170. can she turn me down

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gulp.

The sound of swallowing could be heard, albeit very faintly.

“… … .”

Even as I stared at Instructor Adelia’s body without saying anything, I was clearly crossing the line. So I felt like I was taking a big gamble.

When I said I was going to ask a question earlier, it was just an excuse to look at her body.

This gaze itself, blatantly looking at her body, was like ‘true intention’.

“…”

As I looked at her black instructor’s uniform and her swollen uniform that was about to explode, her body came into my eyes even more clearly.

Her ideally proportioned body, with breasts larger than any woman I had ever seen, was simply beautiful. It would not be an exaggeration to say that it had a fatal charm that anyone would look at as if possessed.

‘That’s how much my gaze will feel rude.’

I was aware of how my actions would appear to her.

That’s why I’ve been consciously trying not to look at her body.

But now that I am aware of that, I continue to blatantly scan my body. My heart was also a little on the edge.

Had he ever looked at her so openly? Even in the last 10 days or so spent with her in the infirmary, I could say that there had never been anything like this.

A relationship with her that has become close enough to be described as quite friendly. I didn’t want to ruin it, so I refrained from doing it myself.

But now.

Completely violating that, I looked at her body with a sticky gaze. Even though she was looking at me like this, she was really openly acting like that.

To see her reaction to my actions.

To determine what’s on her mind… … .

“… … .”

“… … .”

Me, who gave her a deep gaze, and Adelia, who paused at my gaze and said nothing. Silence lingered between us.

Such silence itself had a meaning.

…Adelia is surprisingly not against me.

The fact that even though I crossed the line like this, she was so ‘conscious’ of me that she allowed more. Even as I felt it, my heart was drawn.

I pretended to be calm and said what I was thinking.

“This is a personal question, Instructor Adelia… are you dating anyone right now?”

I don’t think there will be a lover in the meantime, but there was a word that I was going to ask a question, so I asked it as a formality.

“Now, wait a minute. Agar Cadet? There are limits to the questions that even I can accept… … ?”

As if she came to her senses belatedly to my question, she shows a small reaction of rejection.

Even as I met her slightly frowning eyes, I didn’t feel any sense of danger or tension to the extent that it was strange.

If it was another time, I would have been very embarrassed and evasive, even though I would have to apologize.

‘at all.’

I didn’t feel like doing that.

Rather, I had the feeling that she allowed too much of me. Now that it’s too late, I feel like they’re trying to push me away, so I didn’t want to accept that.

Even her refusal to decisively push me away made me feel ‘too’ weak.

‘…There are limits to what can be accepted.’

It was no different from saying that he would allow all my actions so far.

So I even smiled lightly as if nothing was wrong.

“Can’t you answer my question?”

What I said was clearly not a question that a cadet would ask an instructor. I could tell from the fact that Gerard, who had asked a similar question in Carly’s first lecture in the past, was severely beaten by her.

But I had no hesitation.

The line that shouldn’t be crossed has already been crossed.

Rather, it crossed the line once again. If I don’t properly check her mind now, I will continue to misunderstand her alone.

“ha… … .”

Looking at me like that, I let out a big sigh as if I was embarrassed, but I just looked at her calmly.

Even when she stared at me as if she was in trouble, my heart didn’t shake or fluctuate.

I just had to look.

Rather, the image of her who was greatly shaken by my words and hesitated.

Then, before I knew it, I realized that I was feeling that way.

‘What should I do?’

I was thinking that I was superior to her.

I’m sure that if I push on like this, the line between her and me will greatly narrow. Intuitively, I even felt that she would accept me.

So I no longer looked at her body with sticky eyes. The line has already been crossed several times, and now the only thing left to do is to check your heart.

“do not have. Something like a lover.”

In the end, when I reluctantly gave an answer and avoided my gaze, a small smile lingered on my lips without my knowledge.

Does she know now?

That such a reaction itself feels like another signal to me.

I wasn’t sure if she was conscious or if she was just shy.

It didn’t matter what it was in the first place.

Seruk.

Even as I lightly clenched my hand… My heart was filled with strange heat.

“Thank you for your answer. To be honest, I’ve been curious about it for a long time. Questions about whether a beautiful person like Instructor Adelia might have a lover or a suitable match.”

…I cleared my mind once while talking quite naturally.

If she is a cadet like me, the status. Or if I had been in a position to act boldly, I would have pushed her hard.

But we didn’t have that kind of relationship.

“… … Cadet of Hancheonseong. Did you think that while looking at me?”

Adelia asked me with a slightly dazed look at my appearance, and she naturally nodded.

“Yeah. You are so beautiful. No matter what kind of man he is… Any man would be very attracted to Instructor Adelia.”

“…It’s something I sometimes feel when I’m with Cadet Han Chun-seong, but did you know that there’s really no hesitation in what I say? It’s really… I’m accepted like this. Normally, you shouldn’t say that to an instructor.”

Seeing Adelia talking to me with a bit of caution, I didn’t even think to check something more.

Even just staring blankly. I’m sure now

ㅡThere is a heart.

that she has feelings for me When I realized that clearly, I had to feel the confusion of a different meaning.

I honestly didn’t hate her either. If I had to distinguish between good and bad, I could say it was the good side.

‘Who would hate Adelia?’

She was beautiful, kind, and other than that, she had the charm of a mature woman in many ways, such as her body.

Sometimes they express their charm without hesitation with mischievous pranks, and sometimes they close the distance without hesitation.

For me, who had spent time together, it felt even bigger.

So it felt like my heart was about to explode.

glimpse.

“…”

As if looking at me even now, Adelia looked at me and then avoided it.

against her.

‘What should I do.’

It is said that I realized her heart, but then I had to establish my attitude now.

I realized in an instant.

we now… I realized that I was on the verge of entering a very dangerous relationship.

gulp.

As I swallowed, I inadvertently wiped my face once.

“…Then, cadet of Han Chun-seong. I think it would be nice to end here for today, how about it?”

I blankly nodded at her voice saying that she wanted to end this place.

“Yes. Instructor Adelia… I really enjoyed today.”

“I really liked it too. Next week, I’ll check the body of the cadet Han Chun-seong properly. Can’t you just overdo it?”

Looking at her smiling lightly as if she had regained her composure now, on the contrary, I was wrapped in deep pensiveness.

The feeling of looking at Adelia was completely different from before.

As she looked at me and smiled, thinking that she was more beautiful, I even had a strange possessive desire to have her.

If I approach Adelia as it is now.

If I catch her trying to break up… … .

‘Could she reject me?’

It was a really fleeting thought.

“… … .”

But I couldn’t bring the thought out of my mouth. Many thoughts were filling my head right now.

“Yeah. Until then… I won’t overdo it either.”

“like. Then see you next week.”

Sarak.

She gently smiled and gently brushed my hair and stood up, and I was stunned by the subtle skinship.

…Compared to before, the feeling was completely different.

‘Is she conscious of her actions now?’

I was not too wary of what kind of heart he was treating me with or whether he was giving me distance, so it made me wonder.

Moreover, if I noticed her mind, there was a high probability that she was already aware of her own mind.

As if giving me countless excuses today, maybe all the things I’ve been tempting were intentional actions.

I’ve felt it before, but the girl I looked at didn’t act the way I did to the other cadets. That much I could be sure of.

“…”

Looking at the back of her heading to the opposite side of the dormitory where I stayed. Carefully, I took a step.

that buck

that buck… .

As I walked, only a deep sigh leaked out.

“Whoa… .”

I was happy that someone had a crush on me. On the other hand, the confusion multiplied and dominated my head.

ㅡInstructor and cadet.

First of all, I cared too much about where she and I were.

There was a thick boundary line that made it impossible for me to judge on my own.

‘In the first place, the instructor and the cadet could have been… a relationship?’

Even in the work of Groara, which is the background of this world, I have never seen the heroine who is an instructor. Even Leonhardt, who flirted with every woman he met, strictly kept the line with the instructor.

That said, even the guy who unintentionally possessed countless heroines didn’t touch the instructor.

But I am not the main character.

“I and Instructor Adelia… … ?”

Even as I muttered in a daze, my heart continued to shake greatly.

…Fiction and reality were different.

And even in the novel, there was no case like that.

‘That I… .’

Will I be able to afford it?