13-3. Dreaming of life (醉生夢愛).

I had a dream when I was young.

Immature school days.

I thought I was less fortunate than anyone else.

An accident caused by a fire, an unfortunate family affair. Lack of someone to protect you. Indelible burn marks and wounds.

“..Why are you afraid of this too?”

If it’s common, it’s common. If you say it’s unlucky, it was an unfortunate life. My father, who raised me alone, passed away yesterday. He couldn’t stand it

“My head hurts..”

I couldn’t see any more hope, so my heart that had been so hard and broken was painful.

The rooftop of a building in a blurred memory. I tried to finish everything that day,

“…”

I was scared and couldn’t jump down. I looked down at the cars passing by and sat down. I was an idiot who couldn’t decide even this properly.

“..It’s raining again.”

It was raining in pursuit. Tears tickled my cheeks, and I couldn’t tell the difference between the tears and the rain. I didn’t even have an umbrella, so my clothes were getting wet.

The thing I hated the most in life was rain back then.

“Let’s go home. Lee Soo-hyun.. What?”

I put my hands on the floor and pulled myself up. I caught something strange in my field of vision. Beautifully decorated game poster.

“Night Heart..?”

At that time, was it just a coincidence? I saw an advertisement on the roof of the building I went to decorate the end of my life.

An RPG game that says

.

A man with blue hair and white eyes glowing strangely, and a woman with long brown hair with deer antlers staring pitifully next to him. Next to her,

It depicted a red-haired wizard paired with a blonde-haired figure that looked like a warrior.

[What determines the devil and the hero! ! I’ll give you the gift of love!]

What does the devil and the hero have to do with love, but now that I think about it, the phrase is very suspicious.

That’s how I met the fate that would change my life forever.

“..Love? Ha, that’s not even funny.”

I was dumbfounded at the time. Because I was the one who was about to give up my life just now. I thought that love could not be given to me.

Others are scared when they see my face with severe burn marks,

“Those are all lies.”

It was just cheap sympathy. That kind of feeling, I’ll give it to the dog. With the thought. I started because the words in the advertisement were so funny and disgusting.

..At that time, we did not even know the nameless saintess. Embarrassingly.

After a failed suicide attempt, I went home alone and bought a CD of the game. An empty room with nothing.

Only an old-fashioned computer body and a monitor were placed there.

Around the time when people still knew about floppy disks.

Wheeining─.

A

Sound resounded and the CD was inserted.

“White hair and wolf ears..? That’s interesting.”

I got to play the first part of the .

[Nice to meet you. Lee Soo-hyun.]

She is a pure white woman who introduced herself as a nameless saint. The first impression of her, like a sheet of music with nothing drawn on it, was the worst.

[Sorry. Knight. It collapsed again.]

“..Why is the performance so bad?”

The saintess, who was designed so that even passing 1-star slimes couldn’t be caught, was a character that was mostly used only in the beginning and thrown away when I looked it up later in the community.

[No matter how weak you are, I will always be your strength by your side.]

“…”

I felt sorry for him. It was a hopeless situation because I couldn’t do anything, but it was uncomfortable to see him trying to help.

You are similar to me. It would be easier if I just gave up.

[Yes? I’m in the way, so stay behind me? I hate it.]

She never left my party. She also said that there are characters who automatically leave the party if their reputation or favorability is low. Why is that

“..Someday I will get tired of trying and give up.”

Even if it’s a game character, there will be limits. How can a person be like that I was curious about how long it was, so I kept playing with it.

[Whoops, you did a good job with the request today. Knight.]

It has become a daily routine to always protect the saintess whenever she goes on a mission.

“Why are you talking like you did..?”

I could understand why the title of incompetence was attached.

“..Well, he still has a good personality.”

However, unexpected aspects gradually appeared as I played the game. On the outside, she seemed blunt, showing no emotion, but

[Hurry up and run this way! Everyone!]

Among my party members, he was the first to run to someone in danger.

[Huhu, today you are the tagger. Now, this saintess is looking for you~!]

[It’s a saintess with wolf ears! Run away~!]

Also, when she visited a village during her travels, she always liked to stop by the nursery school there to take care of the children or play with them.

[Aww.. I’m a scary wolf~! Oh, would you like to join us too?]

Every time I saw that smile, it was like a different person.

[Not very.. Not difficult.. This is what I have to do..]

“…”

In villages that are being persecuted by the demon king, there have been many cases where I have collapsed while healing the wounded for days and nights without receiving any compensation.

Just like spring has come and the snow has melted.

[Good morning. Knight. Thank you for coming today.]

The saintess’ tone, which was hard at first, gradually softened. The distance in her heart grew closer,

[Don’t try to shoulder everything by yourself. Knight. I am there..!]

I’ve come too far to avoid it.

[The knight is quite shy. Whoops..]

More than anything else, the people were warm and friendly. It is an unreasonable attack that cannot be stopped.

While we were going through her story together, she saw my character and said something.

[Can I heal the burn scars?]

My eyes widened at the sudden speech.

[Yes/no]

Ah, I’m not talking about my face. Misunderstood. As she wiped her chest, she pressed No at the options that appeared in front of her eyes.

“This is pretty cool, the game is very detailed.”

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Did you customize it too much? It must have been a problem that he left burn marks on Richt’s face like mine.

[Ah, I said it too lightly. Sorry.]

I stopped her hand from touching my cheek with the mouse.

[..Cheer up. Knight. Those people are weird. Shall I scold you?]

“You can’t do that… You can’t even catch monsters properly.”

In reality, I sighed and rested. Because the nameless saint was weak, my character had to become stronger.

“…”

I couldn’t hire another person because I couldn’t replace the healer position if I wanted to take him with me at the party.

[Honestly, I really didn’t like this town.]

Are you a saint? Aren’t you supposed to say things like that? An explanatory note came out saying that the wolf’s ears and tail were raised in annoyance.

In the previous scenario, the saintess gave a sharp blow to the NPCs whose favorability rating was cut after seeing my character’s face. Away from town,

[How kind and handsome our driver is..! If you don’t have eyes to see…!]

Hey! A saintess who shouts and gets angry. Maybe that’s when I started to like him a little bit. She was the first person to get angry instead of me.

“..It would have been nice if there were people like that in real life.”

It’s already too late. After the heart is shattered like pieces of glass and left empty. I thought like an idiot back then that I couldn’t connect it here.

Even when I ran away and denied it, she was the only one who would come to me.

[Today is February 22nd..! I wish you a happy birthday! Knight! Tada~ It’s the chocolate cake you liked..!]

“So today is my birthday. I forgot because no one was around.”

A carefully packaged item has arrived in your inventory. In the description, it was written that it was purchased at .

“..Why do I cry? It’s definitely a happy day.”

That’s how memories piled up one by one. Gradually, her heart was colored with her color. Pure white dwelled in the heart that had been burnt to death.

[Today, I’m going to buy a doll to donate to the orphanage. Yes? It’s not what I’m buying. Knight..!!]

“hahahaha, you already have another one behind your back.”

She secretly paid for the fox slime doll.

[Sorry.. It’s too cute..]

A figure covering her face with a large doll. She may have felt that, unexpectedly, she was a little cute in that she was a fool.

“It’s been a while since I laughed at myself like this.”

She’s a saint, but she can’t heal properly, and she also loves cute things.

[Please give me one candy. Knight.]

“..I don’t remember anything like that? What?”

If I didn’t give her something sweet, I would pout, and I always thought that she was like a real person watching her cute and ticklish. She fell for her naturally.

[If the world doesn’t believe in you, I’ll be the first to believe in you.]

“You speak as if you know people’s hearts. I made a good game.”

Gradually, white goods began to fill her empty room one by one. As the empty spaces were filled, a meaning came to life.

[..I told you not to spread rumors about reading romance novels..! Knight!! Aagh!! It’s embarrassing..]

“Ha ha ha, this is a game.”

Every time I felt sad, I drank a Coke can, ate chicken, and played games.

She had a tough life that didn’t change even when she got older,

[Ah, the fox slime doll you bought last time is fine!]

Now seeing the opposite soft smile cheered me up.

[Thank you. Knight!]

“I am more grateful. Holy Maiden.”

I found a shelter in my world where the rain never stopped.

[If you’re worried that people will scare you, why don’t you use honorifics?]

She made a peculiar suggestion that one day I wouldn’t be afraid of gross scars if I used honorifics instead of flattering words.

[Because there must be people like me who are not afraid of the knight!]

“Let’s do that.

I followed it. There are so many people with baby faces these days, so it was better than making a mistake. It has become a habit by now.

When did I start liking her?

A story that I told one day in front of the Devil Castle, where the ending of the game Was imminent.

[Does the knight believe in love?]

A pure white saintess showed a worried attitude as she bandaged the arm of my character who was injured by the Four Heavenly Kings. Her wolf ears and tail are down. I’m already better.

“..To be honest, I don’t believe it.”

I showed my emotions while looking at the options with a high degree of freedom.

[Yes..? Are you serious? Knight…?]

Then she tilted her head. The ears above her head are downcast in disbelief. No, don’t be depressed It hurts.

[Why the hell..?]

Her tail also lost its life. Are you disappointed I started making excuses that I couldn’t even hear.

“Isn’t it possible to solve worldly affairs just by liking them?”

[That kind of thing makes me sad. What the hell happened….]

“..No matter how much you love someone, there are times when you can’t even get close to that person. Holy Maiden.”

Because her golden eyes widened and her expression looked like she was about to shed tears, it stabbed a corner of her heart painfully.

[‘Some problems cannot be solved with love’? You’re right… But that’s okay! Pure love is invincible.]

As if she was dissatisfied with something, she interrupted what my character, Licht, was saying. It felt like we were having a real conversation.

“The starting line itself is different for those people. Holy Maiden.”

The extreme of irrationality that no amount of envy can overcome. Before I knew it, I spoke calmly, looking back on my ruined life.

“Before I had burn marks, there were a lot of people around me.

Rather, it was a game, so I said gloomy words, probably because I was sincere.

[That’s the reason I hate love, it’s not the reason I don’t believe it.]

Then the white-haired saint held her black knight’s face with both her hands and opened her mouth. She left no corner of her where, in case, she could escape.

[I’ve been watching all the things you’ve done so far.]

She comes with her forehead at the same eye level as hers. Very reckless Is it because it’s a wolf character?

“..Surprised.”

The illustrations are really close. It is magnified to this extent, so it looks like a real living person. But this also has no voice. What are the producers doing with the money from selling packages?

What if you said that you believe in love? I thought.

[If you don’t believe me, how did you do these things?]

Sentences with questions. With her sad eyes, she asked a question.

“..I just did what I wanted to do?”

Anyway, it seemed to be stuck firmly wrong. There was a nameless saintess who solved her doubts as if questioning them one by one.

[I thought a lot while watching the driver.]

[..At first, I thought he was a dangerous person not to approach. To be honest, isn’t it?]

[To think he was the only black knight wearing dingy armor.]

[So I didn’t speak on the first day, but after the knight collapsed, I felt sorry for him and started talking to him.]

What? So that’s what I said when I fell for the first time?

“No matter how hard you fall, you must get up.” Then….”

I recalled the lines to that shocking remark. Somehow, I thought it was a bug since we didn’t talk for about 3 days after meeting each other.

[When the demon king used the diversionary strategy, he was exhausted while protecting the village defense line by himself.]

[How can you doubt such a good person? I am disqualified as a saint.]

Huh, there was a small laugh, and the corners of her eyes became crescent moons.

[What I want to say is….]

[The knight is a really nicer person than you think. I can be sure. Because she is a saint.]

“Is that so.. Holy Lady..”

[So if you can’t stand on the starting line and sit down.]

[I will lift you up and support you to the finish line together.]

A text came out saying that the scent of her rose was strong at the distance between their faces, which was less than a hand’s span away.

[I swear on this spot that if there is a fate that hinders you, I will resist and fight until the end.]

The golden wolf’s eyes met my brown eyes, and by chance a soft smile appeared on her lips.

[Even if love is the height of irrationality, the memories we shared together will become unforgettable pieces of glass and will be embedded in my heart.]

[Because of that, if you are afraid of being hurt and lost when you love. You can push me away now.]

She lightly kissed her necklace, which was a cross decorated with wolves.

[Because I will make you… No, the knight believe in love.]

I handed it over to my character.

[..You can look forward to it.]

It was a bonus that I hung my arm around her neck to stop her from running away.

[Whoops, love is inherently embarrassing. Knight!]

A saintess who looks at the shiny metal on the neck of the black knight, Licht, and puts on a happy expression, as if the deed of her possessions has been hampered. Her face and neck are already red. Cute.

A confession that is not a confession.

Contrary to her cold appearance, the nameless saintess was honest about her feelings,

It seems that she didn’t like the person she liked denying her love.

If that’s not the case, is it another one?

In , A memory just before being possessed came to mind.

[Why do I like knights?]

Looking at the saintess who has a maximal affinity for me, I wonder if it’s because she protected me when fighting the demon lords? She did and she was never asked last.

[Chi, I can’t believe that someone fell in love just because he saved her life. Aren’t you stupid?]

Then what is it? I kept clicking the mouse. Then she blushed her cheeks with her hesitant movements.

[Yes? Isn’t that enough? Are you so curious..?]

A saintess staring intently upward. I’m curious, so tell me quickly.

[..Everything works.]

A pure white woman chewing her tongue out of shame. I’m not a character like this originally, but I liked the fact that he became so soft only to me.

[Actually, you don’t need a reason to love. Lee Soo-hyun.]

[If I had to add a reason….]

She put her hand on her chin and frowned between her eyebrows in thought. It was cute that her eyes were closed before she knew it.

[For me, a hero who protects everyone is better than a hero who protects one person.]

[Only the knight believed in a half saint like me who couldn’t even heal well.]

[Because you saved it.]

[Huh, actually, I like that you’re cuter than anyone else. Where else would you be a fool to ask why you like people?]

[..Do you understand now? Stupid doggie.]

She shows her bashful smile as her white hair flutters.

“I got hit.”

Looking at the black knight, he’s an idiot, he’s definitely a playful person.

[Let’s go, it’s the Magic Hat Castle.]

Then, when my character got farther away, there was one line that only came out as subtitles.

[You can’t hear it from this distance.]

There was no common direction because it was a supporting role, not a lead role.

[..I really love you. Knight. Forever.]

A simple confession that didn’t even sound out.

It was better than anything else.

Maybe it was then.

..No, it wasn’t because of those big events.

The moment I fell in love with her was….

‘It must have been from the beginning.’

That’s not even a funny idea.

Who is sitting in the middle of love?

Like getting caught in the rain when it rains and not knowing that the sleeves of your clothes are getting wet.

Love is an emotion that rises without even realizing it. I learned through her what she is.

She lived in such a dream,

“…”

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Drunken in a dream, we fell in love.

The reason I gave up my life for her was simple.

Because I liked the nameless saintess a little too much.

“..Hey, boy.”

On the day I close my eyes, someone keeps touching me. Who the hell

“Boy. Wake up.”

I’m dead. Don’t wake me up

“Does it take one hit to get up?”

Oh, wasn’t I dead? It’s too vivid to call it a dream like just now.

“..No way.”

When I opened my eyes, a brown-haired woman was looking at me as I collapsed. A mature woman in her black hanbok and deer antlers bared her sharp teeth.

“How long are you going to sleep? It’s the first time he’s been this carefree in front of his original daughter.”

“The Heavenly Demon…? White magnolia..?”

“Hmm? How do you know who she is?”

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Why is this person here?