25 – My Hero (1)

The place where Song Soo-yeon ran away was eventually Jung-gyeom’s studio.

I didn’t even think about going anywhere else.

I had to be in a place where Jung-gyeom could find him. had to wait here.

She was sitting on the bedside, hugging her knees, without turning on the light.

I didn’t mean to look pitiful, but I had no desire to change the status quo.

If Jeong-gyeom comes in like this, he’ll see himself in a good mood. Then you will comfort yourself more.

“……”

She checked the time.

It was already past 3 in the morning.

It was snowing outside, and the air was bitter.

……Jeong-gyeom hasn’t come yet.

Song Soo-yeon tapped the floor with her fingernails.

“……”

She knew it was a race against time, but she was nervous. I was afraid that it might really end like this.

If he gets tired of himself and eventually lets go. If you’re really going to be a stranger now.

……… Just thinking about it made Song Soo-yeon’s heart twist. I didn’t know why it was doing this.

Maybe it’s because I’m the only one on my side.

“….haha…”

She grabbed her hair.

Pushes out nervousness. I knew he would come back.

because he loves himself

It was always she who said harsh things, and it was she who got angry. It was he who always lost, and he was always the one who suffered.

It couldn’t have changed this time either.

It’s four o’clock in the morning.

Jeong-gyeom still hasn’t come. The graduation ceremony will be held in just a few hours.

It was the moment she had been waiting for so long, but Song Soo-yeon did not pay any attention to the graduation ceremony.

Sitting in the same position made my back hurt and my legs numb. It was so cold that my whole body shivered.

However, this innocence did not go unresolved.

Song Soo-yeon had never tried to appear pitiful to others… but now, for some reason, she couldn’t give up.

When he opened the door, he didn’t want to be seen wrapped in a warm blanket.

She could really give it all back.

It would have been nice to change accommodation. It was fine even if I didn’t get any money.

Just in the store…and I didn’t want to get away from him.

5 am.

Song Soo-yeon turned on her cell phone in the unbearable nervousness and suspicion that had begun to bloom.

I thought about whether I should text Jung-gyeom hundreds of times.

She suppressed her heart again and opened the gallery.

I carefully examine the hundreds of Jung-gyeom’s photos. The photos that I would have looked at with a smile if it was the same as usual are now vague.

She looked at the most recent picture she had taken.

Unlike other photos, it was a special photo.

It was a picture of him and himself laughing together.

Song Soo-yeon could not take her eyes off the picture.

*****

It was morning.

I thought about it all night.

Was I impatient?

Aside from the fact that she had no intention of leaving the store, I did not expect her to shed tears like that.

If you think about the conversation in the meantime, it didn’t seem like he was crying because he didn’t like being separated from me.

Perhaps it was because he was afraid to leave the store and go out into society.

All the other places were bad for her.

“…..ha.”

But apart from counting her heart, my heart throbbed too.

that you won’t see me again

Is there really anything colder than that?

I thought I had built up memories and friendships during that time, but was it simple enough for her to throw it away like that?

He repeats many times that he will not want anything in return, but when he thinks about it, he wants something in return.

I also want to be someone important to someone. You don’t even have to love me. Just liking it is enough.

But it was still difficult.

His affection for me was still light enough to be easily thrown away.

I do not know.

How do you feel about Song Soo-yeon?

Maybe he thinks I’m fine. Because it seemed to be gradually approaching me.

But this is only when you think positively.

The usual way of speaking and those kind of heartless threats told me a different story.

It didn’t seem like he really liked me.

“……Whoa…”

I sighed.

It’s confusing because everything I’ve worked hard for the past few months seems to be going in vain.

Of course, in terms of time, it’s literally only a few months…but when you think that you haven’t progressed a single step compared to before, you feel despair.

Was it not in this direction? Am I making the wrong choice again?

I’m doing my best, but this is not it.

“…………”

At times like this, I miss one person. What will she say when she sees me? Should they wonder what they are doing, or should they praise them for their hard work.

Solas. I’m curious about your opinion.

…..Once we came to a conclusion.

I have to go to Song Soo-yeon. Not for her, but for me too.

It may not be her, but I’ve always considered her a friend.

….I didn’t want to lose my first friend like this. I didn’t like this parting. I don’t want to get away with something so trivial.

If she’s not ready yet, just give her more time.

Let’s take care of it a little more.

Maybe my efforts weren’t enough.

Besides, it shouldn’t be like this today.

Graduation is a once in a lifetime event. I didn’t want to instill bad memories.

*****

Song Soo-yeon eventually stayed up all night with her eyes open. Jeong-gyeom did not come.

She was already looking at the next step.

Even if he didn’t come to the studio, he would definitely come to the graduation ceremony.

She hasn’t given up yet. It can’t end like this.

I wished he was more uptight than he was, no less.

Maybe he was worried, or maybe he didn’t come to see me at dawn out of concern for himself while he was resting in his room.

You don’t have to be so afraid. he will come

I turn off the TV that was running to erase the fear of being left alone again.

[Solas was dispatched to the terror that occurred this morning-]

“…….”

She took a deep breath and stood up.

Rubbing my sore eyes, I set off for school.

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Playground bathed in sunlight.

The softly falling snow reflects the light and sparkles.

The students were sitting on chairs in the playground, wearing thick padding, listening to the principal’s lecture.

But Song Soo-yeon wasn’t paying attention to him at all.

Her eyes were on the parents.

I was secretly looking for Jeonggyeom. But no matter how much I looked, I couldn’t see him.

Classmates who found their parents around them waved their hands slightly, but Song Soo-yeon never had that experience.

‘……’

Her heart beats and beats. Anxiety was gradually beginning to take shape.

Is it really over like this? won’t it come like this?

My hands started sweating. He bit his lips softly.

Still, she did not take her eyes off her parents. He will be where you cannot find him.

‘Ah, it’s a pity that I didn’t graduate without seeing Solas-nim. Why did the villain appear today…’

‘Still, I’m graduating now. Did you say you got into school?’

‘Wow… How is Song Soo-yeon so pretty even at this moment?’

There was chatter around her, but she didn’t care. She keeps holding her phone.

Really… did you really not come?

“Come on, everyone. Congratulations on your graduation. I hope each flower will bloom with its own personality.”

The principal’s lecture is over.

When everyone stood up and greeted, thunderous applause broke out.

After that, they got up from their seats and greeted their parents who were approaching.

In an instant, the playground became noisy.

And among them, only Song Soo-yeon, who was still confused, was standing alone in Odokani.

“……”

A piercing loneliness that she had never experienced before found her.

I realized once again how alone I was.

I didn’t really know loneliness when he wasn’t there. I had never been by someone’s side, so I had never really felt that feeling. Even so, it was a level that could be forgotten with other thoughts.

But not now.

After feeling the warmth, when he disappeared, the drop was so extreme.

Song Soo-yeon looked around.

Smiles and laughter are in full bloom. I felt like I was alone.

It felt as if the strings holding her down had been severed.

I couldn’t stand it any longer.

I had to go see him.

Song Soo-yeon quickly turned around and tried to get out of here.

“…Sooyeon.”

Until one voice is heard.

Song Soo-yeon looked straight back in the direction from which the sound had come.

Jeonggyeom was standing there.

It was a neat outfit. He also had a large bouquet of flowers in his hand. Tiredness was visible on his face.

I knew it the moment I saw it. He also had a lot of worries.

And that fact made Song Soo-yeon very relieved. It wasn’t just that I was worried.

He walks slowly and smiles and delivers flowers.

Only then does she become normal like everyone else. He was not a loner left alone.

“…Congratulations on graduating.”

It was subtly different from the laughter I usually see. It wasn’t the pure smile she liked, with a little bit of yesterday’s emotion on it.

She had to hold back the tears.

I was crying. The feeling of being fortunate passed in an instant, and a sense of sadness exploded right after.

It’s always like this when it comes to him.

I don’t feel any emotions properly for others. But for him, it’s too childish. I can’t afford to relax at all.

I get happy over the little things, and I get upset over the little things.

It was like that even now. Emotions explode as if they went into an amplifier.

Why did you say you came now? Couldn’t it have come a little sooner?

I’ve been waiting for him all night, so why didn’t he come? Why did you do that when you love yourself?

Song Soo-yeon did not respond and glared at him. I felt like I would shed tears if I moved.

“…Please accept the flowers. haha.”

“……..”

“……I’m sorry. I must have been too hasty.”

Song Soo-yeon turned away from him. It was to hide the expression that looked like it would be wrinkled with tears.

I also tried to express that I was disappointed with him.

It couldn’t have gone that easily. It collapsed at once, so I couldn’t surrender like that.

That’s… it’s because it’s obvious that he’s been waiting too.

okay. That was not it.

I definitely had to do it this time. I had to teach him a lesson so that he would never do something like this again.

I had to make sure I didn’t push myself twice. If you took it too easy, you might do something like this again next time.

“…get off, fuck.”

She said.