Episode 32. responsibility (2)

Did that foolish snowflake that crash-landed softly know that it would melt away and disappear shortly after stepping foot in a new world?

February. In a little while, the day when we have to say goodbye to the innocence that wraps the world.

Ina, who melted all the snow in her heart a little earlier, recklessly pushed an application for dropout to Professor Ian.

“Explain it. Why do you want to leave here?”

Ina’s expression darkened.

“I am… . I didn’t even know what Sepia was doing because I was playing with the students in the student council. With ears and eyes that are brighter than the other students, without seeing anything… .”

I was too ashamed of myself as a werewolf to make an excuse that I hadn’t seen Sepia or that I didn’t know.

‘I’m sure I’m responsible for being indifferent.’

Sitting alone in the corner of a dark room and blaming herself, Ina had a few realizations.

‘Eternal eyes are nowhere but Nodia.’

I knew that the pretty snowflakes that fell here would eventually turn into soggy gray and be trampled on.

Ina desperately admitted that she, who had always lived in white as a fool, did not fit into this school, the world outside the snowfield.

“As a member of the student council, I want to take responsibility for everything that happened to Sepia. But, the command department professors would never drop me out… .”

“Because I wouldn’t want to lose a talented person like you.”

“You won’t understand me more than that. You’d say dropping out of school just for that reason is foolish. But Professor Ian knows everything Sepia has been through. Because the professor knows that I’m not doing this for nothing… .”

Sepia, who was being bullied, said that she had asked other professors for help.

However, they were afraid of Princess Euril and turned a blind eye to Sepia, thinking that it might be an obstacle to advancing into the Imperial Academy.

Ian is the only professor who can lend a helping hand to her.

‘I’m sure you’ll understand my feelings.’

Professor Ian, who had been listening to her until now, asked Ina without much response.

“Is it a responsibility… . Judging by the look on your face, I don’t think that’s the only reason you came to me.”

“And… .”

In the twilight, he almost missed sepia, but couldn’t control his anger and ran amok.

Remembering the fishy taste of blood at that time, Ina said to Professor Ian while holding her hands together anxiously.

“I am… . Now, I don’t think I can remain the blue or light blue that other kids want.”

“Do you ever feel that you are darker and more disgusting than before?”

Even without Ina’s explanation, the professor noticed what she wanted to say and did it for her.

‘As expected, you know my heart… !’

Ina happily nodded to Professor Ian, who recognized her.

“I don’t have the confidence to smile and approach the kids like I used to. professor… .”

“Hmm.”

“And as you can see, I am no longer in control of my emotions. I was so excited that I knocked down another student, who was bleeding and afraid of me.”

Maybe he held his own two hands because he wanted to hold someone else’s hand.

Ina, who was trembling with fear with her hands tightly together, eventually shed tears and covered her face with her hands.

“I am anxious because I have changed like this. What if one day you suddenly change and bite the people around you? The moment I think that my teeth and fingernails could kill someone, I can’t fall asleep… .”

Having never hurt anyone in her life, Ina was afraid to see herself stained with blood.

“I can’t be here or light blue. People are too scared for me. Professor, I want to go back. Let me go back to Nodia, please… .”

Ian ordered Inna, who was crying sadly like a child.

“Cease your tears.”

“… Yeah?”

“Don’t cry. Crying doesn’t change the world. So wipe away your tears right now and listen.”

Professor Ian stood up and looked down at her with cold eyes.

“I am very disappointed in you. Or light blue.”

* * *

“It doesn’t mean that I can’t empathize with your feelings.”

If she had been a Pyeongeun High School student and I had been her homeroom teacher, I would have patted her first.

But now that I’m Kiruna’s Professor Ian, I had to treat her coldly.

Because of that. If there is a big difference between the advice I would give her as Kim Yo-han and the scolding as Professor Lee Ahn, it wasn’t.

After all, I would have told Ina what I am about to say. The tone and temperature are different, but the content is the same.

“First of all, you want to take responsibility for Sepia. Otherwise, your heart will suffer. I don’t want to suffer from guilt, right?”

“then… . I didn’t mean it… .”

“Is it really so? er, calm down What will change if you disappear from this school?”

“that’s… .”

“Even if you are expelled, Sephia will still be threatened by Princess Euryl. The student council will continue to target sepia and frill princesses. You said you would take responsibility for Sepia’s pain. Then shouldn’t you alleviate some of her pain?”

In fact, just the fact that he feels responsible is already a good kid.

However, just being nice won’t change anything. You cannot change yourself or the world.

To drop out is… . All I could hear was that he wanted to run away.

“Think of the frill princess.”

Because there is one student in this school who has the courage to take real responsibility.

“He felt that Princess Euril’s actions were obviously not right and saved Sepia. Seeing Sephia suffering from the authority of other members of the imperial family, she felt a deep sense of responsibility as the emperor’s daughter and saved Sephia with all her dedication.”

“ah… .”

“To alleviate the pain and sorrow of the other person. Isn’t that fulfilling your responsibility?”

Of course, Ina wouldn’t be trying to run away because she was tormented by guilt towards Sepia.

There was something else she was afraid of.

Doubt and anger.

A strange feeling, never experienced in Nodia.

“Did you say you were afraid? Are you unfamiliar with the suspicion of the malice of others and the anger that you cannot do anything about yourself? I know that you, as a non-human, are not familiar with those feelings. However, why are you afraid of change.”

“That is because I hate others and may hurt them… .”

“Are you afraid to hate Haril for cheating on you? Are you afraid to fight back in anger at Felix, who grabs Sepia’s hair right in front of you and drags her away?”

It’s a tough world. Of course, you can’t just live a good life. You have to know how to doubt, and you have to know how to get angry.

That way you can protect yourself and the people around you.

“If you don’t fight them, Sepia will still suffer?”

“that’s… . You’re right, but… .”

“If you don’t fight against evil in anger, if you just turn away… . Evil stays alive in its place. If you don’t get angry and fight against it, who can eradicate them?”

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Just as Frill fought against Euril, Kiruna’s darkness can be lifted only when she is courageous and faces it.

“You are running away now. or.”

I tore the resignation letter she handed me to shreds.

With blank eyes, Ina watched the pieces of paper falling like snow on the bottom of the rain water.

“Nah, take your responsibility. So that Sepia can go back to school. Be suspicious of her enemies. Anger at injustice! If not, how are we going to clean up the filth that overflows the world?”

I said clearly to Ina, who was silently staring at me with tears still in her eyes.

“Look carefully into your heart. What matters is your sincerity. If you really want to take responsibility for the crimes committed by the Student Council, stay by Sepia’s side and bite off the filthy hands that aim at her. Do not be afraid to get your hands dirty, even if you see blood and a dirty look.”

“otherwise… .”

“If not. In fact, if you were just a coward, a hypocrite who always tried to be clean no matter who was suffering… . Get out of school.”

“… .”

“However, don’t appear in front of me again. If you don’t pay your tuition, you can leave this school in disgrace. So stop thinking about getting my help, and don’t come out of Nodia again.”

after a moment of silence.

Seeing Ina quietly pick up the application form I had torn up and put it in, I regretted it a little.

‘… Did I scold you too much?’

* * *

I was very upset.

I was so scolded, but no tears came out.

I just felt like I was blown away by a sudden strong wind.

Ina, who came to her senses after a while, put her hands together with the papers that Professor Ian had torn.

“… Let it be. You can just leave.”

“I will take responsibility. I gave it to you, so I’ll take it away.”

Ina smiled a little and looked up at Professor Ian while squatting.

“I’ll go see Princess Frill. I’ll be staying with Sepia, so I’m going to go see them.”

“… Have you made up your mind?”

“Yeah. I still don’t know how many bad people there are in the world… .”

Gathering the papers that fell like white snow and holding them in her chest, Ina said.

“Like Princess Frill, Mina, or Professor Ian… . Because there are people you can trust. You don’t have to be too scared, right?”

Excuse me, Ina smiled and bowed her head.

She looks a lot brighter than when she first entered the office.

“… Don’t forget to cancel your criminal record application.”

Responding to Professor Ian’s advice with only a smile, Ina left the office with lighter steps.

I realized that the world is a scary place, but I realized today that there are people I can trust even in it.

I couldn’t leave them alone and run away to Nodia. want to fight together

“Ahh. I also want to get angry in a cool way~”

Someday, like Professor Ian.

Until the day comes when you can be angry with the strong for the sake of the weak.

Ina, who is not familiar with emotions yet, wanted to learn a lot about them.

* * *

Time passed quickly.

Even if nothing happened, every minute and every second was wasted just by studying the pond and practicing magic. Two days went by like that, and in the end.

“No, why did you come so many times?”

“Mister… . Are you more popular?”

Mana and magic language supplementary class 3rd session.

When 80 people came, the auditorium, which seemed empty in places, was full. I even saw students sitting on the stairs due to lack of seats.

“Mister, I think there are professors here too.”

“Also… . After getting involved with the student council, everyone seems to be interested even if they don’t talk about it?”

“Isn’t that not so bad?”

“What can I do?”

There were faces I knew around Dana, something white waving her arms in the distance.

Mint student and her classmates. Ruffles, sepia, and Ina sticking close to it.

Everyone seemed to get along well.

‘It’s nice to see. Be friendly. Hey guys.’

“Meriel, I’m really sorry for bringing up this topic now.”

“What? You’re not talking about the bathroom, are you?”

“I’m serious, dude.”

After looking into Princess Frill’s expectant eyes for a moment, I asked her.

“Actually, I was going to talk about it once… . Don’t you hate me pushing the princess frills? because… .”

“ah.”

Isn’t Frill, the daughter of the emperor, a descendant of the one who destroyed her family?

It was something that kept bothering me, but after procrastinating and procrastinating on this issue, I ended up asking in this situation.

There’s also tonight, but why is it now, 20 minutes before class?

‘I’m so nervous right now. I want to say something… .’

“Now what are you doing by saying that?”

“If you don’t like it, I can hold back. Anyway, you’re tied up next to me, so it’s not okay to keep doing things you don’t like.”

“If it was really disgusting, I said it first. Recognizing my personality… .”

Meriel looked up at the ceiling.

The ceiling of the auditorium where beautiful snow fell.

“I don’t know who the emperor is. Looking at the frills, he might not be such a bad person.”

“but… .”

“I was obviously killed just because I got Stella’s blood. However, is it really right to hate someone just because they have the emperor’s blood? To be just like them.”

“Not really, but no one will blame you for feeling that way. I’ve been hurt, and of course I’m angry.”

“If it was like the old days, before I met the uncle, I might have been angry. But now, I have some peace of mind.”

Meriel sat down on a chair in the auditorium.

Then, seeing Ina react violently from afar, I hated it and hid behind me.

“… I don’t know who the emperor is. But that Frill doesn’t look like the man who killed me. So, rather, I feel fortunate.”

“thank god?”

“Because I don’t have to hate everyone in one family. Thanks to such a good-looking kid, I’m happy to be able to hate only the person who killed me, not the entire imperial family… . Well, that’s it. He gave me hope, that not all members of the imperial family are trash.”

At that moment, I remembered a person who was said to have been the emperor’s magic instructor when he was young.

Kissing Garden, no Kissing Stella.

The person the emperor misses the most.

I wonder if she also warmed up to Zer-sama out of a similar mindset to Meriel.

“But, I really hate that Euril. If I were Jibak-ryeong, I would have torn him to death right away.”

“… Is it because you look like him?”

Princess Euril, who occupied a very narrow seat with eight guardian knights around her, and looked down at me arrogantly while sitting alone in a wide seat… . Even receiving Meriel’s hatred, he seemed cheap.

“But, since I’m a commanding officer, you can’t even lay a hand on him. That’s why I want to help the kid named Frill all the more. Please scold me instead.”

“… I’m sorry for saying this now.”

“Relax, mister. don’t be afraid How have you been?”

* * *

The selection of new students was also nearing its end. In other words, it was the busiest time for all professors in the school. therefore.

‘Assistant Professor Hadley, please observe Professor Ian’s class scheduled for 2:00 PM today.’

‘… Yeah?’

Principal Skillbeck’s sudden, unannounced order made Hadley very embarrassed.

As soon as the new professor arrived, rumors that he was attracting negative attention from people by making all sorts of riots like Dana had spread over his shoulder.

I wanted to go there right away to find out the truth and give an appropriate punishment, but… .

I was busy. Even though I was busy, I was too busy… !

‘I’m busy, but I have to be here like this.’

I struggled even more because I didn’t understand Skillbeck’s instructions, who should have a clear idea of how the school was running.

‘What the hell is this rookie doing as soon as he arrives? If the unlearned soldier was taken out of the battlefield, he would be grateful for his life and keep quiet, why the hell?’

‘As the vice-president of the Department of Magical Linguistics, you come directly to Professor Ian’s class. Come see me right after his class. Don’t just go and teach me, and don’t disturb the class.’

If you have eyes, are you telling me to go and see what kind of mess is going on… ?

“ha… . What the hell are you trying to nag?”

Hadley, who was fanning himself with his hand in the heat of the auditorium, which was heated by the warmth of the people, stopped his hand at the thought of something strange.

‘Come to think of it, why did so many students come here?’

Obviously, it was winter break.

The season when students do not come out even if they are told to come to school.

But now, to listen to Professor Ian’s lecture, many students gave up warm blankets and rushed into the auditorium, breaking through the winter wind.

This would be impossible unless a miracle happened. There, Princess Euril as an observer. and the frill princess.

The two daughters of the imperial family, whom Principal Skillbeck cared about the most, were all gathered here.

“how… . What is going on here?”

“There are more students than ever before. There are students who do not have enough seats, so try to sit as close to the person next to you as possible.”

Hadley doubted his eyes even at that common comment.

It was something anyone could say, but because Professor Ian was talking while staring at Princess Auril.

Alone in the middle of a wall of knights, sitting alone in a space large enough for five people… . As if the challenge was ridiculous, he smiled and ignored it.

“This crazy… !”

It was the moment when an idiot beyond Dana appeared in the Mado Linguistics Department, which had been going well until now.