66 – If I disappear

{Tees}: Oh, my child…. Ooh, don’t cry…

{Tees} : I’m very angry, and it’s absurd, but…

{Tis}: Listen to me just once, just once.

I can see the message of the Goddess rising through the blurred vision due to being wet with tears.

The inside is messy, and it is not easy to organize.

The mouth opens, then closes, and repeats.

Between them, only the crumbs of words that have not yet formed a language flow.

“Ugh… Ugh…”

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Just before I was about to break down like that.

The alarm in the status window that rang once again caught me.

ㅡTitling!

{Tice}: I, I can change everything.

{Tis} : If you want, I’ll bring you out of the story again.

……Changing?

What? What are you going to change now?

{Tis} : I will send you to another world.

{Tis}: Reversing the timeline is difficult, so starting this world from scratch would be impossible, but

{Tis}: It is possible to leave this world and send it to another world.

Another world…?

Leaving this world, to another world…?

{Tees}: Yes, kid. It’s starting from scratch in a different world.

{Tis} : If you want, I’ll transform you into another novel.

“……”

I stared blankly at the blue windows floating in front of me.

Anger was still burning, and discouragement was still overflowing.

However, the message seen through the blue window was to seduce me once more.

{Tis}: Didn’t I promise you happiness?

{Tis}: That wasn’t a lie at all. It wasn’t cheating either.

{Tis}: Trust me one more time.

{Tice}: This time, to you…

What the message contained was a sweet temptation.

And that temptation drew me in.

If, as the goddess said, we leave this world and go to another world.

Maybe this time, I can live a happier life.

Probably.

In this foolish body, without suffering here and there, without being hated,

You will be able to enter the body of a person who is loved by many people and receive the happiness and love that you so longed for.

“…Really? Really, this time properly…”

{Tees}: Yes, kid. Let’s talk about all the births of this Absolute God.

“……”

ㅡTitling!

[Admin, Tis’s authority gives you the option to dispel possession!]

[Are you sure you want to release the possession?]

[Yes/No]

New windows pop up before your eyes.

The content is sweet.

the happiness you dreamed of.

The longed-for end of misfortune.

Unwanted things are placed right in front of your eyes.

If you just stretch out your hand like this, you should be able to reach it.

However…..

“……”

{Tees}: Hey…?

Hands do not move easily.

Even though everything can be changed with one click, the mouth does not fall.

4 months, short if short, long if long.

The time when I was sold for no reason, hated, and sad.

There were many painful and painful times, but

But that doesn’t mean everything in that time was painful.

ㅡBrother! I’m here!

—-Raiden… are you okay?

ㅡ Woohyo!! Crazy Discovery☆Discover!

ㅡI promise I will always be by your side.

Like a single flower blooming in mud.

Even in this swamp of misfortune, strong flowers sprouted stems.

The stems of the flowers that bloomed crudely weave my hands.

It remains as the shackles of the mind.

stupidly.

Despite the fact that greater happiness can be grasped by simply reaching out,

It takes me to let go of the little happiness I am holding in my hands.

After rummaging through complicated thoughts for a while,

I look at the status window and ask.

“…If I leave for another world, what will happen to this body?”

{Tees}: The body…? Umm, since that body was a dead body from the beginning…

{Tys}: Perhaps your soul will be turned to ashes when it leaves.

{Tis}: Originally, the body that should have already returned to the earth has remained for too long…

turn to ashes and disappear

If I leave this world, will this body also disappear at the same time?

Strangely, my heart throbs.

ㅡTitling!

[Are you sure you want to release the possession?]

[Yes/No]

Options flickering before your eyes.

It is decided which one to choose.

I looked at him without a word and moved my hand quietly.

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“Raiden, are you okay? Your complexion looks really bad.”

I came to my senses at Lucy’s question.

It seems that my expression, which was bruised, was not good.

Quietly sweeping the corners of the mouth, it relaxes the stiff facial muscles.

“It’s okay, princess. It’s just because I didn’t sleep a little bit.”

Let me say that with an awkward smile,

Lucy gave me a suspicious look and poked me in the shoulder.

“…..Really are you okay? You’re strange today… You don’t seem to be able to concentrate well in class…”

“Haha… It’s really good…”

Was it that much teasing?

I scratch my head in embarrassment.

She shrugged her shoulders as a sign that she was okay with Lucy.

I grabbed the fan I had left, and the class started paying attention again.

“…So, in this formula 28, cut off the mana circuit and use formula 2 and formula 3 to weaken it…”

ㅡ square square…

The movements of the students tilting their fans back and forth according to the professor’s words are quite busy.

It’s probably because the final exams are just around the corner, so everyone is nervous.

The writing next week will have as much impact on your grades as the ranking match the following week.

I started moving the fan with the thought that I would not lose to him.

“…If you overlap all the expressions like that and cause an overload, you can cast the simple intermediate magic, Explosion…”

But even while moving my hands, even while studying hard,

Before long, the thoughts drift to a distant place.

It was because of what happened last night.

“……”

Last night, the Goddess gave me a choice.

I couldn’t answer that option at all.

I just evaded the choice by vaguely evading it.

ㅡA little bit… can you give me some time?

—-Ah, no, it’s not like that, it’s just… it bothered me a little…

ㅡWorrying about it for a day…

“ha…..”

A light sigh escapes between your lips.

It was because my head was complicated.

Frustrated, I try to fiddle with the simmacho in my pocket.

……If you smoke in class, you’ll get kicked out, right?

I turn my head in thoughtless thoughts.

Then, Lucy’s face came into view.

Blonde hair that seemed to have been woven from melting sun, and blue eyes that resembled the sea.

I looked at him for a moment and thought.

……If I disappear, what will happen to Lucy?

On top of her beautiful face, Lucy’s weeping figure overlaps.

ㅡHeuk… ugh…

ㅡNa, I’m really afraid you’ll die…

ㅡReally… I was really worried…

After I disappear from this world, what should Lucy, who is left alone, say when she sees my empty seat?

probably cry out loud

The person called me… No, the person named Raiden was the only support in Lucy’s life.

When I thought about that, my heart throbbed again.

Let’s look at Lucy’s face while trying to capture a part of my heart

Our eyes meet the blue eyes that were yawning.

Her white cheeks turned red.

“Ra, Raiden…? Why are you looking at me like that…?”

Seeing how he stuttered, it seemed embarrassing to see him yawn.

I shook my head at the question and smiled lightly.

“It’s nothing. It’s just…”

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Just a little something to think about…

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My thoughts were seldom organized.

No, on the contrary, it just seemed to get more complicated the further I went.

After spending the whole day thinking about the night before, I returned to the dorm without even thinking about it.

As soon as he arrives, he undoes his uniform and throws himself onto the bed.

He rummaged through his pockets, took out the marijuana, put it in his mouth, and set it on fire.

ㅡChak, chiik…

“ha……”

With a sigh, the exhaled smoke spreads for a long time.

Without fail, the fragrant scent of medicinal herbs lingers on the back of the nose.

As I speak and act nothing but smoke and sigh,

Rachel, who was standing outside the door, cautiously enters the room.

“Bocchan… are you okay? You look like you’re having a hard time…”

His eyes were looking at me with his hands clasped neatly together, with concern in his eyes.

That look made my heart more complicated.

I averted my gaze, evasive like Lucy’s time.

“Whoa… it’s okay. It’s just… it’s nothing special. I have something to think about…”

“……”

At my words, Rachel nodded quietly and stood still.

Maybe he noticed that when I said I was okay, it was a lie.

‘As expected… I can’t win against Rachel…’

With a bitter smile, I put Shimmacho in my mouth again.

So for a while, I just let out smoke without saying anything.

Contrary to the silence in the room, my heart is very noisy.

I quietly turn my gaze and look out the window.

An orange world with a red sunset comes into view.

The scenery of the academy illuminated by the breaking sun was extremely beautiful.

“Whoa…”

Shake off the burnt and ashes remaining, and take out a new candle.

before putting it back in your mouth.

In a small voice, I ask Rachel, who had been standing quietly next to me.

“……Rachel.”

“Yes, Bocchan.”

“What if… what if, Rachel.”

hesitate to speak

Because I was in pain and afraid of something.

My voice trembles.

“What if, if only… what would you do if I disappeared again?”