it was him.

—Uh, hello. Are you done with class?

— ….

─It’s cold again today… That’s right, you drink this. Come pick it up

─Carmelo, isn’t the concept too disgusting?

—Yes. Should I keep watching this? Are you having a hard time?

─You guys shut up!

The student named Carmelo had two stars on his chest. 2Nd grade. She is a senior in my position.

That senpai appeared frequently in my sight ever since I returned to the frontier. Mainly in the space where Mu is.

─Now, throw it? Don’t worry because I didn’t hear anything inside.

Carmelo throws something at Mew. Is she a drink or what.

But I didn’t receive Mew.

Bang, the ownerless drink fell to the floor in a parabolic arc. Mew walks on his own path, ignoring it as if a cold wind is blowing.

After a while, their conversation continued.

─Hey, how long are you going to be like this? How about giving up soon? The reaction is so bad, but I have to show the possibility….

─Arthur, Arthur. If you keep waiting, the opportunity will come someday. I was talking to you, but why didn’t you pull out your knife right away?

No matter how ignorant a person is, if you listen to their conversation, you will not be able to grasp their intentions.

I was doing that because I wanted to win Mu’s favor.

I’ve seen that much before. A man always followed Mu. It’s like knocking them off before they can even get close to them.

But that senior… A little bit stubborn

Tak─

I only looked that far and turned my feet. As long as the business is gone, those people will move somewhere. I also had to prepare for the next lecture.

I was going to do that,

Carmelo looked right in my direction.

Smile─

A gentle smile.

I was looking at the vacant seat of the senior who shrugged his shoulders and left with his friends with a strange feeling.

#3

─Yes? Did you leave the circle?

—Yes. Somehow I think you don’t know… Looking at the reaction, it seems right. Know that once I have work, so I’ll go first. See you later, guys.

—Ah, your senior.

The next day, I heard from Seira-senpai that Mew had left the circle. It was as if she had lost interest, and she was withdrawing.

You might think it’s over-consciousness, but I was vaguely aware of it. The real reason for leaving is the country.

Yes, Mu’s surroundings were changing because of me. From that moment when I firmly rejected Mu. Everything. Because of me.

Mu was always alone. She didn’t make any real friends. Because I don’t need it. Because Mu always said. That I was enough

I always thought that was normal.

I thought it was natural.

In the future. Unconsciously.

Funny.

The seat next to her after I had disappeared was no longer strange to anyone sitting down.

It doesn’t matter though. Rather, that side of her might be a better path for her.

I made her choice for me who couldn’t love someone anymore, and for her who couldn’t truly love her for me.

… I thought.

“Are you an idiot?”

Individual interview.

Senior Elena, who came to me unexpectedly without prior notice and dragged me to the basement of the Frontier Headquarters.