1. I was born at the wrong time.

1.

I lived happily ever after.

that is.

Who is this fairy tale for?

Nine warriors and heroes who saved the world.

The leader of the warriors, a knight of brilliance and a saint.

The only son born to them.

Even though I was born amidst countless blessings like this.

Maybe I was born at the wrong time.

Contrary to everyone’s expectations, I am an extremely ordinary human being.

that was my original sin

—-

10th and so on.

Not a high rank.

It’s not even a low rank.

“Kariel-nim is still the same.”

The wind carried the gatekeeper’s chatter.

“To be such an ugly son to such a great father. The father is a dragon while the baby is a lizard? Did you compare it that way?”

“You… Will you shut your mouth?”

“why? What did I say wrong?”

“Still, you are a small family head, are you really crazy? Even if you keep it in your heart, how can you calmly talk about blasphemous things?”

Less than a day has passed, but I don’t know how the news spread to the family.

He sighed and climbed over the wall and entered the back door of the house.

“Useless.”

I wish I could sit in the corner of my room, touching my long-growth hair.

-smart.

“Do, young master? Are you back?”

“… why?”

“If your wife came in, she said to bring her… .”

“okay.”

Open the door right away and run down the hallway.

“Now, wait! Bo, check your outfit!”

“… No thanks?”

She trims her hair, which is long enough to cover her eyes, with her hands.

“Don’t follow me.”

“ah… .”

I could feel her standing in the middle of the hallway as though nailed to it, but I tried to ignore it.

Even if you accompany them, you won’t hear anything good about them, but you’ll enjoy a movie of wealth and honor.

“… … .”

After catching my breath for a while in the vicinity far away from the drawing room, I calmly moved to my destination.

“That’s me.”

Since the door wasn’t closed, instead of knocking, I gave the signal instead of saying it directly.

“Come on in.”

“Yes.”

Upon entering the living room, there was a woman in a white dress.

It was noticeable that the stomach area was swollen.

I naturally lowered my chin and looked at the carpet on the floor.

“… I heard the news.”

“… … .”

“It wasn’t enough effort.”

“… … .”

It was lacking, la.

Now, I don’t get tired of listening to it too much.

yes, that’s normal

… Why do I always feel weird at this time?

My heart feels like it’s going to explode.

It feels like your lungs are constricting.

Discomfort, as if a needle had been forcibly inserted deep into the lower abdomen.

I forcibly resisted biting my lip with my molars.

“I have no face.”

“… Why are you doing something that shouldn’t be?”

“… … .”

“You are definitely a kid who can do it. Where the hell are you distracted?”

“… … .”

“Why don’t you answer? Are you running out of things to say? if not… Don’t you understand?”

I’m short of breath

“… no.”

“You can feel the emotion in your voice. Are you, by any chance, unfair, Kariel?”

“Not at all… It’s not like that.”

“Are you telling lies to this mother?”

and.

“… Why did you let your hair grow that way? I remember that you told me to take care of it at the right time, but is my memory wrong?”

“… no.”

“If so, are you rebelling now?”

“… … .”

“Why, there is no answer there again?”

Going crazy.

cold sweat flows

My mind is confused, and my consciousness is dyed white.

If it’s not a big deal, maybe it’s not a big deal.

… There was never a moment when he felt ashamed of himself.

I don’t know why.

Because at some point, I gave up on thinking.

This is just a time to hold on, to endure.

No reason or anything, just… .

“Are you saying your mother doesn’t sound like a horse?!”

make a fuss

I’m startled, but I try to control my breathing as much as possible so that it doesn’t show on the outside.

with your lips biting hard.

Even the teeth are tightly closed so that they do not grind.

So, I took a deep breath for a while.

“You said you were definitely a blessing from the world. Even for us, you are definitely irreplaceable… .”

But.

No more words follow.

I don’t know why.

I never thought about it.

In the first place, it had nothing to do with me.

She’s just talking about whatever she wants.

“You are the child of Rueld and I, Ermina. All it takes is a little effort, why… Are you not going to?”

“… … .”

“You don’t want to answer?”

A sermon follows.

I have nothing to say.

What you said doesn’t work

No matter what you say, it’s just an excuse.

No, maybe it’s really an excuse.

“… That’s it. Go and rest.”

I lowered my head and didn’t turn my back or look up until I walked out the door in that state.

“Broken… sir.”

“I told you not to come, but why… ha. done.”

I was irritated, but even if I said something quietly here, everything would be picked up by her hearing.

Without saying a word, I walked down the hallway and returned to my room.

“… … .”

You can’t even turn on your instrument here.

In order to relieve this stuffiness, I had the intention of going out at night without a doubt.

-smart

“… why?”

“Bocchan, today… Rueld-nim said he was going home… .”

“Oh shit… .”

I tried hard to suppress the swearing.

“Time rots.”

However, even this was limited to a line that was held in the mouth.

It must be because the day of giving birth is not far away.

Before that, my mother used to shoot all over the place for missions and charity work.

“ha.”

Geek.

From the inside of my temple, I heard something, an incomprehensible metal grinding sound.

no.

Maybe it’s coming from somewhere in my chest.

—-

“What? 10th? You mean 10th place in the whole school? That’s great. Because I couldn’t do that much.”

“Luel.”

“Oh, is that true?”

With a cheerful voice flowing through one ear, he devoted himself to eating.

neither fast nor slow.

You have to deal with all of this before you can leave this place.

On the rectangular table, there were contents that would normally make one’s mouth water, but I focused only on what was in front of me.

“Still, when something doesn’t work out or when it’s difficult? I had a lot of times like that too. But that, everyone is like that. So don’t beat yourself up or be disappointed.”

“Luel. Kariel is my son and yours.”

“Ah, who wouldn’t know that.”

“Please don’t forget that you have high expectations for that child, just as people around you expect from you and me. Her Majesty and Melin’s children, as well as Bariel’s children, live up to everyone’s expectations.”

“That, that’s it… .”

“Remember. That now, at Kariel’s age, you defeated the Demon Army Commander.”

“Okay.”

A pause in speech means that the target of the conversation has changed.

“Kariel. Are you listening correctly?”

“… Yes.”

“knife.”

A man’s voice intervened.

“When you talk, you have to look at the other person. I’m fine, but isn’t your mother talking?”

“… … .”

He let out a sigh and turned his head slightly.

“The eyes are said to be the windows to the heart. knife.”

“… So?”

“Right now, in your eyes, nothing is properly contained, let alone me or your mother.”

“… … .”

So what?

“There is no need to give up and be so frustrated. Did I tell you who? Academy grades are not very important.”

“I know.”

“I know, but why are you looking at me like that? Didn’t you like losing to your friends that much?”

“… … .”

You are like that every time.

without knowing anything

“It’s all because your heart is weak. If you put more effort into training your mind and body, then you will surely become like this father, so never give up. My dad also had a lot of times when his heart was weak and it was difficult, but it all depends on how he made up his mind. look at this father Isn’t that why you saved the world?”

I am not sitting here listening to a sermon now.

“… I really enjoyed the meal.”

I put down the tableware, wiped my lips with a napkin, and got up from my seat.

“Kariel! My father says, what kind of burlesque hair… ?!”

“Ahh! honey! it’s okay! It’s a time to be sensitive, so we need to understand.”

What do you understand?

The urge to pour out a few words out of embarrassment was strong, but he pretended not to hear and left.

nothing will change anyway

It kills time in moderation, rots, and then quietly disappears.

If existence itself is a sin, then it must disappear.

The fear is only momentary.

In the end, you will accept it as the best choice.

“… … .”

Anyway, my younger brother will be born again, but he will take care of filling the empty spot.

don’t expect

don’t trust

don’t dream

I don’t want to be more unhappy than this.

“In the past.”

In the past, my memory is fuzzy, but I don’t think the world was this blurry when I was very young.

Since when did the world become so bleak that you can’t even see the front?

Aren’t you a genius?

lack of talent?

Is it because of lack of effort?

lack of enthusiasm?

since when

Really, I didn’t want to do anything.

if you just want something

… leave me alone

Because I feel like I’m going to die of suffocation.

Let me breathe, please… .