158. stay like that for a while

***

click.

While directing Elimien’s consideration to Cheonseong, Carly was immersed in other thoughts.

That’s just the question of ‘Has something happened today to help you control your emotions?’ It was a worry.

Today, I clearly felt that my heart was greatly shaken.

I couldn’t deny that my emotions had suddenly changed during the midterm evaluation that had happened just a few hours earlier.

‘Why did I feel such a big emotional change?’

Living as an instructor at the academy, there wasn’t really anything difficult about it, even with empty words.

There was a difference that couldn’t even be compared with the time on the front line, which was busy at one o’clock a day, right in the academy instructor position.

When it comes to preparing for lectures, assistants help almost all of them, and even the lecture schedule is fully planned. In fact, it was a day with a schedule that would not be unreasonable to start the lecture without preparation for the day.

…but today.

Suddenly, my heart was greatly shaken.

Because at the end of the midterm evaluation, my mood became strangely bad.

So that bothered me.

That’s… not like me. That thought didn’t leave my head.

Naturally, the higher the attribute level, the more you have to control your emotions. Because I know very well how much damage and accidents sometimes cause fickle emotions.

ㅡWith great power comes great responsibility.

It was like a kind of truth that we are subtly aware of in our daily lives.

Great power was never simply given, and there was even a belief that if there was great power, it should be used correctly.

In the empire now, it is possible to lead a life as it is now, made up of the beliefs and efforts of many beings.

‘therefore. I also felt that I had to control my emotions thoroughly… .’

The deeper I thought, the more my doubts grew.

Why my feelings were so shaken, even when I thought about it, I couldn’t come up with a reason.

It didn’t make sense even if it was a joke that I was tired just watching the cadets’ evaluation, and it wasn’t because I didn’t like the performance of the cadets I saw during the midterm evaluation.

Rather, the last two groups showed quite satisfactory results.

‘Really, where did I get offended?’

The car that deepened my thoughts.

“Instructor Carly… … ?”

At the cautious voice, I was conscious of the existence that came into my eyes in a daze.

“Oh sorry.”

While immediately apologizing and putting Elimian’s consideration on the other ear, only an awkward smile leaked out.

My thoughts went too deep.

click.

Cadet Han Chun-seong caught my eye as he inadvertently and calmly accepted the touch while matching the earrings.

‘…His concentration was amazing.’

In today’s midterm evaluation, it could be said that he was a cadet who showed an overwhelming performance.

Ironically, out of close to 50 cadets, the cadet with the lowest attribute rating showed these results.

The growth that surprised even me.

Even now, those two eyes that looked at me with a neat and tidy appearance and even more chaste eyes were catching my gaze.

Seruk.

…as she gently removed her hand, her lips trembled.

A strange feeling I’ve been thinking about for the past few hours. Strangely, it felt a little similar to how I feel now.

It feels like it tickles my chest strangely… An indescribable feeling that feels like it’s teasing me… … .

“Let’s catch our breath for a moment and start sparring. You said you came after training, so you should rest a bit.”

“Instructor Carly. I am okay.”

Seeing him smile lightly, he hesitated for a moment and shook his head.

“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. Just… listen to me.”

Without even realizing it, a determined voice leaked out that surprised even me.

“……All right.”

When Cadet Han Chun-seong was visibly taken aback, my heart fluttered again.

“It’s okay, I can’t just overdo it. I… I did it because I wanted Cadet Han Chun-seong to make up his mind a little more slowly.”

As he added his words right away, he inadvertently distanced himself from Cadet Han Chun-seong.

“okay. Yes. understand.”

Cadet Han Chun-seong took a deep breath and took his eyes off him, staring at the empty space.

Even as I stared blankly at him, I also took a slow breath.

‘What’s the matter… .’

In the lecture, Cadet Han Chun-seong didn’t act out of my sight, but I instinctively understood it all of a sudden.

The reason my heart went bad a few hours ago, the reason my heart is shaking.

That all of that was caused by Cadet Han Chun-seong… ….

Seruk. As I blankly clenched and opened my hands, my heart gradually calmed down.

“…”

While frowning, he began to erase all the thoughts that had filled him up.

After all, I had to focus on Dalian and guide him. I didn’t want to be neglected by Cadet Han Chun-seong, lost in my thoughts like an idiot.

“…”

Slowly raise your hands to your chest, being conscious of inhaling and exhaling.

And following that distinctive breathing sound, the mind regained its composure even more.

‘…That’s funny.’

Then, I felt very silly for acting like that.

To calm myself down on the battlefield or to keep my composure in an urgent situation, I myself was doing what I do in this situation… Even thinking about it again, it was ridiculous.

I don’t know the proper reason, but I am now. It’s because my heart is being shaken by a mere cadet.

Even so, he did not ignore and deny this reality.

softly.

I brushed my hair once and let out a little empty smile.

‘I feel really stupid… .’

Maybe my heart was relaxed in the peaceful atmosphere of the academy, and my emotional changes might have loosened up a bit.

If you think about it in the first place, it wasn’t even a change in emotions that would be so vigilant.

It had been over a month since the tension of the electric wires that had been strangling his whole body disappeared, so he was able to fully relax his mind.

Thinking so, I looked at Cadet Han Chun-seong, and I was a little surprised.

“…!”

As soon as my eyes met, Cadet Han Chun-seong avoided me as if he was surprised.

As if he was looking at me, his expression of bewilderment was clear.

Even the slightly reddened face felt strangely new and strange.

To the point where I realized myself again.

He coughed for a moment and opened his mouth.

“…Then, A Cadet. Shall we start sparring?”

Speaking of which, I became strangely nervous.

‘In fact… .’

Perhaps reason was still unfamiliar to Cadet Han Chun-seong. Even in the last Dalian, I personally felt that Cadet Han Chun-seong was rationally pure.

That’s why Cadet Han Chun-seong might feel a little weird looking at me… .

Without thinking, I shook my head.

pounding!

Suddenly, my heart was beating loudly.

‘What nonsense… .’

There was no way that Cadet Han Chun-seong would have a strange feeling towards me.

Because he and I are clearly between an instructor and a cadet.

Yeah, that kind of thing… it couldn’t happen and it shouldn’t have happened.

“Yes. Let’s start sparring.”

I was able to shake off my mind with the calm voice of Cadet Han Chun-seong.

that buck

again… .

As we headed to the space where we were accustomed to sparring, our gaze inadvertently went to the side.

“…”

It was a strange feeling that I became more conscious of Cadet Han Chun-seong today.

***

Chaeeng!

The blade of the spear and the sword collided, sparking brilliant sparks.

“…!”

Before I even had time to catch my breath, I turned around and fired the spear again.

In addition to Elimien’s consideration, my body, which deliberately did not handle the spiral mana, was literally overflowing with vitality.

Shuuk!

The trajectory of a spear that goes straight. However, Kali’s sword was moving one step faster, as if it had predicted my attack.

‘As expected, it’s fast.’

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Jjaeng!!

At the same time as she thought, the spear she fired was bouncing off her sword.

Even so, the backlash felt in the hand was noticeably less than before. The power of mana that was wrapped around the body right now. It relieves the load on the body and raises the basic weight class itself in handling the spear.

It gave me a completely different comfort from the power of the spiral.

Now that I go back to the basics and look back at myself.

Mana, which can be handled as naturally as breathing, was so comfortable and cozy.

Shush shush shush!

After that, as I frantically pushed through the window, colorful fireworks adorned my vision.

Chae chae chae chae chae chae!!

It was satisfactory even though there were dozens of attacks and defenses that were continuously blocked and bounced off into the air.

The heavy repulsion I felt in my hand each time made me smile.

‘This is real… .’

Isn’t it sparring and training?

The meaning of matching the sum was also clearly felt.

The more I faced the power of Kali, who now matched me with sparring, the more I realized how powerful and deep her power was.

Every couplet brings a new, new shock.

That’s why I was able to feel happiness by throwing a spear without hesitation.

A primitive pleasure that can be felt by wielding armaments and manifesting power.

‘…Yes, this is like pleasure.’

It was to the point where it felt like a blessed reality that there was someone who could radiate power without wanting to and receive that power.

Chae Ae-Aeng!

Then, as the spear rose into the air with even greater force, I felt as if my body was floating along with the spear, even momentarily.

Seruk!

Immediately, take a step back and rotate your body naturally as if releasing great power.

And as I pushed the spear faster, I naturally looked at Kali.

“…?”

Even for a moment, I had to feel doubt.

I didn’t feel it because I was focusing on her sword, but Kali’s condition was definitely strange today.

I didn’t get the slightest feeling that she was going through the sparring, but her expression, expression, and atmosphere were strange.

“…”

Even now, her eyes were not focused.

Did you have any concerns or things to think about? If you think about it, from the time Elimien gave me consideration today, her condition was not the same as usual.

visor!

He opened his mouth as he naturally retrieved the sharpened spear.

“Instructor Carly. Do you have any concerns?”

“…yes?”

I even lowered the blade of the spear at her late reply.

The sparring itself had already been completed, and my body had reached its limit as well. He was more concerned about Kali now than Dalian.

“All through Dalian, Instructor Carly seemed to be worried. I can’t say that I can be of any help to the instructor… but I can still listen.”

I didn’t presumptuously tell her that I was helpful.

Instead, I suggested what I could do. It is possible to listen to her… .

“I’m so sorry. I’m out of my mind today…”

“If you don’t mind, I want to help Instructor Carly. Instructor has done so much for me, so if there’s anything I can do to help, feel free to tell me anything.”

Even while carefully speaking, I wonder if I could only be her conversation partner. I thought to myself.

‘I wonder how much Carly will need me… .’

To be honest, my existence is objectively nothing.

I thought so then.

“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. Is that… Really?”

Unexpectedly, Carly asked me seriously.

“…Yes. If there is anything I can do to help, I would like to help.”

That time when I was dumbfounded and answered. Carly slowly reached out.

…Even glancing at it, of course he didn’t refuse her hand.

It was Carly in the first place.

She is like an ally to me no matter who sees it.

“Then wait a minute. Cadet Han Chun-seong, please stay as it is for a moment.”

However, as Kali, exhaling strangely excited, slowly approaches… .

“…”

The accident seemed to have stopped.