159. weird time

***

Seruk.

Carly’s white hand touched the cheek of the defenseless nature.

The sudden contact made her eyes shake, and Kali looked at him and blinked.

“… … .”

Kali, who looked at the nature with defocused eyes in her slightly flushed face, simply held him in her own eyes.

After the action of just placing a hand on his cheek, he didn’t say anything.

How many seconds had passed?

In a time that feels very long. Carly moved her hand slowly.

Kali’s hand, which slowly stroked her face, was very slow and cautious. If someone saw her like that, it was a touch with special emotions that would feel like touching something precious.

“…Instructor?”

When the distraught nature opened its mouth in that touch, Kali suddenly opened her lips.

“Just a moment… … .”

Callie’s voice was filled with heat.

Hearing her voice for the first time, the nature couldn’t bear to reply.

He just becomes more and more aware of the heat he feels from the hand touching his face.

And at such a natural appearance, Kali’s eyes slowly returned to focus. Kali, who looked at the nature that looked directly at herself, hesitated for a moment.

‘I don’t know either.’

Throughout the sparring, a heat that even he could not understand rose up in his heart. The heat continued to shake his heart, and the more he matched with Cadet Han Chun-seong, the more the shaking grew.

It was hard to calm down even after hitting, blocking, and spilling the spear.

pounding.

pounding.

And that heart hasn’t calmed down even now.

“… … .”

The chest beats obviously faster than usual. It wasn’t the intense heat from sparring, and I knew that my body wasn’t sending signals that it was tired.

In addition, I naturally realized that it was not just today that I felt these emotions.

…So, little by little, I understood.

The emotions and heat I felt when I was with Cadet Han Chun-seong.

It’s just that those feelings are only felt even more today… … .

Seruk.

The skin that I carefully touched with my hands felt different.

Have you ever felt someone’s skin this far? Looking back, I had no such memory.

That’s why I wondered if it was such a strange feeling, but I had no regrets about my actions.

Because I thought my heart would calm down a little if I touched it or approached it.

While realizing that I was relying on the goodwill of Cadet Han Chun-seong, who reflected his good heart. I just had to look at him.

What is the heat that fills this heart? A little more I wanted to know.

It was hard to bear it now.

Squeak, squeak… … .

The reaction of Cadet Han Chun-seong, who trembled whenever he carefully touched his face, came into view. Maybe it was a natural reaction, but it seemed a little strange to me.

It was strangely addicting to meekly accepting my gestures.

To the extent that I want to keep touching him a little longer.

Then I had a strange thought.

‘Cadet Han Chun-seong is so obedient to me… .’

It must be because of the relationship between the instructor and the cadet.

The fact that Cadet Han Chun-seong is obediently accepting my words to stay with me for a while, in order to hear it right now, maybe that’s why he’s accepting my hand without any resistance.

Thinking about it, the feeling of being in danger rose greatly.

‘Now I… … .’

It shouldn’t be like this.

As soon as I felt like I was contacting Cadet Han Chun-seong while standing on the authority of an instructor, my heart felt heavy.

Startle.

So, even the hand that was unconsciously stroking it stopped.

Then, a little more clearly he came in.

That Cadet Han Chun-seong, who had accepted my touch, was looking at me with a slightly deeper gaze. And even looking at me with confused eyes as if it was the end.

“… … .”

I bit my lip for a moment, thinking that I should let go of my hand now.

Words imbued with pure kindness that cadet Han Chun-seong gave me. I thought that acting based on those words was the last line.

…But my hands, which were still touching, did not separate.

No, I didn’t want to take it off.

My heart sank before I knew it as I saw Cadet Han Chun-seong looking at me.

He was no longer beating as loud as usual, and was even thinking rationally as if he had regained his composure.

So I realized what I was doing.

“Can I… just a little more?”

But, without even realizing it, I said something absurd.

It was as if he was asking permission from Cadet Han Chun-seong… … .

If a while ago I leaned on those words and approached Cadet Han Chun-seong as an authority, now I wonder if the Cadet will accept me. I inadvertently wanted to open his mind.

The time when I was looking at Cadet Han Chun-seong with great tension.

My heart started beating loudly in a different way.

What should I do if I reject me, can I be responsible for the words I spit out?

What was he thinking when he said such a stupid thing… … .

When all kinds of thoughts are full.

its lips opened.

“Why is the instructor doing this to me now? I don’t know the exact reason. But if the instructor wants to continue, I’m fine.”

Cadet Han Chun-seong’s eyes were completely focused on me as he spoke cautiously while holding a slight smile.

I nodded my head in a daze as I felt unfamiliar with my reflection in those eyes.

Seruk.

‘Because Cadet Han Chun-seong trusts me.’

Ironically, I could feel his trust in me from what he had just said.

Right now, I clearly feel that I have embarrassed and confused cadet Han Chun-seong. Still, I wanted to lean on it.

he accepts me now

Since he didn’t reject my actions, I felt a strange feeling of wanting to keep leaning on him.

Squeak, squeak… … .

I carefully stroked his face as he did not avoid my gaze, with his eyes wide open in embarrassment and confusion.

In fact, I was a little scared to do anything more than this.

Cadet Han Chun-seong must still be very embarrassed. I feel like if I do anything more than that, he will definitely reject me.

So I couldn’t bear to do anything else.

Cadet Han Chun-seong, who hesitated and accepted my gestures, gradually took on an unnatural look. Even I didn’t think my actions were right now.

And when I thought of more than that, I inadvertently shook my head.

Seruk.

As I barely let go of my hands, it felt as if my body was somehow getting a lot more heat.

…I reached out to see why my heart was so shaken.

As soon as I finished everything, I lost my mind even more.

‘Have I become weird since I came back after being on the front line for a long time?’

I often heard various reasons why I shouldn’t stay on the front for a long time.

It is said that contacting blood for a long time and being affected by negative thoughts will inevitably cause abnormalities in the mind and body.

Even if you think you’re okay, you end up in a state where you’re not okay at all… … .

I overheard those words, but I didn’t know that maybe I was like that now.

Standing on the frontlines, my mind went numb little by little, and I had to spend the first few days acclimatising in the lively atmosphere of the academy.

Seruk.

Cadet Han Chun-seong, who inadvertently touched the missing face of my hand, was looking at me.

I was taken aback by the gaze as if I had nothing more to say.

“…”

He licked his lips, but no words came out.

‘What should I say here.’

How can I explain what the action just before meant and why I acted the way I did? Didn’t even come up with a reason.

‘I just… wanted to do it.’

So I approached, and I had a strong desire to see Cadet Han Chun-seong up close.

So that’s what he did.

But even if I died, I couldn’t say that.

because it’s so weird I was afraid just thinking about what Cadet Han Chun-seong would think of me. The fact that I stopped at the line of touching my face was probably the last conscience I had.

The last conscience that I thought I was dealing with Cadet Han Chun-seong as an instructor.

Other than that, I couldn’t even try the other actions that came to mind.

“Hey, that cadet of Han Chun-seong.”

Even as I struggled to open my mouth, my heart was pounding loudly.

The heat rose on his face, and he smiled awkwardly even as the accident stopped dripping.

“Yes. Instructor.”

Cadet Han Chun-seong, who answered calmly, regained his composure before he knew it. Looking at the face that seemed ready to listen, I felt like I was the only one who suddenly felt strange.

‘why… .’

Am I the only one who is embarrassed like this? Cadet Han Chun-seong, who was subjected to such behavior by me, must be more embarrassed and confused… .

Even in my stupid thoughts, I nodded cautiously.

“…I think I did something really stupid because I was a little confused. My actions a while ago don’t mean much. I don’t want Cadet Han Chun-seong to think too much. After today, I want you to forget about it.”

Even the dripping words were cut off.

Even so, I feel like my head will explode right away. To me now, such stupid words were the best.

‘What the hell did I do?’

To be an instructor and lay hands on students without hesitation.

…I just wanted to hide somewhere because I was embarrassed when I think about how I even asked if I could do more.

However, I couldn’t escape from the gaze of Cadet Han Chun-seong, who was seeking answers from me.

I had to face the shame that I had to somehow convey the words as if to make an excuse.

at that time. A small laugh was heard.

…When I looked blankly at him, Cadet Han Chun-seong was smiling lightly for some reason.

***

The embarrassing hour ended when her hand fell.

And, to be honest, what Carly said at the end was hard to understand at all.

I didn’t know why Carly was so embarrassed and ashamed, and I couldn’t even guess why she was reaching out to me.

‘There’s something I did today.’

My behavior with Carly was no different than usual.

It was a time when I just kept my manners and engaged in sparring. That was all it really was.

So I thought over and over again, and then a stupid laugh leaked out.

Seruk.

Carly staring blankly at me caught my eye as I blankly patted the cheek that Carly’s hand had touched.

Feeling ashamed of his reddened face seems to be regretting his actions, but it looked strangely cute.

“Confused mind… If you say that, I will understand. Instructor is definitely the same person, so I think that’s enough. So don’t be so embarrassed and ashamed. Because I didn’t hate it either.”

I just said it honestly.

that time a little while ago.

Actually I wasn’t bad.

A beauty the size of Carly is behaving strangely like this to me… Actually, I was a little excited.

“…Didn’t you hate my touch?”

Looking at Carly asking blankly, my hand inadvertently itched.

‘If you ask with that expression, I want to do it too.’

…I just wanted to reverse what she did to me.

How does it feel to just be touched by someone?

How weird it really feels… .

Please feel it for yourself.