6 – Reason for life (3)

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Alexey Ekaterina.

He is the emperor of an empire that is considered the second most powerful country in the world.

It really belonged to the case of becoming emperor through luck alone.

Only 9 competitors.

In a word, in a situation where there are 10 brothers and sisters including himself, he,

At that time, when he went to the island alone with his wife, who had left earlier, he and his wife were isolated on the island due to a sudden storm.

And when he barely returned to the empire, his brothers and sisters all died in the battle for the throne, and the only surviving member of the royal family was himself…

It was because he belonged to a case where he happened to become an emperor by chance.

And he who became the emperor without hesitation.

Naturally, he was far from a solemn emperor equipped with strength and power,

Normally, he was evaluated as just a good-natured uncle, or as a lover.

Although I have often heard that he tends, oddly enough, to be stubborn and tyrannical when it comes to matters involving daughters and wives.

“…Are you serious? If you want, even if you want to be a duke, I’ll be able to grant you the rank of an earl with my own power…I’ll ask you again, are you serious?”

And he, who was so called a fool-lover of daughters, now,

Enough to match yourself… Or that there might be someone who truly cares for and loves her daughter more than she does…

No, I realized that such a person was right in front of my eyes.

“Yes, Your Majesty. No matter how many times I ask, my answer is the same. Please do so. This is the only way to save the princess.”

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As soon as the emperor and I arrived at the imperial palace, we set out to find Lily.

What would you do if you were carrying around this important item and broke it? That is the reason.

Yeah, that was why I prioritized finding her, putting everything else aside.

Fortunately, Lily was taking a languid nap in her bedroom.

That’s why we were able to hand over the elixir to Lily, who had just woken up.

“Eh, Elixir…? I’m getting better…? Uh…This color is strange… Ah, ah, take care! I’ll drink it…! You can drink it! I’ll drink it, so don’t stare at me with such strange eyes!”

… When you say that you wake yourself up from a good night’s sleep, you mean that this rainbow-colored drink is an elixir… .

complaining, Lily brought the elixir to her mouth.

– gulp gulp.

The iridescent liquid was slowly sucked into Lily’s mouth,

At the same time, Lily’s body began to change to a completely different extent from before.

Because of her weakness, her hair, which had been shining somewhere between silver and white hair,

It turned into perfect silver hair, and the tips of the hair started to dance with a slight pink tinge.

The color of her skin, so pale that it was no different from a living corpse,

Smooth and shiny… It started to take on the same color as white jade.

Her lips, which had lost their original color and were pale blue,

It started to glow red like a cherry again.

Even in a pale complexion, she boasted of innate elegance,

Now, she has become a girl who is like a beautiful flower that anyone can look at in awe.

‘… If you grow up a bit more, most actresses won’t even be able to show you their business cards.’

Is this the borderline beauty?

Even the emperor and I, who had been watching the whole process of the sickly girl slowly turning into a flower, were mesmerized.

Nihihi.

… She let out her characteristic laugh as she just looked at us with blank faces, and then started running around the bedroom room.

“Wow! It’s amazing!! This is a real elixir?! It feels like my body is about to fly! I’ve never felt so refreshed!!”

I was happy.

I saw her in her nightgown running around the bedroom like a child.

Still, she didn’t show any sign of pain.

her smile.

A smile so bright and lively that it couldn’t be compared to usual.

because it was heading towards us.

That’s why I was happy.

… .

… .

… yes, i was happy… was

“By the way, Dad…! Where is Mom? I want to show this to my mom too! If she sees me running around like this… Mom will be amazed too!”

Until she finds the empress who has already left this world.

“…Eh? What does that mean, Dad…? Uh, I can’t meet Mom anymore… What does that mean, Dad…!!”

Until the emperor personally delivered the news of the death of the empress to his daughter.

“…I can’t believe it…wasn’t it because I was looking for this elixir or something…? Pin, dad, and mom… everyone disappeared at the same time, and that’s when… I can’t believe it…isn’t it…?”

Until she realized what the empress was doing to cause her death.

“…Come to think of it, I can’t see Finn’s parents either? Where are they…? I hired them as servants too… I can’t believe… Finn’s parents…? Oh, no…? Isn’t that so?!”

Until she realized that my, Finn’s parents, died for the same reason as the queen.

“…all…all…all of them said they would cure my illness and then moved on…? All…? Ahaha…then…it’s all because of me…? Mom too? Finn’s parents…?”

Her mother, Finn’s parents… Until she thought it was because of her death.

“…No, don’t say no. You’re right, you died because of me. You died trying to get this elixir. Or tell me, what did Mum and Finn’s parents die for?”

“…Can’t speak. So, is it true that mother and Finn’s parents are really dead? It’s not my imagination.”

Until we get caught up in her flirtatious questioning, rather than convincing her despair.

“…because of me… while trying to save me… my mother…”

In the end, she couldn’t overcome the shock until she collapsed on the floor… I was happy… was

“Lee, Lilithiana…!!!”

“Princess!!!!”

… And I regretted it.

To put everything else aside and set out to find her.

Before handing her the medicine… .

She should have kissed the emperor about the empress and all the other facts beforehand, or made up the situation.

I regretted it so much.

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“…I’m very sorry, but this is a disease of the heart… It’s not a matter of what will happen with medicine or healing magic. I lost the will to live, the reason. Unless there’s an opportunity to happen again… It’s a problem that only time can solve.”

Already the 42nd doctor’s diagnosis. No, maybe the 43rd?

In the meantime, so many doctors have tried treatments and drugs,

Although the priests, who are said to be the king of the empire, tried to bless it.

Even so, there was no change in her condition.

In the first place, this was not caused by some physical problem, but because she herself closed the door to her heart and refused to communicate with the world.

‘On the outside, it doesn’t look much different from my state before returning, but… .’

However, there is one fundamental difference between her and my condition at that time.

That she wasn’t even subjected to such a physical shock in the first place.

… Because I just wanted to give up on life

Because she wanted to let go of everything, she said that she had put a lock on the door of her heart.

That is, she… In order to turn a blind eye to the reality that the empress died because of her, Lily made the choice to escape from that painful reality, even abandoning herself.

like me back then.

like a vegetable.

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Just lying still in bed, waiting for the time of death to come.

“…I see, I understand. Let’s go.”

The saddened, dark-skinned emperor said so. The strong smell of alcohol wafted through his open mouth.

Even up to the 20th, he ran wild all the way and shouted that you guys are doctors and find a way to get your daughter back to normal right now.

I don’t have the energy to do that anymore

Or maybe he felt that there was no more hope, but at some point, all he had to do was just drink and waste his time.

‘It’s like Lily, but the emperor might die before Lily gets better…’ .’

A skin that is no different from a skeleton due to the overlapping of the skin bone.

The dark circles came down to the bottom of the chin, and the shaggy beard that wasn’t even managed properly was attached to it.

It was Alexei who clearly showed what happens when a person who was lost in hope experiences sudden despair.

… lost his wife,

Now even my daughter, who has recovered from her illness, is living a life that is no different from a vegetative state.

As an idiot daughter, she couldn’t stand it… As the torture-like days continued, it would have been difficult to endure without alcohol.

… That heart, enough understanding went.

‘What… In fact, I am no different from the emperor.’

After she collapsed like that, I also came to care for her day and night.

What… He couldn’t drink alcohol, and his beard was not yet old enough to grow, so he looked better than the emperor on the outside.

Other than that, I was no different from him.

‘I knew it myself, Lily, who took care of me, who was a real vegetable person… That it was amazing.’

Even though she was a woman, the maids changed her excrement and urine, and she was eating her meals with the rejuvenation of the priests.

Even so, taking care of one person who didn’t budge was hard enough to transcend imagination.

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Just love me with one heart… 4 years without giving up

The greatness of the woman who led her sick body and took care of her alone… came to a clear realization.

“Lily…Lily…please come to your senses…Father please…please….”

A request from the emperor, sad and sorrowful, and very earnest.

In the doctor’s opinion that only time would solve the problem, the emperor held Lily’s hand like this every day and prayed earnestly to her.

… If you ever hear this father’s earnest request,

If you look at this hideous father and feel even the slightest pity,

With a heart that wants her to come to her senses as quickly as possible.

‘It’s a bitch… Is there anything more to be said than just sucking your finger and waiting?’

… This is not the case.

You shouldn’t just believe and wait for the doctors’ words that time will solve it.

She has been by my side, burning her life for me, literally until the very end.

loved me

He dedicated his body to me.

On the other hand, all I did was give away one eyeball.

Compared to the love she poured out for me, it was so shabby.

‘and… Because I swore.’

to him. to Finn.

… I promise to make Lily happy.

I promise to make sure Lily doesn’t suffer anymore.

That’s what I swore to Finn, who left even his life as a swordsman to me.

So, I thought today would be the day to do what I had been planning for a while.

… This plan, I never wanted to put it into action,

Any further delay was too risky, and there was no choice.

To the emperor, to her, and of course to me… .

That’s why I went to see the emperor that night, just like I did some other time.

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– Kik.

Unlike the last time, I had to visit the reception room, not the audience room.

… Because that was where the emperor usually drank.

As soon as I opened the door, the strong smell of alcohol and widowers wafted through my nostrils.

And the slightly dilated pupils and rough breathing that I could see,

It showed that no matter who looked at it, he was not an emperor, but just a drunkard.

“…? Ah, is it Finn…Yes, did you come to Lily’s care until this time?

The emperor shook his head as he looked at me as if he was fed up with me, who had come to visit me after caring for her until late in the evening.

“Anyway, it’s the right thing for me to do.”

As usual, the emperor began to look at me with an indescribable expression as I silently revealed that this was my duty.

“Deserved…deserved…Huh…It’s not enough for a young boy like you to give his eyes, trying to change his life… I don’t know if it’s appropriate.”

“Yes, what did you come to see me for again this time? Did you come to find a way for Lily to be healthy like last time? This time, it’s not a disease of the body, but a disease of the mind?”

The Emperor laughed and said to me.

It’s as if he didn’t even have that kind of expectation in the first place, but it’s such a way of speaking that you can feel the expectation nonetheless.

‘… If that’s the case, I’ll have to live up to expectations.’

“I have come to ask you to grant me the wish you told me the other day.”

“Wish…? Ah…I did…Wish…Yes, tell me. What the hell are you going to wish for? Lily…as you know, she is in such a state…I can’t do anything about it.”

The expression on the emperor’s face when he remembered his daughter was noticeably darker than before.

Even if that was the case, wouldn’t the servant who would spare no effort come up with a solution for this princess… It seemed that he had hopes for it.

‘I still have to listen to people’s words.’

“No, my wish is rather the opposite.”

“On the contrary…? The opposite of connecting with Lily… You want to leave the imperial palace? You?”

You who can neither die nor live without Lily?

The emperor looking at me with that expression. Quite a bit, my wish must have sounded unusual.

“…To be precise, I want you to grant me a wish that will eventually become that.”

“…What is it that takes so long? Tell me once, if it’s not an overly resolute request, I’ll do anything for you.”

… .

… This is a very solemn request… .

Perhaps, if this wish of mine were granted, I would be terribly hated by Lily.

But I had to do it anyway.

I had to make this wish to the emperor.

With my foolish brain, I can only think of such a means.

So I looked at the emperor and said.

Someday, I’ve seen… With the eyes of Finn, who had said that he would gladly accept any death he could offer up for his lord.

A way to save her who has lost her reason for living and has become a vegetative person… .

“…I want you to tell me that Her Highness’s death was caused by me.”

Again, the way I can be her reason for living.

This time, not as a loved one, but as an object that I hate the most and want to tear to death… My will to be the reason for her life.

It was delivered to the emperor without filtering.