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But my mind soon became clear.

Now, this is your chance.

Kyung-hee admitted that she had no choice but to wait for the time to use it.

So, it’s like saying that time has spread.

If I understood correctly, though.

“……………………………”

It seemed that he would wear clothes or something like that anyway.

For now, it seemed like it would be nice to cook for Kyung-hee, who couldn’t eat anything.

There is no dining table, only a table, but that will be fine.

I was honestly worried.

This self-made room was tailored to the assumption that only I would live.

Like the arrangement of the furniture or the number.

I didn’t assume that there was someone living with me from such trivial things.

Fortunately, there are enough ingredients.

“Come out dressed. I’ll cook for you.”

I spoke as hard as I could and organized my thoughts on what to do.

Even so, I was still hungry.

So, I can eat together, and since it’s dawn, I can eat food without burden…

‘I don’t have anything in mind.’

I could only sigh when I thought of my terrible cooking skills, which I was only good at for a self-employed student.

I thought it would be okay to give them eggs, ham, or nuggets in moderation.

I slowly opened the gas valve and took out the frying pan.

I took out five or six frozen chicken nuggets from the refrigerator, heated up a frying pan and heated a pot of soybean oil, and took out two eggs.

Then, oil was added to the frying pan, the eggs were washed with water, and the eggs were cracked and started to bake.

“……………..”

While I was cooking, I peeked outside and saw Kyung-hee wearing clothes.

After throwing her wet underwear into the bathroom, Kyunghee pulled up her pants and put on a T-shirt.

I didn’t think I would do anything strange, so I focused my attention on cooking.

I fried chicken nuggets, put well-cooked eggs in a bowl, and baked ham.

I took out the bowl containing the sliced kimchi and hurriedly set the table.

After closing the gas valve, the rice was served as gobong rice for the last time, and a plausible table was set.

Fortunately, I seemed to be able to be sick on the edge.

If either I or Kyunghee were a bit bigger, we would have had to eat separately.

I was very fortunate.

After unfolding the folding table in the corner, I put the dishes and cutlery.

I thought I might be thirsty, so I put water in a cup and handed it over.

Kyung-hee watched the table being set with a blank expression on her face, then approached cautiously.

“I must have been hungry, weren’t I?”

“…… Now… well, let’s eat.”

Despite giving her seat to be sick, Kyung-hee took a meal and left the table.

They seemed to know that the side dish was made for two people, but it was strange.

It was because he was eating a meal miserably on the floor as if he was worried about something.

“That, can we eat together? Have side dishes too.”

“……It’s okay… It’s okay.”

It was not okay for anyone to see.

Kyunghee forced a smile and chewed each chopstick of rice and swallowed it.

But the speed was strangely fast.

So, just like eating quickly has become a habit.

It seemed that he was desperately chewing and eating the rice repeatedly.

Whatever the reason, looking at it, I felt like I was pretending, so I gently lifted the table and set it down in front of Kyung-hee.

Kyeong-hee, who suddenly had no way to escape, chose sickness.

“It’s made to eat. It’s okay to eat.”

“Now, well. Let’s eat…”

“what are you doing?”

“That… can I eat it…?”

“You gave it to me to eat.”

He seemed worried that he might have been poisoned, so he ate a chicken nugget with rice right in front of Kyunghee’s eyes.

Perhaps feeling relieved only then, Kyung-hee carefully began to eat.

It didn’t matter if they ate all of them, since there were any number of side dishes, but Kyung-hee was thoroughly eating only one-third.

Eggs, which were cumbersome to share, seemed not to be touched at all.

Anything more I said would only backfire, so I finished the meal while maintaining a smile while eating the remaining side dishes.

Kyung-hee looked at me with anxious eyes, then drank two glasses of water in succession.

Even so, it was not enough, so seeing him drink three cups, what should I say?

It was pitiful.

In any case, it became an unknown person.

It seemed that human distrust had already arisen.

I could tell when I saw that he was abandoned by all his acquaintances and even came to me, an acquaintance on the Internet.

“If you’re hungry, say-“

“Okay, it’s okay.”

A knife-like answer came back.

Kyunghee forced a smile and nodded.

It doesn’t look okay at all, but it seemed to say it’s okay to avoid getting caught.

Seeing that reaction, I thought it was twisted a long time ago.

Thanks to that, the plan went awry.

Originally, I tried to give people the perception that they were getting paid for other things while making them do various chores.

For example, instead of paying for the house and living expenses, I ask you to do the housework.

But it seemed like he couldn’t do anything with such vigilance.

It was more likely that he would ruin the work while worrying about whether he was doing something wrong.

Because he knew that, he must have opened his mouth to use his body.

I rubbed my eyelids.

I thought it would be nice to organize my thoughts while organizing my place to eat.

I stacked the dishes, put them in the sink, and looked at Kyung-hee.

Kyunghee sat quietly in her seat.

Then, by chance, our eyes met, and Kyung-hee, who smiled awkwardly, immediately looked away.

Seeing his trembling, he seemed to have misunderstood something.

What the hell happened, no. I seemed to know too.

“It’s Kyunghee.”

“….yes.”

“Perhaps, so. No.”

Is it because of your parents? The word was chewed and swallowed.

Kyunghee and I used to talk about this and that.

I’ve never gone that deep, but once in a while.

There was something that Kyung-hee said while asking for help.

My parents pushed this much condition as a condition for independence, but I personally don’t know what to do.

To be honest with the condition, it was crap.

First of all, it is compulsory to go to an upper middle-ranking university in Seoul.

If you go to college below that, you can’t even dream of independence.

Other than that, starting from tuition, living expenses, food expenses, transportation expenses, miscellaneous school expenses.

It was specified to pay it all back.

Here is not the end.

While working part-time, if you are at home, pay all your salary.

If they find a room to live in, Kyung-hee pays half of the monthly rent, and their parents pay the other half.

And half of the monthly rent is included in the money to be repaid.

This harsh debt, newcomer to society.

In other words, you have to pay it off as soon as you get a decent job.

There was no interest, but it was a net fraudulent contract.

But I remember Kyung-hee texting me if this contract would be all right.

Growing up under such parents, Kyung-hee will not be able to take things for granted.

The one that gave me the feeling that it was going to break just before.

Being extremely careful not to bother me right now.

They probably think that they should be careful because they don’t pay anything in return and are shamelessly clinging to it.

To think that I would live with such an outrageous thought…

Also, I can’t send it.

It’s just that the room is small, but the cost of living is not lacking.

If you endure a little inconvenience, you can live with Kyung-hee.

And that seemed to be the case.

When I tell Kyung-hee to leave now, it means to just die.

I would rather not have received it at all, but I have to take responsibility at the point of giving a favor.

“As long as you can stay.”

“……………..”

“Even though it’s like this, the cost of living is not enough. If you’re hungry, I’ll always feed you.”

“……………………………”

“Because of illness these days, I’m at home half the week, so I can look after her at any time.”

Kyunghee slowly raised her head and smiled.

I felt better now that I was smiling, but it wasn’t at all.

The mouth is smiling, but the eyes are dead.

The deep despair in my eyes seemed to choke me, so I involuntarily took a step back.

And seeing me step back like that, Kyung-hee started talking.

“I’m twenty-two, but I don’t know how to do anything. I’m different from you.”

“……………………….”

“I don’t have any particular talent. Have you ever tried again? Studying? If you’re in the 4th or 5th grade, you’re at the level of doing it, it’s not that you know how to do it.”

“……………..”

“I don’t have any money or anything like that. I even forcibly brought clothes that didn’t fit.”

“but…..”

“It will cost more money for this and that woman’s stuff than I give you. You’ll pay twice as much for food.”

“It’s okay, I can take responsibility-“

Kyunghee smiled twisted like a wedge.

“It takes more money. It doesn’t end with saying that I can take responsibility.”

“………………………”

“I… I’m a burden. I asked to use it freely, but I don’t even know what I can do with this body.”

“still….?”

“What can I do? Or tell me what you’d rather get out of me… or…”

Kyunghee cried silently.

He seemed to have made up his mind.

“I don’t think I can go back to being a normal woman anyway.

“That……………..”

“My father was right. She was a foolish woman who couldn’t even study, so it would be natural for her to sell her body for a living.”

“That’s not right.”

“……Hands or mouth? Thighs or armpits are fine. Breasts are fine, although they’re a bit small.”

“……just hug me.”

I couldn’t help but say that.

But it seemed like the right decision.

Kyeong-hee, who sobbed while holding me without a hip, fell asleep exhausted in my arms in less than 20 minutes.

Seeing Kyunghee sleeping, I felt exhausted, so I laid her down on the bed and then I lay down in the living room and went to sleep.

Tomorrow’s schedule was empty anyway, so it seemed like there wouldn’t be a problem if I overslept.

And now I just wanted to sleep.