4 – Reason for life (1)

‘No matter how possessed he is, to fall in love with a character in a novel… Doesn’t he have some sort of mental illness?’

some,

Some people who don’t even know the letter ‘ㅇ’ in Yeokjisaji may say so.

It’s not that I don’t understand. There are many people in the world and there are many opinions.

… However, if I ever meet such a person, I would like to ask just two things.

Have you ever heard the term ‘Werther effect’?

In other words, this effect, also called the copycat suicide effect.

It is a word derived from the phenomenon that many readers at the time who read the novel ＜The Sorrows of Young Werther＞ committed suicide by copying the main character’s suicide.

… A novel at best, a novel at best.

According to you, he is at most a character in a novel.

Even so, I want to reach that existence even a little more,

That there are foolish people who would choose death without hesitation in order to get even closer to that being.

That such a foolish human being, it is not strange at all that I feel love for a character in a novel that has become a reality.

And you too… I hope you don’t forget that they and I are just stupid human beings.

Also the second.

Have you ever had a real heartbreaking love?

You don’t have to answer this question.

Of course, to disparage my sorrowful feelings in such a way can be said to be a disprovement that I have never experienced it.

tell you that

If I were to say why I decided to live in this ＜Academy Drank Subjugation＞ without hesitation, I would be able to pick just three things.

First, life without family or friends was the same whether it was here or in Korea.

Second, however, that there is Lilithiana, who cares for me and whom I cherish.

Third, she, who was simply my favorite character, suddenly became the most important person in my life… Literally, I became a person who loved to the point of death.

Yes, foolishly, I sincerely love the character in the novel.

Even if ‘death’ awaits me at the end of this path I chose to protect her… .

In other words,

It means that I am also a foolish human being, no different from other people who died thinking of the character Werther.

If that’s the only difference between them and me… .

That I actually saw, met, and felt her.

… That would be all.

* * * *

“Sa, Sasa, it’s a landslide!!!”

After the possession was over, I opened my eyes to the feeling of déjà vu, and I was inside the carriage.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I heard the screams of fearful knights that I had heard once before.

Thanks to Finn’s transcendent senses, I grasped the situation in an instant,

First of all, I wanted to shout to the parents of this world in front of me to run away, but… It seemed too late to shout that now.

… Even before that, we heard the sound of the roof of the wagon collapsing.

Such a fucking writer.

Did you somehow get the regression point like this?

… Yes, that guy must have been.

If I hadn’t been given all my experiences and talents by Finn,

If only I hadn’t had such a sharp and sensitive sense like now.

It was clear that this time, like the last time, he would have been crushed by stones and paralyzed.

If you train, you are not a person from another world who can have transcendental power,

As an ordinary person born and raised on Earth, I will never,

Even if he knew the future, it was clear that he would not be able to avoid it.

So, this bastard writer must have been thinking of making fun of me, who was about to become paralyzed again, while pretending to give me a chance.

really… I never thought I would regret not filling in 5,700 characters.

* * * *

“Uh, uhhhhh!”

“Heo-euk…! Ha-ah…! What kind of bastard’s wood planks are so heavy?”

To begin with, I survived this time too.

However, if there is a difference, the only scars I have this time are a few light scratches.

The moment a huge stone breaks through the ceiling and falls,

It was because I succeeded in pushing my small and delicate body into the part where the stone area couldn’t reach.

“…Damn it.”

These were the words I spit out when I saw Finn’s parents, who had been crushed by a huge stone and had become unrecognizable.

In a way, they were also my parents, but I didn’t feel the emotion that my parents died.

In the first place, I never had a parent.

Now, it was a bit unreasonable to recognize that the men and women whose faces are counted on one finger are my parents.

‘Because there’s not much difference between my age and my age if I add up my previous life.’

It was just a pitiful impression that innocent men and women died because of a narrow-minded writer.

“This is not the time here.”

I looked around for signs of other wagons.

The golden time in a situation where a person is not supplied with oxygen to the brain is about 3 minutes.

My priority right now is not Finn’s parents, who are already dead.

Rather than them, the Emperor and Empress are most likely still alive.

In other words, Lily’s parents come first.

‘… I’m sorry, Finn.’

I hurriedly ran to the place where the carriage of the emperor and empress were buried and paid my respects to his parents.

* * * *

Shoot aaa… .

– Pooh puk puk pow puuk puuk.

“Heh-uh-huh-huh-huh…!”

In the torrential rain that is blinding,

There is an image of a boy digging the ground tirelessly.

Even though the boy was breathing hard, he showed no sign of resting for a moment.

No, the luxury of rest was absolutely unacceptable to the boy of today.

However, the boy’s hands had long since become shreds of rags.

His fingernails had already fallen out, to the point where only mud and blood were left where they had been.

Still, the boy did not stop.

Despite the pain of a sharp stone tip digging into the place where her fingernails used to be,

Digging the ground without stopping was too harsh for a young boy’s body, so even though his muscles felt as if they would burst.

I kept digging, digging, digging again.

Because there are people you must find and seek.

Not long after that, a boy’s joy filled with cheers resounded as if he had found an oasis in the desert.

“…Tea, found…!! Your Majesty!! Your Majesty the Emperor!!!”

finally found it

… the emperor, her father.

Boy, I… The moment I saw his face, I hurriedly put my ear to his face.

The golden time of 3 minutes that I already knew was long gone.

I was worried that I might be too late.

… No matter how much I inherited the swordsman’s talent and experience, my body was just a child that hadn’t been trained yet.

Then, fortunately, I heard the faint but certain sound of the emperor’s breathing.

It was such a weak breathing that I would have given up thinking that he had already died if I hadn’t inherited Finn’s senses.

Turns out he was the emperor.

Fortunately, thanks to being buried with the wagon, it was possible to get a little bit of breathing space.

“Your Majesty!! Your Majesty the Emperor!! Open your eyes!! Wake up!”

I dug him out completely and started waking him up by grabbing his shoulders and shaking him.

Soon after, the emperor came to his senses at the sound of me calling him.

As if to prove that he was portrayed as a natural lover in the work,

As soon as he opened his eyes, he first worried about his wife’s well-being rather than his own.

“Uh, ugh…Fin…Ah, my wife…Is Elizabeth all right…?”

“Ah…that’s…”

… .

I couldn’t bear to move my mouth at his question about finding his lover.

Of course, I didn’t know where the empress was… It is not.

I know where she is

No, it would be more accurate to say that I found out.

… While digging up the emperor, it wasn’t too difficult to find her, who had already become a cold corpse, under him.

maybe.

The emperor would have protected his wife even in that critical moment.

With a heart that worried that she might get hurt in any case.

‘That would rather have the opposite effect… I couldn’t even imagine it.’

What he embraced to protect his wife,

Conversely, who would have imagined that it would cause his wife to suffocate.

I, more than anyone else, know the guilt and despair that comes when someone you love dies because of you… .

I couldn’t bear to tell the truth to the emperor.

“Tell me, Hwang Gong-ha, the empress… By the time I found it, it was already…”

“…What? Now what…?”

The emperor shouted at me with a look of disbelief.

“That, there’s no way!! She was protecting me with the thought of dedicating this body to me!!”

“…”

“I’m so alive, there’s no way she’s dead!! That’s right…! That’s where I was buried?! That’s where Elizabeth must be…!”

“Oh no, Your Majesty!!”

The emperor thought that the woman he was protecting could not have died.

Clearly, I knew in my head that a mere attendant would never tell a lie about the death of the empress, but… .

Nevertheless, he moved on with the thought that he should check the facts with his own two eyes.

To see the death of the empress he loved so much beneath the seat he was in.

… .

… The emperor’s breathing quickened, and he collapsed on the spot.

It’s like a dancing balloon that’s deflated after an opening ceremony.

“Eh, Eliza… Beta?”

He called his wife’s name with trembling lips.

With the hope that she might answer… With the hope that if the call was made by her husband, not by that attendant, there would be some kind of response.

Even so, the empress, Elizabeth, could not answer her husband’s pitiful call.

It was because she was no longer a person of this world.

“Elizabeta…!! Elisabetta!!! Why!! Why!!!! Why not me and you!!!!!”

The Emperor’s plaintive howl pierced my ears through the rain.

I wanted to say something comforting, but I couldn’t.

It was because I knew that pain better than anyone else, so I knew that comfort from a third person meant nothing at all.

In the end, the emperor, unable to bear the feelings of self-blame and despair over his wife’s death, began pounding the ground with his own two hands.

“AhhhhhIf?

– I was obviously trying to save her. why is that… .

That one syllable of the emperor’s ‘why’ sounded like that, at least to me.

It was because the emperor was staring at the empress’ eyes as if he was in so much pain.

Soon after, the emperor raised his hands, tattered from hitting the floor with his bare hands, and glared at the sky.

“God, why!!! You made even my innocent daughter sick…!

emperor’s,

The desperate voice of a man who lost his beloved wife and resents God… After that, I didn’t know how to stop for a while.