122 – He who does not have hope cannot despair

Chijik. Jijik.

What brought the girl’s consciousness, which had been wandering in the past for a while, back to reality was a heteromorphic noise that could not be seen as something of this world.

A pure white space boasting an unreasonable size. An unidentified black box lying in a place not too far from the entrance.

These were once all that made up the girl’s world.

For her, who has lost all her memories and personality and has become like a newborn child, this white space is like a cozy cradle, and the black box is like a mobile that soothes boredom.

However, these days, when her shattered personality gradually took shape, the girl came to regard this desolate space as cramped at times.

After the happy time with the man, whenever she was left alone in this place, the girl would secretly harbor thoughts of wanting to escape, wanting to run away from this silence that constantly reminded her of her forgotten feelings of loneliness.

“Only once…”

The man’s voice echoed faintly. The nostalgic melody gave a little light to the eyes of the girl who seemed to have lost all her energy in life.

A black box that screened only noises with unclear shapes.

There, the kind face of the man she had dreamed of was clearly visible.

”Ahhh·····.”

The girl touched the cold screen several times with trembling hands and tried to say something.

She cried non-stop for hours, and all she could do was chew through the whitish shriek with her split throat.

“Hinghu?”

“Ah, nothing.”

Could it be that the sorrowful heart of such a girl reached her?

The man suddenly stopped moving and looked around for a while like a wary sparrow, but unfortunately, such fluctuations were only fleeting.

「Huh! Father! If you’re not excused! When you do Aang! Can you shout slogans too!”

“Yes?”

A command so loud that the voice could be heard even across the screen fixed the gaze of the man who was chasing something in one direction.

It was around that time that a musty sense of despair began to bloom in the girl’s eyes as she tried to swell with faint hope.

「Kuhm! sleep! Ah, ah~”

「Ah—!!!」

The warmth that will take away the cold that is rooted in the film.

The love he longed for was there.

However, what was once a girl’s exclusive possession was no longer this girl’s.

The man, who carefully supported the hand holding the tableware with the other hand, scooped up a meal for a beautiful blonde woman with an open mouth.

The girl, who was watching the process as if possessed by something, also opened and closed her mouth in unison with the gestures of the man on the other side of the screen.

“Mmm!”

However, unlike the woman on the screen who is busily twisting her body here and there and showing off her happiness to the whole world, the only thing that permeates the girl’s body is a sense of loneliness, as if her whole body’s bones are festering.

Taken away. The thought was only for a moment.

My mind and body, tattered by successive despairs, did not have the strength left for such a passionate way of thinking to soar.

damn maybe good

the girl didn’t know

How to express affection. How to seek affection.

Although he had prepared an assortment of fragments of memories that floated like buoys on the sea, the actions without context derived from emotions and isolated memories only confuse the man.

‘At this point, wouldn’t it be okay if you call me oppa as promised? Sister Welna?’

Based on a day that suddenly came to mind, I tried to infer an action he might like.

‘Our Wellna! Should I fuck with my sister!’

I also conveyed my heart to him in the most intense way imprinted on my body.

They were a kind of distress signal.

Her own earnest signal to lead her lost in the fog of oblivion.

Again.

A soft drop of water on the girl’s face fell helplessly onto her white thighs.

Where did you get the job wrong?

What kind of mistake did he do?

The remorse, which had been repeated so much that it seemed foolish to count it, raged in her head again.

‘Well na… Wouldn’t that be an older sister…?’

From the tangled sentences that my sister, who had suddenly embraced me, regurgitated along with a sorrowful cry, the memory of the time when I felt anxious that the man might not come to visit me any more came to my mind.

‘brother····. Aren’t you coming…?’

At that time, the girl did not have the desire to harm her sister.

It was just the other day that my sister had taught me that it is not right to treat others carelessly by prioritizing one’s own feelings.

It was a fact that I could easily tell just by looking at her expression of pain that my sister was also holding on to the same sadness as herself.

‘sister·····.’

The hand slowly stretched out toward the crying sister was not meant to harm her, but to comfort her.

However, the girl’s indignation was helplessly blocked by the ferocious fury that erupted out of nowhere from her sister’s chest.

‘Cheer, heck!’

‘Oh, sister!’

The girl hurriedly threw herself at her sister, who could not even groan and was in danger of being disintegrated in an instant.

Because she was the one whose instincts had been replacing the vacancy lacking reason.

The subject of the power that tries to crush my sister’s life. Figuring out the source wasn’t too difficult.

divine power. The power called that convenience. Holy power.

Although not as good as himself, his teeth and claws were gnawing at him with a momentum that would cut his sister’s breath away even now.

The girl’s small hands, hurriedly intertwined, pressed hard against her sister’s chest.

This, too, was an act of instinct.

A bizarre act based on the intuition that if this power that roughly grips and shakes his sister’s life has roots with him, he might be able to neutralize it to some extent.

Fortunately, the girl’s intuition was correct, but it was still too early to be relieved.

For her, who had wielded her power only in the form of imposing her holy power, the only thing she could do was to slow down the advance of this holy power, which gnawed at her sister’s life.

It was nothing special.

Originally, divine power was a gift from God to humans. A power that is used only in the form of a human ‘bestowing’ on another human.

If it had been used by him from the beginning, he wouldn’t know.

Wielded by an unidentified third party, neither herself nor her sister, the girl had not mastered the manipulation of this power to the point of completely eradicating the fangs of this deadly power.

An existence that can extract and absorb the divine power dwelling in the body of others without any harm.

There was only one person in the girl’s short memoirs who could do that.

‘Ahhh·····.’

‘sister! sister!’

Like a lantern in a storm, a sister whose vitality is about to fade even now.

The girl’s face, which was hard to find emotional fluctuations, was visibly distorted with intense frustration.

I had to make a quick decision.

Would you try to inhale the holy power dwelling in your sister’s body with your eyes?

Or, would she use her own holy power to suppress this prenatal movement, even at the risk of her sister falling into the same situation as herself?

It was around the time when the girl, who felt that her sister’s heart rate, which she could feel through her palms, was clearly lowering, was constantly biting her lips at the tension tightening her heart.

Bubbly.

The sound of someone’s footsteps that suddenly wet my ears.

The girl’s gaze, which was firmly fixed on her sister’s chest, twisted hastily in the direction from which the sound came.

‘Oh, brother!’

The thoughts of the girl, who had been stained with despair and pessimism, became clear in an instant.

It was because I was sure.

if this person

If it were this person who returned warmth, memory, heart, happiness, and a life worthy of a human being to himself, who had been worn out by his wicked holy power and turned into a mere doll.

I’m sure my sister, who is in a similar predicament to my former self, will also be able to help.

It was not a primitive instinct, but an innocent belief.

‘brother! sister! sister! now! uh, uh?’

However, it didn’t take long for the girl’s innocent expression, as if she had found the light in the darkness, to be painted with thick darkness.

‘brother! Hey, you know! Wow, well I have it!’

‘I’ll take you outside right away. Be patient. Sister.’

‘Huh? Oh, brother…?’

‘Because there is no blanket. As soon as it is urgent, I will lend you my clothes. Please cover this.’

‘Oh, brother! Whew, Wellna here! Can’t you see well?’

The girl who couldn’t hold back the joy and ran out in one breath walked past the man indifferently.

It was because he felt an indescribable sense of incongruity from that cold air current.

‘Oh, brother! Hey, you know! Wow, well I am!’

‘Don’t come any closer. Holy maiden.’

‘Uh…?’

It was right after that that the girl realized that there was a blizzard whipping around her.