143. consistent honesty

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The air is heavy.

Facing the returned Anastasia, I couldn’t easily say anything.

In the darkly subdued atmosphere, you can only fiddle with the glass with the soft drink.

‘How can I get over this absurd situation?’

To dismiss it as a misunderstanding like before, the eyes of Anastasia staring at me now were so cold that I couldn’t bear to meet them.

It even seemed like he could feel some kind of ambition.

Clearly, she didn’t show any energy or threaten anything, but there was something she couldn’t bear to touch.

An atmosphere where nonsense is not allowed at all.

So I wonder if I will make any mistakes… First of all, I carefully checked the atmosphere.

“sister. Why do you look at Han Chun-seong so coldly?”

At that time, when Glesia calmly spoke out, I was involuntarily surprised.

It is said that Anastasia’s cold eyes are limited to me. To be able to talk to Anastasia so calmly now.

“…No, nothing in particular. So what were you two talking about in my absence?”

Anastasia finally took her eyes off me.

And I asked in a calm voice, but her expression was still as frighteningly calm as ever.

“I have nothing to say. We just treated each other the way we normally do.”

“As usual… Well, I’m asking this as soon as I’ve said something, but Glesia. How do you usually spend time with Han Chun-seong?”

“No matter how you send it, it’s not clear… Han Chun-seong. What are we doing?”

glimpse.

Facing Glesia, who threw her eyes at me, I just smiled awkwardly.

“There is nothing particularly meaningful about it. We definitely met often at the academy, but if we were to say that we met mostly, we would talk. Also, we were just talking about each other’s characteristics.”

“yes. It’s really as Han Chun-seong said. Like now, we met at cafes or saw each other at the training ground.”

Fortunately, Glesia sympathized with me, and Anastasia looked at me with a really strange look.

“okay? First of all, I’ll say it first, but I didn’t mean to overhear the conversation between the two of them. But just now I heard clearly. I know that Glesia and Cadet Han Chun-seong are close friends. Beyond holding hands, they said that they even hugged each other. How am I supposed to accept that? Could you also answer Han Chun-seong?”

Anastasia asked me head-on to the point where my thoughts that I might be able to move on as they were were overshadowed.

What are you doing to your brother now?

I hesitated at the determined look in my sister’s eyes, but answered right away.

“Miss Anastasia. I will not give any excuses or lies. I think you must have been very surprised, and actually what Glesia said is the truth.”

Now, I couldn’t get past it by wandering around.

Like Glesia’s attitude from earlier, I now had to confront Anastasia’s resolute appearance head-on.

“Unless it’s a lie. I’m friends with Glesia, so you’re saying we just hugged each other?”

Anastasia, who blankly asked what I was saying, seemed to have a hard time believing what I was saying.

Seeing that my sister’s first friend was… wary of being a friend of the opposite sex, and now clearly feeling the total shock, I awkwardly changed my words.

“I… Miss Anastasia. It’s not like I’m holding Glesia for no reason.”

“Then you said you hugged him.”

“That… yes. Yes.”

I really want to tell you that the meaning of my words is different, but I can’t easily connect the words.

Anastasia, who responds instantly to just a word, is looking at me with a look that would kill me if it was possible with just her eyes.

Those eyes made it difficult to even breathe, so I couldn’t even speak to my heart.

“sister. Wait a minute. Why are you pushing Han Chun-seong so far? You are in great trouble right now.”

When Glesia suddenly said something in surprise, Anastasia let out a big sigh.

And only then did he take away his lifeless eyes from me.

I was really grateful to Glesia for helping me, but I couldn’t do anything.

“…”

As if her entire body had frozen, she only carefully observed Anastasia’s expression.

…I certainly didn’t mean it, but I was in the position of the guilty person.

There are misunderstandings, but in the case of Glesia and I, it’s not just a groundless misunderstanding… .

It was misleading enough for Anastasia to see.

Whoa. Anastasia sighed again and turned her head away from me.

“Glesia. You now… are you misunderstanding the concept of a friend?”

“yes? Sister, suddenly what does that mean?”

“I was really happy at first when you said you were introducing me to a friend. But I had no idea that it was a friend of the opposite sex… much less holding hands and hugging without hesitation. I don’t think I can see a simple friend.”

“Is that so strange? Friends can hold hands or hug each other.”

Anastasia asked as if worried.

Rather, Glesia replies as if Anastasia is strange.

I felt like I was suffocating in the conversation that interlocked with each other.

‘If this goes wrong… .’

Maybe I’ll become the world’s trash. It was to the extent that I even heard such sincere concerns.

at that time. Anastasia even turned her body as if facing Glesia.

Then, with a very serious face, he started talking.

“Glesia. Friends can do that… you know. But that’s usually only in special circumstances. You can do it accidentally when you’re really happy or sad. We don’t hold hands and hold each other casually like now. Even if they’re of the same sex, we won’t hug each other for no reason.”

Anastasia, who explained calmly, was really arguing. Although it is a completely different theory from the concept of a friend I explained to Glesia. It was definitely a convincing statement.

“no. Sister, did you act like that for no reason? I’ve seen a lot of kids who hug every day.”

…And Glesia’s reaction to him was unexpectedly calm.

Far from accepting Anastasia’s words, he was rather preaching his legitimacy as if something was wrong.

That you can hug each other, and that you actually see people who do that every day.

“…”

And at that moment, I had to feel a kind of absurdity.

“that’s… .”

Even Anastasia hesitated for a moment, and strangely, Anastasia’s heart came to understand.

…Because I’m probably feeling almost the same as Anastasia right now.

The concept of friends is simple if you look at it simply, but it was a relationship that could become complicated if you look at it complicatedly.

Depending on how different the language is, the relationship between friends could be different as well.

It’s because the behavior of a friend between a man and a friend of the same sex between a woman is often different. It wasn’t once or twice that he was caught up in Glessia’s words.

‘And maybe Glesia… .’

I wonder if he expressed his affection for me as a friend of the same sex and hugged me while holding hands.

There were times when I really felt that way.

And in my view, that was our biggest mistake.

Because she doesn’t see me as a man and treats me like a same-sex friend without any sense of distance, embarrassing situations keep appearing.

And if you look at it that way, Glesia’s behavior could be understood even if it was beyond innocence.

If that’s the case, then the behaviors in the past will be really strange behaviors.

“Glesia. I think you got it wrong. Even if you are a friend, being a friend of the opposite sex is very different.

…And to my surprise, Anastasia said something that would at once correct our error.

“why? Han Chun-seong and I are friends. I think of Han Chun-seong as a friend, and I value him even more as he is my first friend. So I did it because I thought it was something that friends could do. Aren’t you thinking too big?”

Glessia, who answered again, really didn’t have the slightest hesitation.

He said he valued me as his first friend and that’s why he acted naturally… .

…And I realized with those words.

He felt like he now realized why he hadn’t been able to straighten his relationship with Glesia, despite so many misunderstandings and difficult situations.

‘Because being innocent can be a weapon.’

Glesia expresses her heart really innocently.

There is no hesitation or hesitation in doing so.

As if she had no idea what consequences her words and actions would bring, she was openly expressing what she felt.

So, I hadn’t been able to completely convince Glesia.

He had tried to change her behavior in the infirmary before, but even then, he couldn’t change Glesia.

Rather, he got caught up in her and acted like her.

There were some things I said, but I was even influenced by Glesia’s appearance.

…Glesia’s innocence was like magic that only those who had experienced it could not understand at all.

I know I have to make it right, but I can’t make it happen.

“…ha.”

Anastasia, speechless with a deep sigh, turned her head to look at me.

That look surprised me as well.

Her gaze seemed to be seeking an answer from me.

Even if Glesia showed this kind of behavior, her eyes seemed to resent me a little, asking if she had accepted it as it was.

But that was only a moment.

“…Whoa. sorry. It’s so funny that I looked at Cadet Han Chun-seong like that.”

As if she had changed her mind in an instant, Anastasia erased her coldness.

And he looked at me and smiled as if he was empty.

The momentary change in her was embarrassing, and I was told at once.

“no.”

“Really, Cadet Han Chun-seong must have been in more trouble… I’m sorry.”

“Nope. I am really fine.”

While answering calmly, he glanced at Glesia.

Still looking at us with unconcerned eyes. It was just amazing to see her like that again.

‘Should I say that they are consistent?’

Or should I just say I don’t notice? Because she always showed a consistent attitude, there was a charm that made it impossible to hate her and not to hate her again.

It can be seen that she is clumsy in dealing with people, but she doesn’t even try to hide her feelings.

Even if she tried to hide her feelings from me today, she immediately told me how she felt when I asked her to tell me.

“Miss Anastasia. I think Glesia, who is so candid, has her own unique charm.”

That’s why I wondered if it would be right for me to tune in to Glesia’s rhythm.

That’s the way to break through this road now.

“Innocence is definitely the charm of our Glessia. But Cadet Han Chun-seong, can I ask you something?”

“Yes. it’s possible.”

“…No. Later, when the two of you are together, let’s talk properly then.”

I blinked at the figure of Anastasia who turned around for a moment.

‘When there are two?’

It’s not that I’m making time with Anastasia… .

It sounded like she would make a place for me separately.