2 – once again you

It’s been 4 years since I became paralyzed.

These days.

What if I hadn’t told the emperor about the elixir… .

I think so.

In fact, all of this might be because I struggled to save her terminally ill wife.

Maybe it’s because of the movement to distort the original.

As a third-rate wasteful writer, I wonder if that infidelity threw me into the abyss of despair from which I can’t escape no matter what.

That’s what I thought.

He moved his eyes and looked at her.

Her silver hair is crumbly because she can’t take care of it, but it’s obvious that she must have been fine like silk.

The delicate light purple eyes shine like the Milky Way in the night sky,

Despite her ugly appearance, her beauty still shines.

Her innate grace clearly showed the nobility of her bloodline.

She would rather

Wouldn’t it be a better life for her if she dedicated herself to the main character and died while feeling at least a hint of love?

Rather than living a life of dying after doing nothing but changing the excrement and urine of these extras and chewing every single grain of rice and handing them over.

“Pin! The rice is ready…! Cough…!

She started coughing up blood.

Evidence that the disease has worsened. Perhaps she will die before this winter.

… And I, who is being cared for by her, will die of starvation along with her.

“Ah…! What should I do! The best rice I’ve ever made…! I can eat proper rice in a few days…!!”

She hurriedly removed only the top part stained with her own blood from the rice bowl and put it into her own rice bowl.

“Okay…! In this way, Finn can eat the clean bottom part!”

Ehehe.

She looked at me and smiled like a flower.

Even I, the viewer, feel the warmth even in the cold winter air.

Even so, my heart, warmed by her smile, screamed in bitter pain.

Since this winter started, I have heard her moans of pain every night.

The pain hidden behind that infinitely clear smile,

Because I knew the painful face that I couldn’t bear to open my eyes to see. only me

– Ugh… ! uh uh… ! ha… ha… ! Ugh… !

-hurt… sick… Mom… Dad… .

-please… Because anyone is fine… rather kill me… uh huh… .

A place with at most one single room was where the two of us lived.

In this place where there is only one bed, there is no choice but to lie side by side and try to sleep.

The cowardly act of ignoring the cries of her sacrificing herself for me was not forgiven.

* * * *

“Now, Finn… It’s rice, do you really have to chew it and swallow it?”

‘Cause if you don’t, you might get caught.

Having said that, she put my portion of rice into her mouth and began to masticate vigorously.

And then her lifeless lips approaching me slowly.

As her lips touch mine, food slowly flows through the joints.

“Well … Um … Chu -eup … Chu -eup…

What do you mean by chewing and swallowing?

It’s because you chew all of them without chewing and feed them rice in a liquid state rather than a solid. Also by mouth.

‘This is enough for the elderly who have lost their teeth in the nursing home. He chews me well enough to shout.’

Why on earth was she, the princess, throwing away that important first kiss like this just to save this one attendant?

The answer to that question was not difficult to hear.

… I slept in the same bed as her.

I became her first kiss partner.

It was the night I came to this run-down cabin with her.

‘pin… Finn, please never leave me… Understand?’

‘My mom and dad passed away… I only have pins now… .’

‘pin… please stay alive Stay alive and stay by my side… Please don’t die before me.’

‘If only I could live… If so, I’ll gladly give you my body. So get up and pin… i’m scared… I’m too scared to be alone… no… .’

‘To Finn, who lost his parents because of me and became like this… Because all I can do is this… .’

‘pin… Answer me if you can hear me… .’

‘… I’m sorry, Finn, for being forced. Still I… .’

I love you.

After saying that, she and I kissed for the second time in our lives. In a sense, I experienced the first.

The taste of my first kiss,

Cozy yet sad… It tasted hot and salty.

Her pale but soft lips,

Her body trembled with anxiety and fear.

And the tears that flowed down her cheeks soaked in.

Yes.

Originally destined to end her life dedicated to someone, she

It is said that he fell in love with a servant who became paralyzed while working for himself.

That is,

It was the reason why she continued her life tenaciously even though it was an unbearable treatment for her as a princess.

I want to hear the voice of my loved one at least once before I die.

little girl… .

Whole-body paralysis can speak… Perhaps most of all, a greedy wish.

* * * *

… It was breakfast and lunch like no other.

So, it was the day I waited for her with the usual complacent thought that she would come back soon.

… .

… .

… weird.

No matter how much time passes, she doesn’t think about coming.

Maybe something big happened? I was attacked by a beast on the way… ?

That time when I worked hard to move my pupil, the only one that could move, left and right due to anxiety.

– Kik.

As usual, there was an old, creaking sound.

ha… What the hell are you doing today, Princess! You were worried!

If I could only have moved my mouth, I would have said that. It’s true that I was worried about that much.

… But it’s strange.

She doesn’t greet me with her usual lively greeting.

All I hear is… .

“Haaa… pi, piin…uuugh!”

thud.

I heard her fall to the floor.

Then, the thrilling smell that came through the air and stimulated my nose. A bit fishy… Iron fishy smell.

… Blossom. it smells like blood

I wanted to turn my head and check her condition. Is she hurt or is it just a simple happening.

… not.

In fact, I know it even if I don’t turn my head.

This is the world of ＜Academy Demon God Subjugation＞.

Could this be a simple happening?

… She crawled over to the bed I was lying on and came face to face with me.

Her face, which tried to force a smile, was strangely distorted by the unbearable pain.

It was hard to see her face like that, so when I turned my eyes, I could see her torn side.

There were no signs of a beast. There was no trace of what a person had done with a weapon.

“N-I’m sorry I’m late Finn… I went to the village today… There was a demon… But the demon was shooting magic all around me… I tried to avoid it… Hehe… Ugh!”

dump.

She ended up collapsing on top of me.

… Mine. It was probably the mine that Ian Cedric missed last time.

This dog-like writer is a guy who likes to put things like that on foreshadowing.

Soon after, she started sobbing.

“Huh…! Heh heh…! Ugh…! I’m sorry… I’m sorry Finn…”

What are you sorry about?

you didn’t do me anything wrong Rather, it was me who continued to cause a nuisance.

“I… My body is strange… I feel cold and my senses are dull… I think I’ve come this far, Pin…”

She apologized to me over and over again.

I didn’t know that I would have to say goodbye like this.

I’m sorry for dying like this, leaving me who can’t even move properly.

I’m really sorry for leaving me alone and lonely… .

… She looked at me with pitiful eyes.

Then she sees her tear-stained eyes.

Her eyes, which boasted a light purple color,

Before I knew it, the thread veins had burst and turned red from the pain.

“Pin…I know it’s not something I would say leaving you first…I know that…I have a request…”

what kind of request

I wanted to do anything I could.

If I die so that she can live, I will gladly accept death.

I wanted to ask them to take my organs and use them if they needed them.

… But that wasn’t her request.

In a way, it’s a very simple and easy request than I thought, but it’s too difficult for me.

such a request.

“Please… just once. It’s okay even just once… I want to hear your voice…”

I ask that you want to hear my voice.

The moment I heard that, something hot started to boil in my heart.

“Please, Pin…If I could hear your voice just once…I think I would be able to close my eyes happily…”

She begged me with tears and tears of blood.

Right before dying, the last request of a lifetime.

I wanted to listen. I wanted to tell you. I wanted to call her name.

“…”

But it didn’t move. No words came out.

The sound that rises from the heart warming place rides the airway and just lingers in the mouth.

She may or may not know that I am trying my best to move my mouth for her.

He begged me, caressing my cheek with a hand that was as cold as ice.

“Pin…Pin…I love you…so please…just once for me is fine….”

“…ah.”

Her hand, which was as cold as ice, and the hand that was caressing my cheek, could not overcome gravity and fell onto the bed.

That means she’ll be passing away soon.

This is not the time.

You have to move. Because it’s her last request.

Because it’s the only way to repay her, given to this complacent fool who couldn’t even cure her illness.

So move.

move, move in action. fuck move!!

No matter how much I used it, a hot lump in my chest boiled over, and hot liquid pooled in my eyes as well.

Soon after, his lips started to tremble.

yes yes yes yes yes yes!!

little bit more! With a little more force… !

“lee….”

It was the moment I was about to say her name.

… dump.

she

Her body couldn’t overcome the force of gravity and collapsed onto me.

Soon after, her body felt extremely cold against her skin.

No, from a third person’s point of view, it was safe to say that she had already been a corpse for a long time.

“Uhhhhh!!!”

A voice escaped through slightly open lips.

Lily!! Lily look at this! I’m talking right now!! to wear… ! Because your mouth is making noise!!

It’s my voice that you’ve been wanting to hear so much!!

Wake up soon! wake up and see me!!

but she

He didn’t even react or even move at the sound that was no different from my babbling.

“uuu!! Lili!! Lili!!”

no… I can’t… Lily can’t die like this… .

She is.

As for Lily, it’s definitely not her time to die yet… .

yes original. As for the original, obviously… .

… oh

The original, did I break it?

I… all… I messed around with it… ?

Not her parents, not meeting the protagonist, not even her own status.

Yes. She is… Lily died because of me in pain, pain, fear, and loneliness.

Originally, she was supposed to die in the arms of her family, in a warm and cozy room and bed, and being treated with kindness by the attendants, including Finn.

He died like this because of me.

“Huhhhhh…”

My own foolishness was painfully felt.

… sick bastard.

Do you think you’ve become something because you’ve been possessed in a web novel?

A child who has no complacency.

Lily is. Lilithiana died because of you… sick child.

Let’s breathe in the unbearable guilt and indelible guilt,

I could smell her hair as she fell into an eternal sleep in my arms.

The bittersweet scent tickled the nostrils.

… No, everything except the sweetness is my fault.

My foolish life is too bitter. It was as if powdered medicine was poured into the mouth and rolled around with the tongue.

She went through such hardships for the sake of the one she loved, even though she died so terribly.

Because I couldn’t open my mouth for her.

It was then.

That time when I was immersed in my own pathetic feelings and despair that I had not been able to fulfill her last wish and sent her away.

-Titling!

A blue, opaque window appeared in the air.

At the same time, you suddenly feel the vitality of your whole body.

——————-

＜You failed to save Liliciana.＞

Pick a place to return to. You only have one chance now.

South Korea / Eastern Mountains of the Empire

——————-

comeback

Besides, apart from Korea, the eastern mountain range of the empire.

The intention of this dog-like writer to tell me has been conveyed.

‘I can go back now, what should I do? do you want to give up Or do you want to try it one more time?’

He was like a writer enough to leave a reply saying, “You try it” to my comment saying that she is so pitiful and that I should do something about it.

You’ve gone too far to piss people off.

… .

He moved his head, which now moves without any awkwardness, and looked down at her.

A large amount of blood flowed from the punctured side, creating a puddle.

On her cold, cold face, the hardened traces of her bloody tears were clearly visible.

Even so, her beauty was infinitely beautiful. Because she was such a character.

Even so, she is always deprived of her main character, and even in a situation where she cannot even hear the voice of her loved one… Because he was a being who devoted himself until his death.

Her death was infinitely fleeting.

… Without hesitation, I reached my right hand toward the right button.

Then he hugged her tightly with his left arm.

“Lily, Lilithiana…”

Lilithiana.

One of the prettiest and most beautiful succulents, her name is the same as the name of an unusual plant that blooms in winter.

She was literally Lilithiana herself to me.

In my cold and painful life like winter, where I can neither die nor live, paralyzed.

Like a flower blooming in winter, you warmly stayed by my side.

I will never forget the love and grace I received from you.

I’m really sorry that I’ve only bothered you so far.

Have you had a lot of trouble so far? Taking care of this sick bastard.

… .

“Now, it’s my turn to repay you, Lily.”

No matter what I become, even if I end up in this form again… .

I will definitely save you from this hellish fate.

Yes, no matter what I sacrifice, I will definitely save you.

Don’t be careless this time.

So give me one more chance this time.

A chance to assist you as your servant.

A chance to protect you as a person who loves you.

I’m sorry, Lily.

… and.

“I love you.”

… Just like that, my world, Kim Bin, flashed again.