11. Clues – 11

“My baby, my one and only baby… ”

On the bed, Altina was carefully watching Jin, who had fallen asleep on her lap.

He said that his whole body hurt so much that he couldn’t sleep at all, and when Altina put his head on her lap and sang a lullaby to him several times, he fell asleep.

Was the lap pillow effective in putting the man to sleep like his mother said, or was the lullaby being carefully played in his ear effective? Have you reached this limit?

In Altina’s opinion, I think the correct answer must have been the latter.

The Jin she knew was a man who was foolish enough to act foolishly when it came to things related to her.

“When you, cute, fell asleep in the cradle… ”

If you think about it, it was like that from the first day we met.

When Altina and Jin first met, Altina didn’t like him for some reason.

Those days when I didn’t know anything about him, and I just figured out the person he was from rumors floating around.

Knowing better than anyone else that unless you have seen and experienced it with your own eyes, you should never judge others hastily.

I didn’t like that he entered the A class gymnasium, which I thought was my own territory, without a word, so I ignored him partly and took an attitude of ignoring him implicitly.

However, Jin did not say much about Altina’s unreasonable attitude and treatment.

It was just, like a passing word, tossed her with hints of advice.

– Do you know that when you swing your sword, you have a habit of leaning your right foot slightly to the left to balance your center of gravity?

– The basics of swordsmanship come from the lower body, and if the basics are not established, any magical swordsmanship will degenerate into a simple swordsmanship. That’s why you’re stuck right now against the wall.

I thought it was bullshit. I thought it was an altercation made out of a childish mind and a desire to brag in front of a woman that he was a man.

… yes. If she hadn’t risen to the level of a Master immediately after accepting his advice just in case, surely Altina would not have been able to break away from that prejudice until now.

“Sleep well, sleep well, sing me a song-”

At the time of the monster practice, the time when he reached the level of a master and was so full of confidence that he mistakenly thought that the world revolved around him.

And just when his life was threatened by an ogre because of an unexpected injury.

Even then, Jin saved himself.

Despite having a weak body that was incomparable to that of now, her entire body was shattered by the recoil of the technology she used.

To save Altina, he rushed to her without a moment’s hesitation and protected her until the last moment.

Standing face to face with the ogre, his appearance without looking back was truly straight and courageous.

And at that back, Altina unknowingly watched in awe.

To the extent that even now, in Altina’s memory, the appearance of that back is left like a painter.

“Heavenly sky, like butterflies dancing-”

On the day of the dueling practice, the very time when I had challenged Erekaya to a duel with a childish mind, but was restless in fear and was just filled with fear.

– Winning or losing is not that important. What really matters is what you can learn from today’s game. So at this moment there is only one thing you have to worry about.

– Do your best. Regardless of victory or defeat, and so that there will be no regrets left later.

Even at that time, Jin was by Altina’s side.

Instead of Erekaya, he stood by her side, stroked her hair, and whispered words of encouragement only to her.

Just when everyone thought I was going to lose, when no one in the world was thinking of my victory, even when she thought she was going to lose.

Only you, were on my side and spoke of my victory by my side.

Although he didn’t say anything, you don’t know how happy he was.

just, it was good. everything was good Everything, even the way you stroked my hair.

“The wind gently blows and comes down on you softly… .”

That’s why it hurts. The fact that you get hurt like this, lose your mind like this, and suffer like this because of me, it just hurts as if it were mine.

It is not only because you are a person who feels familiar and nostalgic for some reason, and gives me the feeling that something resonates in my heart.

At this moment, with only my own will, I am holding the person you and the man you are in my heart, and I am embracing the man Jin.

That’s why I feel slightly happy at this moment.

You don’t know how much my heart was filled with the fact that you thought of me so much that you wouldn’t take care of your own comfort if it were for me.

In fact, if you knew that I was thinking this in my heart, what would you say to me?

Shall they accuse me of being a sneaky, cunning woman?

Or will you cherish me and stay by my side as if nothing had happened, as it has been until now, and will continue to be the same.

… I don’t know. However, one thing seemed certain.

At this moment, just the fact that I’m spending the same time with you in the same space as you, the fact that my heart becomes so peaceful.

“Heaven, to my dear child… ”

Ah, come to think of it, I always received something from you.

I always couldn’t give you anything back.

I wanted to give back at least a little of what you gave me, so I suppressed my weak self until now and was by your side all along-

In the end, like this, I just received something from you again.

You sacrificed yourself for me like this, and I’m just an insignificant and pitiful woman who can do nothing but stroke your hair by your side.

At best, I can only do the pathetic things of singing lullabies like this so you can fall asleep and lending you a knee.

Can I really think that I deserve to be by your side?

“Please give me a deep grace… .”

Raise your hand. He raised his hand slightly and gently stroked Jin’s head.

First time. To sing a lullaby to another man.

First time. Lending a knee to another man like this.

First time. Trying to stroke another man’s hair.

The first time I stroked the man’s hair, it was unexpectedly soft and pleasant to the touch.

This is the revenge so far.

Even if I told you not to, you always used to stroke my hair as you wished, so I guess this is within the permissible range.

If you think about it this way, getting hurt might not be such a bad thing.

Because at this moment, only I can monopolize the man you are.

“Baby… my baby… ”

Yes. In this place right now, there is only you and me.

no one else exists As usual, there are no other bitches anywhere to get in the way and separate us now.

In this space, only the two of us exist on the bed.

So, it must be clear that some slight deviations will be tolerated.

“… ah.”

I carefully lifted my trembling hand and gently caressed his cheek.

This isn’t the first time I’ve had skinship with him. While sharing swords with him and sparring, there is already an experience of having physically contacted him hundreds of times.

But at this moment, Altina’s heart trembles as if she were a virgin making contact with a man for the first time. My heart beats wildly, and it seems that the whole world is filled with the sound of my own heartbeat.

I want to run away. I feel like I want to get up right now and hide in a place where no one, including him, can see me.

But, you can never do that.

If you run away from here, and if you turn away from your heart and don’t take the last step-

Altina von Rudel Serias will regret her cowardly self until the moment she dies.

“… jin.”

He slightly lifts his head, who is sleeping soundly on his lap. Judging by the peaceful and warm smile on his face, he must have been having a good dream.

That’s why I wish for one foolish wish in my heart.

I hope you smile so peacefully because there is a person called me in the dream you are having.

As much as in your dreams, may I be the one who gives you peace.

“I, you-”

Gathering up courage, she puts her head close to her and gently places her lips on his sleeping lips.

There is no other mind. No excuses, no excuses, no evasions.

With all my heart, with all my heart, I gently whisper to him.

Although it’s just my own grievance right now, next time I’ll make a formal confession to you-

“i like you.”

At this moment, I secretly confess my love to you.