166. Could such a child grow up to be a normal adult?

On the way home after a dreamy camping trip on a midsummer night.

“brother. Never burden yourself. I don’t know what to say, but hyung-nim doesn’t have to do variety shows anymore. I know very well that you were busy working as an actor. Still, it’s my debut film, and I thought it would be meaningful to propose it to my brother for the first time.”

“Don’t say anything you don’t mean.”

“Huh? Big… Anyway, I’m well aware that this is an unreasonable proposal, so you don’t have to feel pressured. You suffered. Go home and get some rest!”

“You suffered too. Go inside.”

Gyu-ha, who had been staring at Yang-il’s car until it disappeared from sight, turned and headed home.

“Nyaaang”

“Did you have a good time?”

Always by the time Kyu-ha comes, Geum-bi, waiting at the entrance of the front door, notices it like a ghost and greets him.

Gyu-ha, who gently stroked Geum-bi’s back, went into the bathroom and took a shower.

After changing into comfortable clothes, Kyu-ha lay down on the queen-size bed.

“Mexico’s Yucatan Peninsula… hehehehe, isn’t that a coincidence, too?”

The 15th dream, a proposal that came to me like fate after going through Kankuen’s short life.

Mexico’s Yucatan Peninsula was also the place where the Mayan civilization blossomed.

Kyuha’s instinct said.

That the compass of fate is pointing there.

The mysterious incidents that Gyuha has experienced so far are like pouring oil on a rusty machine,

Like splicing broken glass, he corrected something out of place in Kyuha little by little.

Little by little I seemed to know.

If you follow it well, one day the path to become a ‘really normal’ person will open.

But there was one catch.

“What should I say to Team Leader Jeonghee Han…?”

Even if you think about it, would you easily be convinced if the actor said that it was not a talk show, but a wild survival documentary variety show?

“First… . I should at least speak.”

Kyu-ha called Han Jeong-hee on the spot.

***

next day.

Stellar entertainment breakout room.

Han Jeong-hee, Bong-gu, and Kyu-ha exchanged a conversation with serious expressions.

“Yesterday I was too in a hurry so I couldn’t ask in detail, but what do you want to do?”

“Well… . It’s a bit vague to explain. It’s entertainment. Do you know Holy Day? In the past, I was an assistant director under PD Son Jun-ik.”

“ah! Positive days PD? Of course I know. You also went through a lot in France.”

“I heard that Seongil is going to enlist this time. It must have been recognized within the company.”

“oh. Good for you! You worked so hard… . ah! So, did you mean to appear in Seongil’s debut film?”

“Yes? I heard what kind of program it was, and I was quite interested.”

“OK. I understood the circumstances before and after. In a way, it can be because Gyu-ha is a lifesaver to PD Yang-il Yang. But business is business. When Kyuha moves once, many interlocking gears move. You know what?”

“of course. I know enough.”

“like. Then, what kind of entertainment should we listen to first and then talk about?”

At Han Jeong-hee’s words, he explained the program as he had heard from Yang Sung-il.

However, as the explanation continued, Han Jeong-hee’s expression hardened, and Bong-gu’s face grew worried.

“So, to sum it up, it’s a real documentary variety and a program whose goal is to survive in remote areas. Is that right?”

“You understand. Yes.”

“no. It’s not something to talk about with such a bright smile! Why is Gyuha going to a remote area? Gyuha is no longer a rookie actor who has to do anything just because he needs recognition. He is an actor the world is paying attention to. But why would you want to go to such a dangerous place? This is nonsense. If it’s because of the friendship with PD Yang-il…”

“Chief Han.”

Han Jeong-hee hesitated at Kyu-ha’s low voice.

However, Han Jeong-hee shook her head once as if to come to her senses and continued.

“It’s not okay. That’s where it goes. I’d rather consider it if it was a domestic travel program, but that’s not the case.”

Bong-gu, who had been listening quietly, also helped.

“Right, brother. It’s too dangerous there. But it doesn’t seem like there’s anything to be gained by doing that.”

There was no change in the expression of the calm Kyu-ha despite the fierce opposition of the two closest people.

“Chief Han. Like Bong-gu, would you listen to me for a moment?”

“ah! sorry. I just stretched out my words. Can you tell me?”

Gyu-ha, who looked at the two with deep eyes at Han Jeong-hee’s words, opened her mouth.

“You two know what kind of life I’ve been living, right?”

“Yes.. well, of course..”

When the story suddenly fell into Kyu-ha’s life, the two of them were taken aback.

“You two are special people to me, so I’ll tell you more.”

Han Jeong-hee and Bong-gu pulled their chairs closer to the fact that Kyu-ha’s past, which they couldn’t bear to ask about, would come out.

“As you are well aware, both of my parents passed away in a car accident when I was about 5 years old. At that time, I was not in good health, and I was on my way to get medicine and the accident happened.”

I wasn’t wrong as my mental health wasn’t quite good.

“I was young, but I knew. The fact that my parents died because of me. A 5-year-old had to deal with that guilt alone. He sent down all sorts of hardships and trials as if they were punished from heaven. such a child… . Could it really have grown completely and without any problems?”

The mouths of Han Jeong-hee and Bong-gu, who were listening to the heavy talk that exceeded expectations, were firmly shut.

It was because I never dreamed that such a background existed.

“Wherever I went, I never showed emotion. No, there was nowhere to tee off. When I showed my emotions even a little bit, they would come back as a weakness like a boomerang. I always tried hard to keep my expressionless, and I was busy suppressing any emotions I felt. Since I was 5 years old. Could such a child grow up to be a normal adult?”

“Kyuha, that’s…”

Han Jeong-hee, with a sad expression, tried to comfort her, but Kyu-ha continued to speak.

“it’s okay. At that time, that was my only way to survive. But I ran into a problem. As I suppressed and suppressed my emotions, at some point I became numb to the emotions themselves. You probably felt it too. A strange feeling of incongruity in me.”

The expressions on the two men’s faces darkened.

It felt like a misaligned puzzle had been put together.

Certainly, the more I knew Kyu-ha, the more I felt an inexplicable gap.

He was courteous and courteous to everyone. too much.

I’ve never seen him get angry. Even if it’s an angry enough situation.

I smiled, but I couldn’t remember laughing out loud.

I’ve never seen him sad or cry in everyday life.

There was something strangely out of sync with Song Kyu-hara, who seemed to be perfect.

“Certainly… there were times when it felt a little strange, but I didn’t mind it too much. I thought he had a calm personality.”

“Me too. Hyung-nim says he has a problem, but he is more warm-hearted than anyone I know. That I know best.”

The atmosphere changed rapidly.

If a while ago the goal was to somehow give up Kyuha,

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Now, he feels sympathy for Kyuha and comfort has become a priority.

“At first, I didn’t think I was weird. no. Strictly speaking, I didn’t know. At that time, I hardly ever met anyone else. But then I came across acting by chance, met Han Jeong-hee, the head of the team, Bong-gu and the members of the Bluebird Nursery School, and now that there are people who can fit into the ‘family’ fence, I knew that. That I’m not normal. Having a family made me greedy. I thought that if I didn’t fix my emotional problems, there would definitely be bigger problems.”

“ah… ! But what does that have to do with going to the backcountry…?”

“My world is so small. I didn’t go to school like the others, I don’t have friends to open up to, and I’m in a state where I don’t even feel like human interaction except for you. As a result, there is a lack of experience in life.”

Of course, there were few things Kyu-ha couldn’t do as he lived many lives, but that was a different matter.

In fact, I didn’t know how to ‘enjoy’ hanging out with a lot of people,

It was still difficult for Kyu-ha to deal with people with ‘sincerity’.

“That me… . You guys corrected me, who could have gone wrong if I was wrong. As a result, I also developed a sense of greed.”

“What kind of greed?”

“As much as the people who like me work hard for me, I must do the same. It is the desire to be ‘sincere’.”

“So that’s the way to the backcountry?”

“Seongil is also my younger brother whom I cherish. It’s weak, but I feel like I want to help. If I suppress and ignore these feelings again like in the past, I will be stopped there. I want to become a person who feels whole emotions by somehow saving and saving the fragments of emotions that have arisen like sparks. At the same time, I want to broaden my knowledge while experiencing various things. As the team leader knows, I have very few close friends. I also want to make it through this opportunity.”

“Huh… Ha… Hmm…”

After Kyu-ha said this, Han Jeong-hee could no longer just oppose it.

Because I could feel his sincerity.

Having known Kyuha for nearly 5 years, had he ever been so assertive?

That’s why Han Jeong-hee couldn’t easily reject it.

“I am in favor. Whatever your brother does, I agree.”

At those words, Han Jeong-hee, who turned her head and looked at Bong-gu, was at a loss for words.

Hot tears streamed down Bong-gu’s big eyes.

“Kheuk. I didn’t know that my brother was working so hard. I believe in you unconditionally. In a way, the road my brother walked must have been more difficult than the remote area, but he has come this far. It’s an entertainment program even if you say Ozzy, but it’s not going to do enough safety devices or anything. If my brother has such a purpose, I will follow him even further.”

“No, Mr. Bong-gu… This isn’t something to do emotionally…”

“Even team leader Han feels it honestly. After he went to Greece for old and young, he said that something had changed. You’ve even asked me about it. You worked so hard, and the future will be even better than now. Shouldn’t we help such a big brother, team leader?”

“That’s… that’s right.”

Han Jeong-hee also acknowledged that part.

After I went to Greece, I got a warm aura

After going back to France, for some reason, my expressions became richer and my emotional expressions became more natural.

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Han Jeong-hee is worried as she knocks on her desk with her fingers.

There was only suffocating silence in the meeting room.

how much time has passed

widely!

“like. Let’s think positively. First of all, I’ll get the data from the UK. No matter how well it is prepared according to the procedure, let’s first receive the proposal and decide.”

“all right. And thank you for your understanding. both of you.”

Han Jeong-hee laughed at Kyu-ha’s words and took a sip of the already cooled green tea.

“How can I win with Gyuha’s insistence? still… . Thank you. It must have been difficult to say, but he told me honestly.”

“It is natural. They are family.”

A smile was brighter than ever on Kyuha’s face.

That’s how Kyuha’s appearance in ‘Survival Of The Fittest’ was virtually confirmed.