15 – dare – 2

The first thing I felt for him was gratitude.

can’t it just be

To voluntarily go on an arduous journey to defeat the demon king without receiving divine protection.

That will was something that could never be underestimated.

That’s why I was just grateful to the sage who followed me on the journey.

On the first journey, when he fought the devil’s subordinates, his gratitude doubled. He gave a sense of security to the gigantic flying dragon, who pressured him with terrible noises and screams, by singing and playing his lute.

and subsequent recovery.

When the first journey was barely over, he looked quite tired. Still, he smiled.

It must have been more difficult because I didn’t receive divine protection.

It would have been more painful because it was not his mission.

That’s why I couldn’t help but be grateful to him.

Not just in battle, but throughout the journey, they did what they should have done instead.

Fighting monsters is hard work. It wasn’t just a simple battle, it was the same in equipment inspection and repair.

The warrior’s sword, which only a hero can use, is indestructible and does not require repair, but he and Evangeline were different.

No matter how precious a sword is, it is bound to get damaged while cutting through the flesh and blood of monsters, and no matter how good a bow is, it will become weak if used for a long time.

It was impossible to do repairs and maintenance every battle, but the wise man did it skillfully.

Thanks to that, the battle could be conducted more easily.

During the journey, it was not possible to stop by the village every time. No, even if I stopped by the village, I couldn’t eat the dishes that fit my taste.

Evangeline likes vegetables.

The one who likes meat.

To them, the wise man cooked enough delicious dishes with few ingredients.

When fatigue sets in after a suffocating battle, he always flicks his lute to relieve the burdens accumulated in his heart.

In the whole process, I felt grateful to the wise man, and that gratitude soon became a longing.

Couldn’t that be the case?

He would be hard, he would be suffering.

However, he did not give up even for a moment, and always performed his role silently.

It wasn’t once or twice when he thought that this was the proof of a true hero.

And, from the actions of the wise man during the journey, his admiration for him only grew.

The sage never let go of a difficult person.

Thank you.

Thank you for taking care of such trivial things.

It was fun.

For making me smile during a difficult journey.

so i helped him

The wise man and Hyeonu were such good people that I wondered if he was a goalless person.

He laughed no matter what he heard, and he enjoyed helping people for little pay.

To help the weak and save the world.

In addition to fighting monsters, he tried to help people in any way he could.

How could I not admire that nobility?

And every time.

I realized my own inadequacies.

He does everything even though he walks a difficult path on his own, and always finds the right answer.

I admired him, wanted to be like him, so I followed him, but I could only get one thing.

It’s hard and not fun.

As much as she admired him, appreciated him, and developed affection for him, she felt misery at the fact that she could never be like him.

Isn’t it natural

Everyone wants a reward, and the stronger the ability, the greater the reward.

But the wise man was different.

He was not interested in rewards, only interested in helping others.

And when he did it, he always had a proud smile.

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Just like helping others is your mission.

so that.

I was jealous of him.

He felt envious of the goodness beyond his understanding, which could not be like him.

he wasn’t wrong

He is a hero enough to be considered ideal.

However.

So what am I?

As a fellow warrior, I want to save the world.

Why can’t I become a noble person like a wise man?

The soggy darkness that was hidden in the heart was revealed whenever the wise man’s heroic spirit was seen, and when it reached its climax, it was when Baekwolgyo, a cult, attacked Baekeun Village.

It was when he managed to find a clue about the hidden subordinate of the Demon King.

At that time, he learned that a group of cultists were attacking the village where he was staying.

Those who have quite powerful and dangerous powers.

The number of those who defended the village was not so many, and I knew that the warrior party would be of great help in defending the village.

However, if you fight here, you may not be able to use the clues you barely got.

I was worried.

The warrior party has a mission to defeat the demon king and bring salvation to the world.

I had to give up the small things for the big ones.

This town will not be able to be defended.

In that dilemma, the sage spoke as if it were natural.

I will protect this place, you guys go.

Let’s be honest.

It was a crowd.

Even if they were part of a party of warriors, it was impossible to protect this village.

If they do something wrong, they can put themselves at risk.

So he said that he would rather evacuate with the villagers, but he said calmly.

that you can keep

that you can win

And, he finally did it.

With only a small number of troops, a few priests, and a heretic inquisitor, he eventually succeeded in defeating the group of cults and protecting the village.

I realized it the moment I saw it.

I.

I will never be able to surpass you in my life.

I.

I’ll have to live under your shadow for the rest of my life.

you.

Unlike me who was wrong every time, you were right this time too.

As much as I admired and liked the sage, as much as I wanted to be like him, the jealousy that swelled eventually fully settled.

I didn’t like everything about him.

you are always right you are always virtuous you are always a hero

I myself next to you, dazzlingly shining, are so small and shabby.

That’s why I wanted to pull it down.

I wanted to criticize you, curse you, and bully you so that you would be in the same place as me.

but you haven’t changed

No swearing, no selling, no criticism. Nothing could fade your light.

Because it is so miserable and painful.

For always showing me the right path and pointing me in the direction to become a hero.

It made me even more miserable, and I cursed at you.

Every time my gratitude to you grows, I realize myself becoming small and shabby, and I have denied you.

and.

in the end you left

I was happy.

‘Cause there’s no more light

I was happy.

‘Cause I’m not getting smaller

I was happy.

Because there is no such thing as you, I thought I could become a hero too.

and.

lost

In the darkness, the only lighthouse that pointed the right way was lost.

I realized it only after he disappeared.

I.

What did you do?

I realized it only after the light called you disappeared.

You must have been in the dark too.

you were having a hard time too

But you, as the light, led us and me.

i broke it

I’m lost.

i broke it

I.

The great light that is you has let go.

I couldn’t tell.

When I didn’t know what to do, it was different from the past when I got answers by looking at you.

‘Cause you’re gone and I’m lost

Not knowing what to do, not knowing what to achieve.

I just had to stay in the dark forever.

found you

You who I broke, I lost, and I destroyed.

You still shine beautifully and save people, but you never came to me.

Ahh.

scary.

Because there is no light called you

pain.

I don’t have the warmth that is you

Im sad.

Because there is no pillar called you

and.

I am so terrible and disgusted with myself for letting you go.

But it’s already too late.

I even lost the opportunity to apologize to you.

In that loss, there was only one thing left.

The day you left, what you said

I will support you to defeat the monster.

There was none other than that.

There is only one thing left.

kill all monsters

If you kill, kill, and kill monsters for the path you cheered for…

So he stayed on the battlefield.

In the most dangerous place, the first to fight, the last to hold out.

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Just like you, I saved people and defeated monsters.

Even so, I realized that I can’t reach you yet.

you are so great I finally found out the misery that it was only this much.

However, the misery was no longer painful.

because it was accepted Because I have come to acknowledge the great existence of you.

So. So.

“Huh… Heh heh… Heh… Heh…”

please.

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Just once.

Because once in a while…

Hear my story.

please please…

****

“I. Sage. Are you okay?”

“Hmm? Is it okay? Does it taste weird?”

“Oh, no. It’s not like that.”

While cooking simple dishes in the barracks, I nodded at the cook’s words.

The sobs from outside were getting stronger, but I didn’t have to worry about it.

“Come on. Give me some more to cut.”

“I-I’m not there anymore. There… more than that.”

“Then I’ll have to eat soon.”

The dishes for the soldiers in the garrison are large. Also, if you cook that large amount of food properly, you will get a lot of points.

I cooked the soup, ignoring Leventia’s sobs and pleas filled with regret and despair.

“That… wise man?”

The werewolf lieutenant came when hundreds of people were making soup to eat. She whispered cautiously to me at the sound she heard outside the barracks.

“Leventia-sama… Can I leave it like that?”

“I can’t, so please clean it up.”

“…uh. um.”

“Isn’t it kind of hard to hear something like that while eating?”

Even so, everyone in the cooking barracks was feeling uncomfortable.

Eventually, the adjutant sighed and went outside, and only then did Leventia’s sobs subside.

“Sage. Why is Leventia acting like that?”

“Because you’re not part-timer? There. Give me some carrots.”

Put the sliced carrots in a large pot and boil them with flame magic. Seeing the muddy soup and other dishes made me happy.

Opportunities to collect points while cooking such large quantities are rare, so do they come to the battlefield often?

Anyway, the cooking was over, and the cooks went out with the things I made.

Those who were just waiting for the meal time flashed their eyes.

“Khaaang…”

“The savory smell that came from earlier…”

“Ugh… today is really going to be awesome…”

Those who were swallowing saliva start approaching with food plates.

between them.

“Tongue, Hyeonu.”

Claire, who came in between the soldiers and knights, hesitantly opened her mouth.

“there…”

“hey.”

I pointed the ladle at her.

“Give me.”

Where do you cut in line?