35 – fail-6

“Why are you doing that?”

Her divine spell touched her body. A bright light enveloped me, but nothing happened.

Although she didn’t know everything about the hero’s strength, Eleanor wasn’t affected by any kind of magic.

If the hero’s power gave resistance to magic or divine spells, there was a chance that her spells would fail.

I passed the soldiers and grabbed the saintess by the collar. She didn’t stop looking me in the eyes, even as she held my hand and cackled.

“You can go back. Again…”

“You really are a crazy bitch.”

I couldn’t stand it any longer. I threw her wildly to the ground.

“Kyaaa!”

She screamed in pain and shuddered. After gagging once, blood flowed from his mouth.

“Isn’t it too late to say I’m sorry? Just for that? Why?”

If you just let me die like this, no one is in danger.

If I had been engulfed in rage just a little longer, I don’t know what would happen if I looked back at this world to get my revenge.

She not only prevented my suicide, she endangered everyone.

even herself.

“I won’t say I’m sorry. I won’t even tell you not to take revenge. It’s okay no matter what you do…”

The saintess barely wiped the blood from her mouth.

“Please live, somehow live…”

I felt a sense of incongruity then. I was mistaken.

The divine spell has been successfully cast. Like a bomb that was set but never exploded, the holy power of the saintess had already entered my body.

“Be happy.”

With her words, a spell was cast.

The vision turned white.

/////

“So, divine power is a power that makes no sense.”

“How?”

The wizard grinned. At that time, I think I thought that smile was cute.

“Think of yourself as a farmer. You farmed on better land, using superior seeds, and more meticulously catching insects and cutting weeds, but the guy next door got a bigger harvest.”

“Why?”

“Because I was more desperate.”

The idea that emotions go into abilities is puzzling even now when I think about it.

“Isn’t it irrational? But, among those in priestly clothes, that’s common sense.”

“It’s amazing.”

“You too, go in there when your adventure is over. Those who believe in goddesses are all hypocrites… but if it’s someone like you, at least she won’t be sad.”

“I’ll take your heart.”

I heard that.

Divine spells are affected by emotions.

Even if you use the same prayer, depending on the feelings of the priest, it becomes a curse or a blessing, and the scale varies depending on the difference between heaven and earth.

If so, how huge were her feelings?

Heroes, wizards, saints, archers, memories in the imperial palace, family, friends. The warmest, coolest, and cozy moments of all the people I’ve met embraced me.

——–

The battle is in full swing in the forest. Eleanor jumped out to grab the captain.

“Here, the monster…”

“be careful.”

A short arrow shot by Nerwen penetrates the eye of the orc behind me.

“thank you!”

are protected Although her tone may be cold and cynical, she was protecting me.

I swung my sword at the orc in front of me, but at that time I was still weak and clumsy. The sword stopped piercing the skin of the orc.

“yap!”

As Celia clasped her hands together and energized them, my sword slashed the monster as if sliding.

“You can’t die in one hit!”

“I’ll avoid it somehow! Don’t worry!”

As the saintess pierced her staff into the ground and cast a spell, several orcs slammed their heads into the ground in confusion.

“You’ve lasted a long time without a hero. I’ll praise you.”

As the prepared wizard casts a spell, the ground shakes and a pillar of fire rises. The smell of burning meat relieved my tension reflexively.

“thank you for your effort.”

Not long after, Eleanor returned. The stains on her white armor suggested the fierceness of the battle.

“The captain has taken care of it. And, you…”

She looked at me, put on a sad expression for a moment, then lowered her head.

“I am sincerely sorry for the difference between my promise and my work. It was definitely a promise to protect you in a safe place.”

“Gwa, it’s okay. This much…”

“As promised, I will risk my life to protect you.”

Eleanor left a short message and went out to deal with the defeated soldiers.

Their battles were literally beyond human level. To the point where I’m thrilled to be able to be one of these.

—–

“Waaa!!!”

the young me is laughing With an ignorant face, riding a roller coaster that falls in an instant.

Even in the midst of her surprise, my mother is worried that I might fall.

“fun?”

“Yeah! It’s fun!”

It’s just fun to move your body. I’m happy that the sight passes in an instant. The wind brushing the cheeks is exciting.

After getting off the balloon, I ran around holding my father and mother’s hands with both hands.

“Shall I buy that?”

As I turn my gaze to the cotton candy machine, Dad immediately squats down and makes eye contact with me.

“yes!”

“No, honey is already a snack. I need to eat some time…”

“No, we had a lot of fun, so it’s time for us to be hungry.”

“I can eat! I’m really hungry, so I’m not full even if I eat that!”

Mom sighed and nodded. Leaving behind my mother sitting on the bench, I ran to the cotton candy store as if competing with my father.

so sweet. As an avid reader of children’s science books, I knew it was nothing but the sum of sugar, air, and spices, but it was delicious nonetheless.

It was worth it.

—–

The happy moments of all my life are beautifully edited and pass through my mind.

Comfort and warm love filled my heart.

“why…”

She seemed to understand a little bit why she put herself at risk, put everyone at risk, and did something no one wanted.

Whatever the process or cause, she could never see my life ending unhappy. I want to protect myself in front of her, no matter what the cost.

She just said ‘happy again’ like an idiot, but she really meant it.

The hero’s resistance did not stop her divine spells.

What the saintess gave me was a blessing with no enemies, so I couldn’t stop it.

“You have to be happy. You have to be happy…”

I couldn’t see anything but happy memories, and I couldn’t see her, probably lying on the ground.

However, her figure hummed out of sight like the voice of a god, echoing through this little magical world.

It’s an order you know. A divine spell that makes people happy and calms excitement.

It wasn’t a great order. If another cleric had used it, it would have been a light spell that made breathing easier.

However, the saintess’ feelings, preparation, and sacrifice contained in it made this spell great.

“Crazy… why?”

As if wrapping up my life, happy emotions and memories hit my head. Vivid and beautiful moments sparkle as if you could go back just by reaching out your hand.

Like an idiot, I repeated the question ‘why’, but I already knew the answer.

Really she, even if it’s stupid, even if it’s too late now.

It’s what I want to be happy.

“under…”

As if forcing me, she poured out her wishes to be happy on me.

The size of the will is different. There was no way I, who had given up saying that this couldn’t work or that couldn’t, defeat Celia, who prepared this spell just to make me happy.

“Please live…”

There are people who beg me that they need me, that please don’t die, that it’s okay if you don’t live a happy life with them, please live again.

With that mind alone, there is at least one human being who creates similar miracles. Even if I am the most hated person in the world.

I didn’t hate the fact that such a person existed.

“In the end, you can’t even commit suicide at will. That’s too much…”

I was devastated.

However, the will to live was found again.

I realized it after seeing my life from a third person’s perspective through a moderately sparkling filter.

It was well worth it, no matter what hardships and time they endured to get it back.

It was so beautiful that I didn’t want to give it up.

Even if you go back, you won’t have any family, but you will be able to meet new people.

I don’t know if I’ll be in the place of a father, or a child, or one of lovers.

Partying again with other people, making friends, going on adventures with friends, creating another family, receiving infinite love again, and giving it back.

It was so beautiful that it was hard to give up.

Quietly, I closed my eyes.

/////

“Good work.”

Farseer’s body has already lost its ability to exercise. If he hadn’t been hit before gaining the power of a hero, he wouldn’t have even saved his life.

“Pa, Mr Parseer?”

Celia, who was on the verge of collapsing, hugged the fallen hero tightly as if to protect it.

Farseer was looking at her with complicated eyes.

he was inferior Unlike himself, who had ruined his perfect plan because he didn’t even have the slightest sense of gratitude, Celia’s divine spell was perfect.

No, it was more than perfect. She was seriously thinking of Enerel.

“I’m not trying to hurt you. First of all, it’s not like it’s fallen. It’s just sleeping because it wants to sleep. If you aim a dagger at it recklessly, it’ll wake me up.”

“Now, wait. You can’t move!”

“A wound like this is fine.”

Farseer lifted her body with magic and moved without using any muscles. Like a harshly used doll, her body moved unnaturally here and there.

“Didn’t you know he was a warrior?”

“Hey, come here…”

Not even knowing that he was a hero, I stood in front of him who was raging with rage and comforted him.

It was inefficient. It was a dangerous and meaningless action that no one but the saint would be satisfied with.

So, it’s something he would never do.

The magician who drove him into despair because he couldn’t even solve the problems he had to solve, and the saintess who sincerely soothed him by risking her own life.

Who was superior, it was obvious without looking.

“Aren’t you angry?”

“Good. If he had died, something unimaginably dangerous would have happened. Didn’t you even see it?”

“Well, what are you talking about… I’m only concentrating on the prayer text.”

Farseer nodded. The spell she cast was not a powerful spell that could be used while looking away.

“…You drove out the ugly one.”

If he had taken his own life, the very red light would have taken over his body.

However, Farseer couldn’t bear to stop it. Even if everyone died, I thought we should respect his last choice.

I couldn’t bear to see him suffer more.

“Wait, Chi, treat…”

“Okay. If you have any remaining holy power, use it on that hero.”

Her body floated up like a doll with a string on her shoulder.

“Did I do well?”

“Don’t open your mouth as much as possible, I’m jealous.”

“yes?”

Farseer sighed deeply. For now, life is safe, but the future is infinitely uncertain.

There was no guarantee that the awakened Enerel would not kill her. There was no shame in avoiding it, and there was no hope that the survivors would achieve anything.

I kept turning my head to make an efficient choice, but the ending was such a miserable failure that I couldn’t even believe her reason.

There was no goal and no standard, so it was impossible to decide what would be an effective choice.

Celia must have been exhausted as well, and soon fell asleep while hugging him. Farseer was staring blankly at the two sleeping people.

“Unworthy humans must serve and sacrifice for worthy humans…”

Farseer unknowingly brought out the thoughts he had been thinking all the time.

“I am. I never thought that this body would become one of the worthless humans…”

There is a difference between a great man and a great man. Giants can make achievements that others cannot achieve, but great humans can change the world and change lives.

Farseer didn’t change anything. The one who sacrificed for the success of the hero’s party was the hero, and the one who risked his life to protect him and prolong the life of this world was the saint.

Sensing his own shabbiness, the sorcerer held his position until the others awoke. Her eyes were constantly watching them, changing the emotions inside them.