129 – Lord of the West. (2)

master of the west. (2)

He is the sky of countless midfield warriors and one of the three zones called the absolute.

Master of the West, Pazon Biju.

The reason why he was called Paejon (敗尊) is no different.

This is because he is a person who has experienced hundreds of defeats like a nickname.

Many say.

Pazon is lucky.

He himself admitted it.

He says he’s lucky.

Not only did he survive so many defeats, but his arms and legs were intact.

Later, when he was called Pae-jon (覇尊: Best Pae) based on his achievements.

Pae-jon wanted to be called Pae-jon (敗尊: loser).

Because he is here after countless defeats.

It means that you will not lose that mindset.

In the end, his nickname changed according to his wish, but he was strong enough to rise to the top of the triad.

He was a strong man with a track record of single-handedly annihilating a large group of Sapa, excluding the swordsman.

The story of erasing an entire mountain from the map during the fight with Cheonjon was a very famous story.

‘… But why?’

The reason I’m surprised is that Pazon wrote me a letter of recommendation.

Like the swordsman, he disappeared for several years and his whereabouts are unknown.

In fact, even in his previous life, he is a person who would not have appeared if it had not been for the appearance of the Heavenly Demon.

Why is Elder Lee holding a letter of recommendation from such a person?

“Elder, where did you get that from?”

“What and where do you get it, I got it myself.”

“Pazone… to you?”

“yes.”

I couldn’t help but be surprised about this incident.

I don’t know why Geomson disappeared for some reason in the past.

I knew why Pazon should have done that.

It was the reason I had no choice but to, and I thought I would absolutely reduce contact with others from now on.

“How the hell do you know each other?”

“Isn’t it strange that we get to know each other?”

It’s not strange, because there was a time when Elder Lee worked under the pseudonym Yeom Ah Kwon.

“no… No matter what, that defeat… .”

I tried to speak, but I kept my mouth shut. It’s strange that I even know this.

We were silent for a moment and then we talked.

“How are you telling me to write this?”

“How to write a letter of recommendation, isn’t it to go and show it?”

“… A letter of recommendation from Pazon.”

A blood relative of the Gu family, who is nothing else and is not known at first, to the Yongbong branch with a recommendation letter from a half-missing Pajon?

Five… . Oh my gosh.

“What are you thinking about? I thought I was going to have an accident, so I gave you something very nice.”

“Yes… . You gave me something very nice in that way.”

It will attract the attention of many. I’ll have to think about how to use this.

“thank you.”

In any case, it was something I thought of, so I was just grateful. I put the letter of recommendation into my pocket first.

I thought as I stroked the hair of Wi Seol-ah standing next to me.

as to how to use this.

******************

The time when the sun had just risen.

Namgoongbia’s eyes opened.

At the same time, he slowly raised himself.

“Um… .”

morning is early It was too early for Namgoongbia, who is a sleepy person, but Namgoongbia struggled to get up.

It’s because I know it’s not good to go back to sleep anyway.

Move your gaze toward the window.

On the window sill, the white oil painting I had brought the other day was bathing in sunlight.

It seems to have a fairly long lifespan for a fresh flower, and it still looks lively.

At the same time, I organized the bedding.

Originally, it was something that should have been left to the attendants.

Namgoongbia tried to organize herself. It was because the source of the pillows they sniffed and hugged all night was a problem.

‘… It doesn’t smell much anymore.’

What Namgoongbia was using now was the bedding brought from Gu Yangchun’s room.

It is harder to lose what was there, and as soon as she distanced herself from Guyangcheon, the stench she felt again plunged Namgungbia’s quality of life to the bottom.

I was still regretting it.

I wonder why you kept your distance.

‘… embarrassing.’

After gaining knowledge about the new world from Dang Suyeol, Namgoongbia somehow felt ashamed to see Guyangcheon’s face.

The breath that came closer, the gaze he looked at.

from fingertips to lips.

Every moment was embarrassing.

It’s funny.

The self who thought that she would have had a baby just because she slept holding his hand.

It was the self who had changed her mind about whether it would be okay to have children.

I made up my mind to escape from the stench by training as a swordsman, but as soon as another breakthrough came, I changed my mind so easily.

Namgoongbia was more ashamed of herself than others.

He remembered his father on his knees in the middle of the night.

The father, who was so indifferent and hated, was still the same even after several days passed.

My mother, who suffered from indifference and left alone, did not resent my father until the moment she closed her eyes.

How could that be?

If that’s what people say about love, isn’t it really scary?

Namgoongbia, left alone in the world, fell into the stench, but she persevered.

– Please be happy, my daughter.

Namgoongbia did not forget what her mother had said. I wanted you to be happy, so I tried to hold on until I was happy.

I didn’t know when it would come, but Namgoongbia endured a hellish time alone.

By now, I had reached the thought that the time might not have been for this.

Namgoongbia remembers the scary and heavy father kneeling in front of the boy the other day.

How could that be?

What should Namgoongbia think as she sees her father in ruins?

is it regret? It was heavy for that.

Was it fear, or so it wasn’t cramped again.

Human emotions are difficult to understand.

Namgoongbia was slowly learning this.

I came out of the outbuilding and walked down the street for a while.

“… Sleepy.”

I was still sleepy because I had barely slept.

I’ve been used to going to bed with a stench in my past life.

After only a few months of tranquility, things had changed.

Namgoongbia liked to wander somewhere. It was only after the stench had disappeared that I could tell.

It means that he likes to walk around somewhere more than he thinks.

If you walk down the street like that, there is a direction that smells less.

This meant that if you go there, he will be there.

“…!”

Namgoongbia found herself trying to go there on her own.

“yet… .”

I took a hard step. There was still something to do before going.

The place Namgoongbia is heading to is the training ground.

It wasn’t for swinging a sword.

– Hiss, hiss, hiss!

The sharp sound that came from inside the training room was the sound of Namgoong Jin swinging his sword.

Lately, Namgung-jin has suddenly been engrossed in training.

I think I’ve seen him practice a few times in Sega, but it’s quite strange to be so engrossed.

“What is going on?”

As Bia Namgoong approaches, Namgoong Jin, who feels her presence, asks.

The cold gaze remains.

“… I have something I want to ask you.”

“… you to me?”

Namgoong-jin makes a surprised expression at Namgoong-bia’s question.

It’s because I can count on one hand the number of times Namgoongbia spoke first.

“If you are asking about future schedules, feel free to… .”

“Did your father love your mother?”

Namgung-jin, who was trying to answer with a guess, closed his mouth at his daughter’s question.

Then he looked at Namgoongbia with slightly widened eyes.

“You’re suddenly asking something trivial.”

“Didn’t you love me?”

What does it mean? Namgung-jin could not figure out his daughter’s intentions.

A woman’s face comes to mind at Namgoongbia’s question.

She was a woman who resembled Namgoongbia now. She was the second daughter of the largest upper class in Anhui Province.

She was a good-natured woman for a merchant’s daughter.

She was a beautiful person and a beautiful woman.

This is the one who couldn’t come in because there was no blank space in Namgung-jin’s heart.

That’s why I can’t answer the daughter’s question after ten years.

It wasn’t even a friendly relationship.

I have never been affectionate as a husband.

When Namgoong-jin, who was busy establishing his position as the head of the household, remembers her, all that remains is a small sense of guilt.

Namgoongjin did not take a concubine.

It’s not like guilt for the dead wife.

Not only was there no such thing as such, but it was because no efficient situation had emerged.

Just like that.

That was all Namgoong-jin had left.

“…”

Depending on the circumstances, silence may be the biggest answer.

For Namgoongbia, this was the case now.

“… first… Let’s go.”

I didn’t get an answer, but Namgoongbia showed courtesy to Namgoongjin and turned around.

Looking at his father’s expression, breathing, and himself, he could find all the answers in his eyes.

How many years has it been since I felt like crying like this.

Why did he ask this now because he was afraid of the answer he would hear?

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Know.

It’s because there was an unreasonable expectation.

It’s because what I thought I’d let go of now, I’ve embraced again in my heart.

“… exhausted… .”

I feel tired without realizing it. I didn’t like this feeling.

He loses his purpose of training his sword from the start and moves forward.

The stench of the world remains.

Flowers bloom, but they are ugly, and birds sing beautifully, but they are like screams.

Life right now is hell.

Namgoongbia’s life has always been like that.

The more you walk, the less the stench. The cries that had risen to the top of his throat were swallowed up again.

Namgoongbia knew where she was going, so she tried to hide her expression.

I didn’t want to make that face in front of him.

I walked for a long time at a slow pace.

As expected, the heat was gradually felt from afar.

Maybe because of the cold weather, it feels exceptionally warm.

He harbored a spark, but to Namgoongbia it was nothing more than sheer warmth.

As I approached the residence, someone walked quickly toward Namgungbia.

“Hello lady!”

I wondered if it was Wi Seol-ah, but it was a different woman, wearing the same servant’s uniform.

Who is it?

“Thank you for the last time… !”

“ah… .”

then I remembered

When Bia Namgung snatched the bedding, it was a woman with a teary face.

Namgungbia then apologized to the attendant and paid twice as much for the bedding.

I didn’t say anything in particular, but I remembered that I was embarrassed to keep my mouth shut and keep my head down.

“… hello.”

Namgoongbia nodded slightly. It was a greeting of its own.

Then the attendant panics.

Is it really surprising that Namgung’s blood relatives greeted him?

I erased such useless thoughts from my head long ago.

“Are you here to see the young master?”

Namgoongbia nodded.

“Ah, the young master must be training right now, because he always trains at this time.”

The attendant gives the location with a happy expression, but Namgoongbia already knew where he was.

After parting with the attendant like that, I move slowly.

One step and two steps.

Then, when I took the third step, the stench from all directions disappeared in an instant.

‘Before… . It’s much wider.’

When we first met, even if we were a little farther away, I could smell it.

It was okay to be a little bit far away now.

What’s the difference?

Does it change as he gets stronger?

If you think about it, this was hope.

It was a story about whether the stench would disappear once he reached his level.

Smelling the scent she had barely regained, Namgoongbia headed to where he was.

The closer you get, the stronger the heat.

Have I become stronger than before?

pop.

Thinking so, I stopped walking.

This is because the heat that radiated through the training ground stopped.

Immediately the door opened and a sweaty Gu Yangcheon appeared.

As if he knew Namgoongbia would be outside the door, he didn’t look surprised when they met their eyes.

“What, what did you come for this morning… . What’s wrong with your expression?”

Gu Yangchen asked with a surprised expression.

It has always been like this.

He noticed the small changes in his expression that others didn’t even notice.

And that interest made Namgoongbia feel something special.

“Did you not even sleep?”

He nodded slightly at his question.

What did you come for, don’t come any closer.

The boy who used to push himself away with such harsh words didn’t show up like that now.

“Then you can sleep a little longer, why did you come here early in the morning?”

Still a bit blunt though.

Namgoongbia was fine though.

The gaze that my father gave to my mother.

Because the gaze he gave me was completely different.

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Knowing that better than anyone else, Namgoongbia smiled slightly without realizing it.

“… I want to see.”

“yes… ?”

“… I just wanted to see… .”

He conveyed his pure heart without mixing anything.

I just wanted to see.

“…”

Goo Yangchun chose to remain silent as if he had turned to stone.

It resembled the silence that Namgung-jin had seen just before.

Namgoongbia felt that the stillness was not everything.

After a moment of silence, Yangchen opened his mouth.

“… rice.”

“yes… ?”

“… Did you eat?”

“no.”

“Then let’s eat.”

Saying that, he passed Namgungbia.

Namgoongbia laughed lightly without realizing it.

“Why are you laughing.”

Gu Yangchun argues as if he doesn’t like it, but Namgoongbia just laughs as if it’s nothing.

“… bland.”

I didn’t hear anything.

However, it seemed that I had already heard the answer.

Compared to Gu Yangchen’s blunt expression, his red ears are visible.

He took a few steps ahead, then slowly slowed his steps, so he could see his back waiting for him.

That’s it.

That’s enough for now.

Feeling the cramped stomach sinking in an instant, Namgoongbia followed Guyangcheon.