151 – name-14

“What the hell was going on?”

Even if Celia had become a normal person, at least she was a ‘former’ saintess. Even considering the connections he had in the church, he was not the kind of person to stay in such a shabby place.

Nerwen was even more so. An elf archer strong enough to join the hero’s party.

Now, being the Grand Master of the World Tree and the noblest elf, the modifiers couldn’t be added, but there was no reason for her value to drop to this extent.

“Is there anything else to say? It’s just that I didn’t have any money. During the trip, Farseer and Eleanor were managing the money… It’s my negligence.”

“Can I earn that?”

Even Nerwen, who thought he was normal for a moment, was in a very serious condition. I wasn’t sure if he was listening to me. eyes were open

“Nerwen?”

“Huh, uh, uh… I’m sorry.”

She was breathing heavily, like someone who had just been rescued from drowning.

“Wasn’t everything better?”

“It can’t be… it can’t be.”

Nerwen, who barely met my eyes, continued to speak while forcibly holding on to his shaking spirit.

“It’s the purpose of a new life, so living as you were born isn’t the answer… I have to say it at length, my body hasn’t changed at all.”

In the capital, when the symptoms first occurred, he looked like an addict. Compared to the sight, Nerwen was in good control of himself.

“Are you financially difficult enough to stay in a place like this?

If you had Nerwen’s level of skill, making money was too easy.

For a while, you could work as a security guard or mercenary, or if things didn’t go well, you could take care of someone you knew.

Nor was Nerwen a young elf who knew nothing of the world. Because she had built up a reputation as an adventurer even before joining the hero’s party.

“If Celia is like this, she won’t be able to go outside at all.”

The sight of her lying asleep was so peaceful that it was hard to believe that she was in such a serious condition.

It was hard to believe that she was still a saint, but the atmosphere rather softened because of that.

She looked like the daughter of a farmer in an ordinary village. The divine power that can revive a dying person with a single gesture is gone, and the holy atmosphere of a person who has lived his life faithfully is not felt.

The overly relaxed smile whenever he saw me and the positive attitude that shouted that he could do it disappeared.

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Just like someone I’d seen for the first time today, I was lying down with an unfamiliar appearance.

“Are you serious?”

“that is…”

Nerwen sighed and carefully explained her condition.

“It’s not easy to even eat and move on your own.”

“You can get help from the church. Or call Eleanor’s friends…”

Eleanor had the stigma of deceiving everyone by pretending to be a hero, but that didn’t change the fact that she was the best knight, and that she was the emperor’s daughter.

Even if there were people who personally hated her, if she belonged to the imperial faction, she would have no choice but to look good to her, whether they like it or not.

Celia and Nerwen’s reputation wasn’t bad either. It was Eleanor who deceived the others, not a member of the warrior party.

Even after the fact that I was the real hero was revealed, the fact that Celia, Parseer, and Nerwen defeated the Demon King’s army did not change.

“That’s also because of this little boy. It seems he didn’t want to find out that he was in this state, even if he died.”

“really…”

However, Celia’s feelings were not incomprehensible. Explaining why she lost her divine power in front of many people would have been difficult for her sober mind.

“Come out now. Let’s talk in a more calm place.”

The atmosphere under the building was unusual. The thugs who had just fallen were carefully gathering their comrades.

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They weren’t very wealthy, but at least they had enough money to secure a comfortable inn for a while.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

As soon as Celia came to her senses, she was far away from my arms and bowed her head.

“If it’s here, at least you’ll be able to sleep comfortably.”

“It’s no different to me… but thank you. I’m indebted to you again.”

Seeing their infinitely miserable life, my feelings became a little complicated.

“What were you doing up to this point…”

I heard enough reasons, but after thinking that there was such a situation, their condition was too bad to accept.

“Well, wrong! Never again, never again…”

It didn’t seem like he was listening to me. Celia’s trembling eyes hovered in the air unfocused.

“The hallucinations seem to have gotten worse. Herbs to calm the mind… I tried what I could do right away, but no answer came out.”

“Take him to a priest or doctor…”

“The doctor who deals with the mind was very questionable or ineffective, and even if I tried to meet him, there was no money. The priest… I didn’t think that Celia in this state would get better by meeting the priest.”

I couldn’t help but nod my head. As it would have been for ordinary people, there were no clergy who did not know the saints of the church, at least in this capital.

If her condition was questioned, let alone mental stability, her condition would deteriorate.

“Why did this get so serious…”

He said he had hallucinated before, but it wasn’t to the extent that even everyday life became impossible.

“I can’t be sure, but if I anticipate it, I can.”

“What?”

“First, the divine power disappeared. It’s hard to predict exactly how much, but at least it could help sustain her.”

I nodded. In fact, even if all other factors were put aside, it was common for a cleric who lost his holy power to go mad.

“Besides… the need for her to come to her senses is gone.”

“Well?”

Nerwen gently grabbed Celia, who was lying face down in front of me, and held her tight. As if holding a soft stuffed toy, I tried to comfort her by force.

“While I was with you, Celia’s actions helped you on your journey. But now, even if she goes crazy or breaks down, it has nothing to do with you.”

“That much…”

“If you hadn’t bumped into us by chance, we wouldn’t have bothered so much.”

I stared blankly at Celia’s distorted face.

In the past, I had even thought that I hated her smile.

It was because I was laughing and having fun with Farseer who constantly mocked me, Nerwen who despised me, and Eleanor who oppressed me.

Celia hadn’t done me much harm directly, but the laughter she made at others was unwelcome. It wasn’t something I could call resentment, but I hated it anyway.

When she had just returned to the capital, the hand she smiled at in the library and smiled at him couldn’t be more repulsive.

I was already broken, and in a situation where I was just waiting for the day to return, I was told to enjoy the victory as if nothing had happened.

“aaa…”

ugly The water stains on her face reminded her of the tears she shed. The dust and grease on her hair showed how hard she was.

“Celia.”

I held her gaze with both hands to keep her from looking the wrong way. With difficulty, she was able to make eye contact with me.

“It’s not your fault that you lost your holy power? You can tell me to be honest, or you can sell my name. So please, come to your senses. Go back to the church, or meet someone else…”

“That’s not scary.”

I was finally able to have a conversation with her.

“Then why?”

“Everyone is too kind to me. They’re stupidly good people, so they’ll like me whether I have divine power or not.”

“Isn’t that what happened?”

“How can I admit that. Before I knew that Mr. Enerel was a hero, I didn’t… do anything?”

words are cut off The pronunciation is not muffled, but it is not natural and hardened.

Even bringing this up seemed like it wouldn’t be easy for her.

It wasn’t that I hadn’t wanted her to be unhappy, but the sight of it made my head twitch.

not even die i didn’t do anything

It’s just that Celia is struggling with guilt herself for what she chose to do.

Wasn’t this what I wanted? Looking at this, shouldn’t I be happy?

“I don’t think I’m reflecting that deeply… but I feel the same way.”

Nerwen quietly helped.

“you also?”

“You’re the one who swore to devote your life to me. In the first place, the only thing left for me is you.”

“…”

“If the way you use me is to forget and neglect me, then it would be right to follow it. If my misfortune makes you happy, then it is right to accept it.”

When I heard Nerwen’s words, my head became more dizzy.

“All right. Celia?”

“…yes.”

I didn’t want to make it complicated. Consistency or something, I couldn’t leave Celia like this right now.

“Let’s wash up first.”