9 – Farewell(1)

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In the original work I’ve seen, she is,

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Just like the girl I saw with my own two eyes.

Since she was only a weak princess without any political foundation, she had to live a life without even being a friend.

And the fact that she is being targeted by Mine on the day of the entrance ceremony is, in a way, a standard pattern… In a word, it could be said that she was the scapegoat for the heroine rescue event.

‘If you think about what happened after that, it may have been a scapegoat to simply make the main character’s first pillar… .’

Literally after she was rescued by the main character from a demon attack on the day of the entrance ceremony,

It was such a move to offer the main character with liver and gallbladder.

When I see someone in danger, I rescue them unconditionally.

Kind to everyone in the world… To the main character of such a standard hero role.

In that way, in the middle of the story, she really came to have a pure love that gave her everything… .

‘The problem is that that innocence is not the innocence of being good and kind like the saintess.’

In general, there are two meanings of being pure.

First.

That I don’t have private, personal greed or wrong thoughts… Purity in the sense of being like a saint.

Second.

nothing in it… Purity in the sense that it can be stained just as easily as a pristine sponge.

That this has two meanings.

And if you’ve heard this far, most people will have already noticed.

What kind of innocence is her innocence?

In the work, she is simply ‘influenced’ by the righteous heroine and abandons her fleetingly with pure love… .

And she who is ‘inspired’ by me, who sacrifices herself for the other person to the point of paralysis, completely sacrificial love… .

‘Everyone sees it as ‘colorless’ innocence rather than ‘white’… .’

… so that.

I, who first gave the color of ‘evil’ to her, who boasts such complete colorless purity,

It may be said that suffering like this is a natural result in a way.

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-Puong!

“Keukheuk…! Kkeuhuhuk…! Kkeok!”

… But still, I will say one more word.

‘The writer is a bastard! Even if a child gets stained, he gets stained too easily… !’

I resented the writer as I looked at Lily, who fired magic at me with a more ferocious expression these days.

‘Now he openly borrows even a gymnasium and treats me as a punching bag… Woo-wook… !’

The other day, on the recommendation of that dog-like young lady, she even rented a training ground and started harassing me legally.

Even so, the strength of the magic fired at me was still the same, as if he was trying to keep his word that he would not kill me.

However, it seems that my body couldn’t stand it any longer, and something sticky liquid was gurgling up from the inside.

“Cool…! Kkeok!”

With the sound of my coughing, which sounds a bit disgusting,

Red spots appeared in the color of the grass, which used to boast a fresh green light.

“…Dirty Siri, why are you coughing up blood because you’re in pain?

… Need more explanation?

Those mottled red spots, of course, were caused by the dark red blood I vomited.

‘Now slowly… It seems that even this meager body has reached its limit.’

No, maybe it was because it was the lumber of the Sword Saint, so it might have lasted longer.

If it was my original body, it might have collapsed in less than a year.

“…It would be difficult to do more than this, because it would be difficult to die on your own.”

She clicked her tongue for a moment and then turned her back on me and tried to walk away.

“…Does the princess hate me very much?”

If I hadn’t talked to her, just lying still.

“…I want to know?”

And she answered my question with a question,

“Then you have to tell me.”

She slowly nodded her head in response to her question and came slowly to my side.

whispered to me You say you hate me because you can’t hate me

“Every day, I ask God. Why are you still alive instead of Mama…Why did Mama have to suffocate and die in agony… Not that she died trying to save a worthy person, but because of you, a commoner.”

Again and again, stabbing me in the head.

“…Is that so.”

… Of course I knew.

At least she’s praying for me to die every day.

Because I induced this to happen, and I knew it would happen.

‘Whoa… .’

Even so, it seems that it is an unavoidable phenomenon that the heart is filled.

Selling to a devoted party is… Because it was hotter and bitter than I thought.

But after hearing my answer that couldn’t hide my sadness, she asked me with a face asking why you reacted like that.

“Anyway, since I paid back the favor of appointing a commoner as my exclusive attendant with the enemy who killed my mother, isn’t it natural? It’s more strange to think that I will be forgiven.”

If, if I had already won her love by saving her from danger like the main character… Maybe if… The story might have been a lot different.

‘… For her, a dependent character, the person she loves is… It’s something that can’t be exchanged for anything.’

But at that time, she was a girl who knew nothing but family love.

Lily was… .

Due to its basic characteristics, it is inevitable to hate the character Nara who made the object of love die.

“I see… that’s right.”

“What’s your reaction? It seems like just yesterday that I begged you to forgive me… not too long ago… have you given up now?”

Did she finally experience despair?

He asked me if I had finally given up on that tenacious will.

Give up.

give up… .

“I haven’t given up.”

Even if she is a character created that way…

She took care of me who was completely paralyzed for 4 years while shedding her own blood and flesh.

He also loved me and always cared for me.

I, who have personally experienced such sacrificial acts for four years.

Now, after only two years of sacrifice, how could I brazenly give up here?

‘And because I was able to see such a healthy and pretty side by side… It’s still fine. I can stand it.’

“…You, can’t you stop looking at me with those strange eyes?”

However, it seemed that my sad eyes were only seen by her as strange perverts because my appearance was so deplorable.

That will be too.

Because she was looking at me with a creepy expression.

“You… do you know how disgusting it was every time you looked at me like that?! To be looked at like that by someone who killed your parents!?”

-Paang!

Eventually, she let out a roar of anger and disgust and fired another round of magic at me.

“Khhhhh!”

“…This is your first and last warning. If you look at me with those lustful eyes just one more time…I’ll pluck out your eyes then.”

Tsk.

For a very short while, she looked at me as if she were looking at me, then she clicked her tongue and walked away from me and disappeared.

And soon after, her words to herself came from far away on the wind.

“I know I’m pretty even though I’m a trashy beast…”

… finally.

Now, even watching a loved one by the side has become an unforgivable situation.

“ha….”

With the bitterness that fills my mouth, I just blankly look up at the clear sky and reminisce about the memories I spent with her in the cabin.

It seemed as if the message that the payment limit for bitterness had been exceeded would appear in front of me with a light ringing sound.

And the heartbreaking nostalgia that comes after such bitterness like herbal medicine.

More than the part hit by her magic just now, the part of his chest felt fainter.

‘Now, it seems that the time has come… .’

One year until the academy entrance ceremony.

To accomplish my goal… The time has come to execute the final step.

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“…Your Majesty, now I’m about to leave.”

Take out the horns as well, that very night. The night when the full moon is proud of its appearance, like some other day.

I went to the emperor and informed him that the time for parting had arrived.

“…What can I say to you? You can go whenever you want. If it’s money, I’ll take care of it for the rest of my life.”

Still, the Emperor seemed to have a hard time dealing with me.

… Ever since the day I executed the plan.

“Money is fine. Just… take good care of the princess, Your Majesty. Now, the only person who can be considered a true ally to the princess is Your Majesty.”

Saying that, she bowed her head to him. Then, as if he was trying to say something, the emperor continued to open his mouth.

this moment… Only for this moment, I have been working for the emperor’s power.

So that the emperor alone could embrace her while I was gone. to keep her.

“…Is there anything you want to leave to Lily? Later, even when Lily is old enough to know the truth, it’s okay, so I will definitely pass it on.”

The eyes of the guilty emperor shimmer and make my heart ache.

… The words I want to leave behind

I’ll pass that on to her after quite some time… The last word as ‘Pin’… .

“I want to deliver a letter rather than words. But the princess has seen my handwriting several times.”

To be precise, he had seen Finn’s handwriting, but it didn’t matter.

‘Because I’m leaving this as a pin.’

Because I can write in his handwriting too.

“It’s a letter… I see.”

The emperor said so and handed me the letter.

… Stationery that only the royal family could write.

“…”

There was something strange about refusing it here, and even when I looked around, I couldn’t see any other stationery other than this one.

I had no choice but to write it down on a piece of stationery that is used for sending imperial orders.

… The words I want to convey to her as a Finn, with these mysteriously fluctuating emotions.

“Here you are, Your Majesty.”

The moment I was about to deliver the finished letter to him, I felt someone from behind.

‘The number of people is one… Judging by the expertly hidden footsteps and breathing… .’

“Huh.”

… You followed me right I’m glad I was rewarded for deliberately choosing the main road.

“…? Why is that? Maybe, what’s wrong?”

It was a laugh of relief that he couldn’t hear, but it must have been heard by the emperor right in front of him.

‘Or he noticed it by looking at my expression.’

“No, Your Majesty. Nothing… I just laughed for a while thinking that it was all over.”

“Is that so…Oh, by the way, where are you going?”

… Yeah, I was just waiting for that question.

I answer the emperor’s question,

Not only that, but I told them exactly where I was going in a voice loud enough to be heard by others.

I hope you can hear me.

“I… I’m going to head to the ‘Holy Kingdom’. In this empire, if you just pass through the ‘Southern Forest’, you will find the ‘Holy Kingdom’ right away.”

“Is that so… Seongguk…Yes, if it’s Seongguk, it’s at least safe.”

The emperor let out a sigh of relief when I heard that he was heading towards a holy country that would accept the poor as well as refugees without any discrimination.

‘I’d like to talk more, but… Unfortunately, time is running out.’

If I delayed a little longer here, I might have to go there myself.

‘It shouldn’t be. No more than this.’

Therefore, I informed the emperor that it was time for parting.

Then, at the same time, the popularity disappeared.

“Now, I’ll go, Your Majesty. It’s a long way to go… If we leave now, it will be dawn by the time we reach the southern forest.”

“Ah…I see, I was wasting your time…yes, I have to go…I have to go…”

“Yeah, well then…”

As I was about to leave the room saying goodbye, the emperor… No, Alexei gave me one last thing he wanted to say.

“Thank you so much…I’m really sorry…As the parents of a blessed daughter, I’m sorry I didn’t do anything for you. So, by any chance, if you hear that the Empire is looking for you later…please come visit me. At that time I will treat you in extreme poverty, to the point where you can’t compare it to now…”

It’s like blaming yourself when you were helpless… With an expression full of sadness and regret.

In response, I just silently nodded my head with a light smile and left the room.

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“Shall we start now?”

It’s been a long time since I’ve placed all the necessary preparations on the way.

As of today… I will build my relationship with her again.