Episode 44

“Yep!”

Poof!

I immediately stretched out my arm and tried to snatch the note, but Euril quickly stepped back and struggled.

I did it two more times then stopped. I should have known from the time I put the gloves back on.

I narrowed my eyes.

“I said I’d give it to you.”

“I’m thinking about it.”

“Is there anything you want?”

“no.”

“… … .”

Let me think for a moment.

I carried Euril who fell down on the playground for the first time, got injured instead during a night raid, hid me in my room, and gave me a Warp Stone that was like an extra life.

In contrast, all I received was a scarf. Even if Auril puts aside the Warp Stone, which he doesn’t know how to use, it’s objectively unreasonable.

“You just don’t want to give it, do you?”

“Nope. take it. I don’t need it.”

“I’ll give it to you sooner… … .”

“Hi-Hi.”

Surprisingly, Euril threw the note toward me without hesitation. There is no strength in the throwing hand or the foolish laughter.

Even if this is not a dragon heart, no one needs or wants a treasure with two leading zeros.

At this point, I can’t help but notice.

“sorry. 000 is not.”

[009]

As soon as I opened the note, my head went cold.

009 is 100 stores. It is the most needed treasure for Euril, not for anyone else. Because he is the student with the most demerit points in Summer Turf.

At this point, it’s already -80 points, and if you don’t manage this, there will be fewer and fewer events where you can meet Auril.

“Why don’t you need this?”

Euril turned around and leaned against the edge of the roof. It was a dangerous look to pretend to be.

Unlike the garden, the roof railing is low. Auril’s height is a railing that only reaches his waist.

I continued to speak calmly and moved on.

“I probably won’t use it.”

“why.”

“I don’t know. What do I need right now?”

Dangerous.

This script comes when Auril is pushed to the limit.

Even if I didn’t do anything wrong, Euril kept what Frid said in her heart.

‘At least. There should have been guilt. If you’re going to live on this land, you should have left alone, even to a distant island.’

Even if everyone who sees Auril thinks the same, no one can say that directly.

because i’m scared

It is a terrifying curse that freezes the entire body even if the hand touches it. Everyone knows that life is precious.

However, Freed is the main character at level 8 will. That worked rather badly.

‘You did nothing until the lives of your people were ruined because of that damn curse. Is it the king’s incompetence or yours?’

A straightforward character who has no fear and is constantly moving forward towards what he believes is right.

If you put it well, he’s upright, and if you put it badly, he’s a guy with no tact. There can be no such thing as filtering.

Furthermore, it did not happen that he undermined his self-esteem by comparing himself with the main character. If we can figure out the cause, that’s pretty much it.

Anyway, I can’t relax even for a moment.

“I heard you are so smart.”

Euril, who had been silent for a moment, spoke to me at once.

“It’s like that.”

“Can I teach you?”

“What?”

“What do I want?”

While continuing the short question and answer, I secretly narrowed the distance.

“Then come over here for a moment.”

“this way… … ?”

with a bang!

I quickly pulled Auril’s scarf that was hanging over the railing.

“Huh!”

“Because I’m afraid I’m going to die.”

Euril, who fell on her buttock with a short scream, hurriedly backed away. Confused eyes followed my fingertips.

“What, what are you doing!”

“You’ll have to worry about yourself.”

It’s a surprise since I pulled it myself.

Everyone knows that you shouldn’t touch Euril with your bare hands. ’cause it’ll freeze

“Isn’t it frozen?”

“as you see.”

I held out my hand wrapped around the red scarf. When I came up earlier, I stopped by the room for a while.

Since the purpose was to meet Euril in the first place, it would be cold if I thought I would be there for about 30 minutes, so I brought a scarf.

“You were surprised!”

“Well, who is standing there? It’s dangerous.”

I sneaked my tingling hand back. It’s probably a light frostbite.

Then he sat down on a seat about three spans away from Auril. When Euril slowly opened the distance, he continued to pursue.

Eventually, Euril, cornered, opened her mouth. It’s surrounded by walls, so it seems a little safer now.

“That, a little… … Sit away.”

“I don’t like it.”

“It must be cold.”

“It’s summer, but it’s cool and nice.”

Of course, it is very cold even with a scarf wrapped around it.

It was longer than Auril’s used, so it covered her shoulders a little. Wouldn’t it be enough to last for about 30 minutes?

After that, every time you open your mouth, your breath comes out. Seeing that, Euril let out a small sigh and said.

“Among the people who came up earlier, there was a man from Mashu.”

What if?

There is no luck. There aren’t that many people from Mashu in Summer Turge.

“I heard you went back?”

“yes. Our eyes met for a moment.”

Burying her face between her knees, Euril seemed to recall what had happened a while ago.

The student’s complexion, which brightened when he saw the note lying in the middle of the roof, soon became distorted the moment he raised his head.

I watched the process of narrowing my eyebrows, turning my eyes fierce, biting my molars, and shaking my fists.

Soon he turned around.

“Leave it as it is… … .”

Euril repeated as if possessed.

Leaving those words behind, the student went down the stairs as if running away. It was a bonus that he threw away the note saying he was lucky.

I knew.

what everyone thinks of you

Still, I rarely saw or heard it. Because I always avoided other people.

“I don’t know what I want, but I’m sure other people have what they want from me.”

It was too cold.

It felt different when it touched my skin.

Even though he had always lived in the cold, it was raw hatred that seemed to cut his flesh to the point where it was unfamiliar.

“just. I guess you can do that… … .”

“What will happen?”

“Hi-Hi. So I was up here earlier.”

Euril said, leaning her head against the railing. It felt like my heart was sinking. Did you climb on top of this?

The Tower of Truth is a 15-story building. There is no safety net. If you make a mistake and your feet slip, that’s it.

No country had even envisioned such a development.

“But I saw you coming in. In case you want to come up to the roof, I came down and waited for you.”

“What if I didn’t come?”

“I know.”

how would it be I couldn’t even get angry at the muttering.

“It’s because of you.”

“Why me?”

Then suddenly he points his finger at me. why me? Even if it’s because of me.

Euril said while fiddling with the warpstone in her palm.

“I begged for the life of my mother, who passed away 17 years ago.”

“That is nonsense.”

“I begged to bring back the Abamama of the wise days.”

“That is difficult too.”

“just in case. and.”

You said you’d only grant me a very small wish. Either that or not, Euril muttered in a low voice.

“What if there are no small wishes among the wishes I wished for?”

“… … .”

After that, only the unanswerable wind continued.

“Eight years ago, at least, I wish I could go back to the time before I enrolled in Summer Turge.”

“I woke up one day and wished the curse had been lifted.”

“I want people who suffer because of me to find happiness.”

“I hope you don’t hate me.”

“If so.”

“why.”

“nothing.”

With her hands clenched tightly, a voice that seemed like a thin thread that would break at any moment pierced her ears.

“Nothing… … ?”

I reflexively lowered my gaze. I didn’t have the confidence to make eye contact. Fortunately, Euril did not raise her head.

It’s been such a long time.

One minute feels like an hour, so I don’t know exactly how long it’s been since I think it’s a place to be punished.

“sorry.”

It was Auril who broke the silence first. Coincidentally, even that was what I had to say first.

“You just talked about me again.”

“it’s okay. Because that’s what I came for.”

“You have that.”

“A scarf?”

“yes.”

Euril raised her head and pointed at the scarf wrapped around my neck.

“My mom said she knit it by hand before I was born.”

“No, what if you give me something precious like that? It is a keepsake.”

“done. I have it.”

Euril hurriedly untied the scarf and waved at me as I tried to return it.

“I’m going to get cold a lot, so they made it big so that I can use it for a long time even when I grow taller later.”

“… … okay.”

“Still, it’s too big. You have to wind it three times.”

At least when he said that, his expression brightened a little. There was a hint of nostalgia in the hand that touched the end of the scarf.

I had only listened so far, so now it was my turn to find out what to say.

“You tied your shoelaces before.”

“Hick.”

“No, I am not going to do it now. Do you still believe in that?”

“No… … ?”

Startled, Euril pulled her knees. I believed in it. Be naive too.

“I’m just saying it now, but it actually has a different meaning.”

“Does that mean anything?”

“training school… … Well, there are special soldiers in our estate who undergo very rigorous training.”

“Are you talking about the special rental unit?”

“It’s similar.”

I didn’t expect it to turn out like this, but somehow it worked. Let’s add a little bit of color.

“It is a very harsh training. For two years, I was completely cut off from the outside world, I couldn’t go outside, I couldn’t contact you, I ate bad food, I rolled my body without a break, and more than 20 people live together in a small, dusty room. It’s just about the size of our living room.”

“So far… … ?”

“Is that all? They are constantly monitored by their superiors, and if they show even the slightest laxity, corporal punishment follows immediately. Like making them hit their heads on the floor for 10 minutes, or making them run around the playground carrying a load about their own weight. There is even something called joint responsibility, so even my colleagues look at me.”

“Uh, can you all stand that?”

“no. There are people who can’t do it unconditionally. But you said you couldn’t go. Because you force it. Then you see.”

Euril swallowed.

“There are soldiers who make extreme choices.”

“… … I guess.”

“To prevent that, no sharp objects are provided. Of course, no knife, and the fork is blunt, so you can’t cut pudding properly, right? Then the means left are quite limited.”

I said, wrapping a piece of thread at the end of my scarf around the knuckle of my index finger.

It seemed that Euril had noticed what it meant. Her fine silver hair trembled.

“So all the shoes that are issued there are tied in knots.”

“Wouldn’t it be enough to solve it?”

“long time. It takes a very long time.”

A total of 10 knots, 5 each on the left and right. It takes a lot of time just to unravel it all.

“Because decisions like that are usually emotional. If you give yourself more time to think, you end up giving up.”

“… … .”

“It is natural to want to live. In fact, there were a lot of soldiers like that.”

Quietly lowering her gaze, Euril remained silent for a while. I also had to pick and choose what to say.

“Isn’t it difficult?”

“yes.”

Euril answered the sudden question right away. As if he had been waiting for someone to ask.

“It will continue to be difficult.”

“know.”

“I’m not going to understand Auril, and nothing I can say will comfort you very much.”

“I know.”

irresponsibly.

I do not know.

I can’t even imagine how painful it must have been for the man who made Auril like that.

Selfishly for such a subject.

There is no other way to figure out my way to live.

“done. I want to stop talking about this now.”

Euril finally raised her head. It seemed more comfortable.

“Have you calmed down?”

“Thanks to.”

“But what else… … I can’t go down. For now.”

I said with a smile.

Students would be running around, so Auril had to stay out of sight. I have no choice but to remain on this precarious rooftop.

“You go looking for treasure.”

“No, I heard that, but how can you leave Auril alone? Treasure is hard to guess anyway.”

“… … how.”

Whoa, Euril sighed and continued. You won’t understand why I’m behaving like this.

“I’m telling you in advance, nothing comes back to you even if you do this.”

“okay?”

“It won’t do anything good for you or your family if you hang out with someone like me.”

“Um, but it won’t make much of a difference if you shave it down a bit. You seem to be taking our family too lightly.”

“That’s it… … . anyway! It won’t help.”

“Then shall we pretend not to know from now on?”

“… … .”

No answer.

No, actually, he just kept his mouth shut, and his fingers were wiggling so hard that it was so easy to understand that he was restless.

I smiled and asked again.

“Don’t you like that?”

“I don’t know.”

“Just like it was today.”

unfortunately.

This guy is no longer able to comfortably accept even trivial favors. You’d think you’d leave sooner or later, just like you’ve always done.

Of course, I don’t have the option of leaving Auril alone, but it’s hard to give that certainty yet.

Until one day you can tell me to help yourself.

“If it’s hard, I’ll listen to your complaint. If there’s someone to curse at, I’ll even curse at you. If you get angry with someone else, you beat me to the bone.”

“Hee hee, don’t do that.”

“okay? Anyway, just about that… … .”

what i can do

“At least a knot, I will do it for you.”

That’s all.