Episode 50. self realization

“Professor Hadley, you have a lot scheduled for tomorrow.”

“I do it myself.”

“… You’re drinking too much these days. Yesterday too-“

I was too lazy to answer, so I just waved my hand, and in the end, the maid quietly moved away.

Hadley, who had become very sensitive because of Carol, waited for the bottle while pressing her finger on her forehead, where the headache was coming.

In fact, the priests at the health room recommended that I stay sober for two weeks, but I couldn’t stop drinking right now.

How could I go to bed sober after receiving a phone call from an angry parent at 2:00 in the morning?

‘I can’t get in touch with Carol. If you call the child who always goes to bed at 10pm, but there is no answer from 9pm all morning, that means that Carol has broken her phone, right?’

‘mother… . I’ll start a consultation tomorrow. Because I was negligent in managing the faculty-‘

‘no. It’s my fault.’

The magical engineering phone is an expensive item that is equivalent to Kiruna’s 7th year full professor’s salary.

Having blown it up, it was only now that I realized how crooked Carol was.

It wasn’t just a deviation, it was a complete change of heart towards Ian.

‘I had a feeling this day would come. It was also a time when the bad habits of a father who left home and abandoned his family, saying blood can’t be cheated, came out.’

‘… mother?’

‘Let them do what they want, and don’t pay any attention to them. Could you please tell me this instead?’

Now, it’s like your mother is making you look like a person who can’t get enough of you. Do you think you’ve been patient for me?

Carol, is the fact that you’re attending that school right now the result of your efforts alone?

Do you know how much your mom sacrificed to get you there?

I thought of you every day I wanted to live a life without failure as much as you.

Seeing that one thing, your mother sacrificed everything, but you follow your father who abandoned you without knowing this feeling.

‘… Hold on, mother! You shouldn’t just be expelled. There are dozens of research institutes that want Carol right now-‘

‘Please tell me not to ask for my sacrifice anymore. Let’s see who wins.’

I’m going crazy, really.

‘Haa, I never thought Carol would listen to her mother and join Ian right away… .’

As Ian’s arrogant face floated over the shaking glass, Hadley wanted to break his stiff neck at any moment.

Mina, who believes in and follows a guy who has no roots, is said to be rejecting job offers from all kinds of research institutes without even reading the conditions.

Principal Skillbeck seemed dissatisfied with the lack of control over Ian and the students around him.

‘Absolutely not as good as Carol… !’

Karl is a magical genius that even Principal Skillbeck takes notice of.

If he was taken away by Ian in this way… . Hadley did not know that sooner or later he would have to step down from associate professorship, let alone be promoted to professor.

Her hard-earned life was about to collapse because of an eccentric soldier.

“Even to the devil… . I want to reach out… .”

Hadley sighed deeply and shook the glass as it was.

* * *

The day when there is a basic magic class.

Yuri, who visited the auditorium, saw Ian again after the Saint Stica Cathedral incident.

It was still scary, but it didn’t seem like a bad person.

‘I warn you in advance, but the basic skills of magic formula will be trained through memorization and review. If you don’t have the confidence to endure that much pain, don’t call yourself a scholar.’

Obviously, he said that in the first class, so Yuri took the second class with great tension.

‘By the way… .’

Professor Ian’s class was unexpectedly friendly.

“Hey, are you sleeping? It must have been too easy a class for you. Then can you hear why Shilot placed Pleaa instead of Eyed as the 21st word?”

“sorry… .”

“Calm down.”

No, to be precise, the atmosphere of the class was cold, but the content of the lecture was friendly.

“Don’t miss a single Toshi. What you are learning now is the process of designing magic formulas. You have to write down the mindset of the magician who created this magic formula, and see the logic and flow of your thoughts. If you don’t know it properly now, it will be difficult to understand what follows.”

Yuri and Karin first started learning magic here.

Unlike other children who have received prior learning from various secondary educational institutions or magic instructors, the two had no foundation, but they were able to easily follow Professor Ian’s classes.

Today’s 4th class is an interpretation of Shilot’s ignition system.

The barrier to entry was low thanks to the fact that the words used in the ignition ceremony were arranged and distributed according to their meaning and usage prior to the start of the class.

According to the stories of the seniors around, at least in the Department of Magic, there was not a single professor who prepared something like this separately.

‘Although you said you’d take a paper test with this in the next class… .’

… Yuri decided to think about the future later.

Let’s focus on class again.

I heard that there are a few classes in the Department of Magic that explain the interpretation of magic formulas, that is, the basis for arranging words, but this class seems to be a little different from the other classes.

“The Ignition Ceremony was developed for the purpose of amplifying the strength of light magic. But why did Shilot place Plea (fire) instead of Eyed (light) as the 21st word? Do you have any students to share your thoughts with?”

“… .”

“Because flame control is so much easier than light control.”

“You said that flame is easier to handle than light, but elementology doesn’t deal with that.”

“Carl, that’s a good point. So I wrote the expression ‘it was easy’. When pyrotechnics were first developed, creating a burning light source was far more efficient than manipulating the light itself. As elemental science advances, the gap has narrowed—”

The biggest feature of this class is to explain the process of choosing the first words to form a magic formula and continuing them in order from the magic formula developer’s point of view.

I heard that in another class, memorize as many basic magic formulas as possible so that students can use advanced magic as quickly as possible.

However, memorization without understanding is unbearable for lower-class students like Yuri, so today, for the first time, Yuri was able to attend class for over 30 minutes without dozing off.

“Everyone is busy writing. Memorization is good, but try to learn how to think.”

In this class, even the juniors were able to study properly, to the extent that they were able to understand the contents of the book read as they were in the previous class, taking notes and skipping along.

At first, I could see that the blond third-year senior who was hostile to Professor Ian, and the students in the student council were also concentrating on class.

‘I also… !’

Yuri tried to open her closed eyes, but… .

‘When do you want to eat lunch today?’

It’s already half past 11.

Looking at Karin’s scribbles, Yuri realized that there were only 10 minutes left in class.

‘I didn’t even know time was passing.’

Yuri whispered to Karin.

“You were supposed to eat with Jun. I heard Jun finishes at 12:30?”

‘Then shall we go out to meet you?’

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Jun is a freshman in the same department of magic, and because of his shy personality, he said that he always lived alone quietly.

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Jun was in Class B and did well in his studies. However, because I learned the magic formula on my own, in class, I get scolded for interpreting the magic formula in a different direction from the answer the professors want… .

‘Maybe that’s when the bullies caught the eye?’

When I first met Jun. Jun was being teased by the mean kids, and Karin and Yuri helped him and they became close.

“ah… ! hit.”

That wasn’t what mattered now.

‘What was lunch today? It’s 11:40 when class ends, but I’m a bit hungry to wait until 12:30… .’

“I’ll buy you some snacks-”

“Yuri, is your mouth itching?”

“… Yeah?”

5 minutes before class ends.

Yuri froze at Professor Ian’s name being called.

Karin turned her head and turned away from Yuri.

“Karin… ?”

“It was fine. Yuri, try to deduce the final word for you to complete this spell.”

“oh… .”

In the end, only Yuri was scolded.

* * *

In the end, Carol folded the blank paper and came out to the library. I skipped lunch and started, but it’s already 7:00 in the evening.

“ha… . Damn it, that’s hard.”

Professor Ian’s magic formula basic class 4th assignment was a word test and transformation of magic formula.

‘It would be premature to ask for the composition or reinterpretation of a new magic formula already. First of all, you guys will learn how to think for yourself by modifying the magic formula little by little.’

This task was to select one word that makes up the recursive formula and substitute another word.

‘Take this paper with you after class. This is a modern recursive interpretation, rewritten to reflect advances in elemental science. The structure is not very different from the ignition formula of Shilot, and since the approach and operating principle are written down, there will be no difficulty in understanding.’

A task to change the word ‘flame’ used in Shilot’s magic formula to ‘light’.

‘Refer to the modern Ignition Ceremony and change Plea to Ide in the Ignition Ceremony of Shilot. Logical errors caused by misaligned words can also be sufficiently corrected by applying the modern recursive approach. If you can’t find the answer there-‘

Carol looked through the 10 pages of interpretations of basic magic formulas related to the ignition ceremony held in her right hand, and was disgusted.

‘These are also interpretations of other magic formulas that modified Shilot’s ignition formula, so you can refer to them. You don’t have to search for an answer here. It might be a bit difficult, but if you can come up with it yourself without reference to anything. That would be best.’

Could there be a student in Year 1 who could transform a magic formula without a reference?

I, a 3rd grader, tried for 7 hours and failed… .

‘If there is a part that you do not understand the development process even after reading the interpretations, please come to my office at any time. If I am absent for another class, my maid will take my place to make a consultation appointment. My office is located on the lowest floor of the Erebna Magic Tower, so even lower-class students can knock on the door without hesitation.’

He tried to transform the ignition ceremony on his own without the help of other interpretations, risking his pride as a third-ranked third-year student in the Ministry of Magic, but creating something that did not exist in the world was much more painful and difficult than he thought.

Carol’s shoulders drooped as she returned to the dormitory, wondering how she could create a new magic formula when even a single word change couldn’t be fixed.

“I’ll have to think about it a little more in my room… .”

By the way.

‘… ?’

When Carol arrived at the dormitory, she doubted her eyes.

“Wait a minute, what are you doing?”

The maids came and removed the luggage from his room. The head maid, who looked at his cleanly emptied living space with pity, notified Carol.

“… You are forced to leave.”

“Yeah!? suddenly? I suddenly went to agoge saying I did something wrong-”

“It’s not Agoge, Bocchan.”

“Well, then… ?”

“It is an order to return home.”

What… ?

Carol looked at the head maid with empty eyes.

“I would like to help the young master to the best of my ability, but… . As a mere dormitory manager, I had no choice but to listen to the strong request of the guardian.”

The head maid’s words, ‘Because you’re still underage,’ pierced Carol’s chest like a dagger.

“We tried our best to convince the family of the notification, but my mother was firm in that will. He only left us with the words to go outside in the rain or to give up and come back.”

“Ha, really… .”

“You said there would be no additional financial support, so how about praying for forgiveness from your mother… ? After that, try persuading-”

Then, someone grabbed Carol’s shoulder, which had completely fallen off.

“You don’t have to ask for forgiveness.”

… how did you come to know

Professor Ian, who looked at the interpretation of his own magic formula that was held tightly in Carol’s hand, spoke to Carol with blank eyes.

“Carl, what do you want to do now? I will help.”

“Why would someone like me… .”

“School should be a place where students get the future they want, and teachers should be people who work for students to realize themselves. Similarly, as a student, all you have to do is see, listen, and learn many things. All you need is one willingness to learn. Never mind anything else.”

* * *

Davi Bianca was a genius hated.

Seeing the professors who were busy watching Mina Spearmint who participated in the disciplinary committee, the hatred grew.

‘If I were a genius, if I had that kind of talent… !’

I’ve been trying so hard to get that attention that Mina Spearmint treats cheaply, but I can’t even fly like this.

Darby’s scarred heart completely fell apart after the disciplinary committee.

And… . Darby glared at the devil who had come to dig up the corpse as if to kill him.

“Does my head look empty enough to be with a suspicious bitch like you? ?”

“Is it suspicious? It’s strange, there shouldn’t be much difference in appearance from the others. Oh, is it a little dry?”

“Now look under you!”

At first, he thought that a fearless sophomore girl had come to visit him.

but… .

at some point. Seeing her shadow endlessly engulfing the surrounding darkness, Darby was able to attack her without hesitation.

“Hey… . Do you think the student council raises demons these days?”

“The important thing for you now is that I am also a member of the student council, and I can get you out of here right now. As you must have felt before, I can give you overwhelming talent.”

Even though the devil’s shadow ate the mana arrows thrown on the ground as if they were delicious. No one came to the sound of Darby screaming in solitary confinement.

“Crazy bitch… . go away! No matter how much I go out, like you-”

“It is. Excuse me.”

Under Darby’s banquet order, the delicate devil tried to get out of the cell for probation without looking back, as if he had no regrets.

“Hey! Take this and it’s a baby! ”

“It is a gift to you. Throw it away or use it, do as you please.”

“No matter what, I will never hold your hand. I’m going to throw this away as soon as I get out of here, no. I’m going to throw myself in the toilet right now!”

“Does not matter.”

“… What?”

“It is an homage to your young heart, who has endured the contradictions of this place for three years. I won’t ask you for anything by using it.”

“How can you believe that?”

“Believe it or not, it must be your heart.”

The devil looked at Dabi with eyes the same color as the cherry blossoms that had been trampled on for the last time.

“Whatever the outcome of my invention is in your hands, if that is the choice you want… . I’m Satisfied.”

“What is he saying now… !”

“I came here to give you what you want most. Beyond that, there is nothing I wish for.”

When the devil, who had only been talking about strange things, suddenly disappeared, Darby threw the odd-looking pocket watch against the wall.

Should I just break it?

“ha… .”

Agoge solitary room where no one can meet.

It was too quiet and long a night to stop thinking.