45 – one chance (7)

A cheer that is greater than when a player scores a goal as he enters the home field shakes the stadium.

My ears go blank and I can’t hear anything.

….No, I just couldn’t believe the unreal situation that happened in front of my eyes, so everything was blank.

Things other than Jeong-gyeom and Solas disappear from her sight.

Solas was still kissing him on the cheek.

Song Soo-yeon just blinked her eyes without saying a word.

However, no matter how many times I blinked, the reality in front of my eyes did not change.

Why is another woman kissing his cheek?

……I was thinking of nodding my head.

I had no intention of refusing.

I was thinking of giving permission to kiss her on the cheek.

I hid my face and hesitated, but… not because I hated it, but because I was so excited.

The first feeling of love was so powerful that it was more than enough to harden her.

It was my first time, so I just needed time to prepare my mind.

It wasn’t that I didn’t like it.

To be honest, I was so happy just imagining it.

If you put aside how you would react and how your expression would change, it was a kiss you really wanted to receive.

I was filled with the feeling of anticipation, the tension in my hands, and the happiness that made my head burn just by imagining it.

It was to the point where I wondered if my life, which was like a gutter, could turn this far.

I didn’t like it, never.

But now that happiness was not hers.

‘Waaa!!’

‘Solas!!’

‘Crazy, fuck!!’

Solas showed no signs of finishing.

And the more it did, the louder the crowd got.

Her arm got stronger and she pulled Jeong-gyeom closer to me.

Jeong-gyeom’s cheeks were flattened by that force. The two faces adhere strongly.

Jung-gyeom couldn’t come to his senses because of his bewildered gestures.

He was the one who only smiled benevolently when his image appeared on the screen out of nowhere, but when Solas kissed him on the cheek, he wandered around in a hurry.

Song Soo-yeon wanted to scream to stop. But no sound came out as if his throat had been blocked.

I couldn’t even breathe. No matter how much I tried, all I could do was keep my mouth shut.

The cheerleader shouts.

“Ahh! Solas!! How long are you doing!! You want to set a record!”

“ha…!”

Only then does Solas remove her mouth from Jung-gyeom’s cheek.

And still sitting on his thigh, Solas turned to the camera.

With one arm still wrapped around Jeong-gyeom’s neck, she greeted the camera with a big eye smile as she threw her free hand high into the sky.

As if asking for support.

I didn’t know that the cheers of the audience would diminish at the new sensation.

However, Solas’ shy laugh burst through the noise.

She looks back at Jeong-gyeom affectionately.

Fully attached situation.

As if there were only two of them in this world, Solas whispered in a very low voice.

Fortunately, it was at a level that even Song Soo-yeon could hear.

“Brother, I’m sorry for the suddenness.”

“….uh..”

Embarrassed, Jung-gyeom couldn’t even answer directly.

Seeing that, Song Soo-yeon burst into flames. Now, isn’t it the moment to be furious and angry?

After being molested, are you thinking of moving on like this?

However, Solas seemed unable to afford to look at Song Soo-yeon. As such, he didn’t care about Song Soo-yeon’s feelings.

“But we will talk later. I’m just going to tell you that you shouldn’t pretend to know me. It’s for my brother.”

Solas’ attack that seemed like a long time is over.

She floated again and rose into the air.

Still, she greets everyone with a bright smile and gestures, and disappears somewhere again.

The camera only focused on Jung-gyeom’s facial expression.

His still dazed expression is transmitted through the electronic display board.

The cheerleader said as if making fun of Jeong-gyeom.

“Calm down, man! I’m still envious… Really. Oh, and sorry for misunderstanding! It seems that you have nothing to do with the person next to you. If you see the woman standing still until the end.”

“…!”

Unable to come to her senses, Song Soo-yeon realizes that she has not responded in any way.

She blinked and slowly lowered her head.

The cold heart did not know how to warm up.

*****

Song Soo-yeon did not even know how the rest of the game was going.

I just blankly stared at the display board.

Two emotions coexisted.

One was anger.

This anger, which shows no signs of cooling down, has not come out on the outside, but has condensed and settled deep in his heart.

Instead of not showing up, she lost her smile. Her hardened face did not change until the game was over.

He was slowly creating only curse words to spit out at Solas. I only thought about how to hurt her the most.

trashy year. year like a fox. The bitch who only wags her tail at men.

Song Soo-yeon was repeating the words she had heard until the scabs sat down on her ears one day.

Another emotion was regret.

No, more precisely, it was a soggy lingering feeling.

It feels like a gift has been taken away.

His kisses… no. It was a moment where even a kiss could have been possible if the decision had been made quickly.

The thrill and excitement I felt then would never come back.

They imagined hundreds of times that the electric signboard would turn on again to illuminate them, but that never happened.

The chance to kiss him passed.

“…..under.”

And when that fact settled in her heart, she burst out laughing at the absurdity.

Song Soo-yeon rolled her eyes and looked at Jeong-gyeom coldly.

He, like himself, was watching the game in a daze.

It seemed that he couldn’t get out of the shock from earlier.

Annoyance creeps up.

That Solas still lingers in his mind.

“… Mister, aren’t you angry?”

Finally, impatient, she asked.

“……yes?”

“Aren’t you angry?”

He erases his dazed expression and smiles as usual.

“what?”

But even with his smile, Song Soo-yeon’s emotions accelerate.

It really annoys me because I don’t know what to ask.

“Are you Hogu? Aren’t you angry even after being molested…!”

Even swear words that have not been spoken for a while are brought up again.

I couldn’t stand it otherwise.

It was the first time I learned the feeling of jealousy.

It was as if he knew why the other women were jealous and bullied him.

I’m so angry, I can’t stand it.

“What is there to be angry about? I know what Solas was thinking.”

But Jeong-gyeom was relaxed. It really didn’t look like anything.

Song Soo-yeon is about to scream, but one day, the words she uttered come to mind for a moment.

‘…If there is a boy you like, you can confess. I don’t know why you’re jealous of it belatedly. Is it my fault that the boys confessed to me?’

Then, her own voice again blocks Song Soo-yeon’s mouth.

“…..under.”

I couldn’t do anything but relieve my frustration. Chew your lips gently.

She crossed her arms and waited for this damn baseball game to end.

Song Soo-yeon looked down at her hand.

….Still, I have the ability to bloom, and it relieves my stuffy heart a little.

****

On the subway on the way home, Song Soo-yeon could not respond to Jeong-gyeom’s words.

“By the way, my throat hurts from cheering me on. Soo-yeon, are you okay?”

“……”

Seeing her not answering, Jeong-gyeom lowers his upper body.

I looked at her face from the side and asked carefully.

“Suyeon-ah…? I feel tired?”

“……”

However, despite his efforts, Song Soo-yeon did not open her mouth.

It just seemed like it would start off with anger.

The kinder he is, the more so. It seemed to remind her of what she had missed.

So keeping my mouth shut like this was an effort.

The emotions Jeong-gyeom taught her were all unconventional and stimulating.

And knowing that she couldn’t control her emotions yet, she chose to be silent so as not to make a mistake.

I didn’t want to make any more mistakes. I didn’t want to be hated anymore. Even though she was so angry, she had to endure it.

“…..ha.”

Jeonggyeom lets out a sigh.

At that sound, Song Soo-yeon looked at him coldly.

I love him, but it was impossible to express warmly at the moment.

“…is it because of work?”

“yes…?”

At his words, Song Soo-yeon finally opened her mouth.

“…I’m sorry…I got caught up in the situation too.”

“I’m sorry…?”

She calmly listens to Jeong-gyeom.

I didn’t know that Jeong-gyeom would apologize.

In fact, he did nothing wrong.

It was all because of that trashy hero, no, that bitch Solas.

……Nevertheless.

He didn’t do anything wrong, but somehow he felt better if he said he was sorry for not kissing her earlier.

If he hadn’t been swept away by the situation and hadn’t pushed Solas away, it seemed that his anger would have subsided.

Jeonggyeom said.

“…If I knew you, I shouldn’t have asked if I could kiss you on the cheek.”

“……………yes?”

A bewildered sound escapes her lips. doubt one’s ears

“Still, I was able to move on naturally because of Bom. I didn’t even kiss… Can’t I just take a look?”

He didn’t apologize for not being able to push Solas away. Rather, he defends her.

“…………”

Song Soo-yeon did not respond again. I wasn’t holding back my anger. I really couldn’t find anything to say.

Jeong-gyeom raises his voice and speaks seriously.

“….Sorry. I guess it was because it was so… comfortable. I won’t ask you to do that again…”

At those words, all the anger that had been clogged up cooled down.

“under….”

I didn’t even have the strength to get angry anymore.

….. Instead, his lips started to tremble.

She bowed her head.

An empty sadness seeks her.

It just felt like tears were flowing.