named angel (6)

Being left behind makes people miserable.

longing for the departed.

Regret for the situation left behind.

You have to dwell on all those feelings alone.

And if it’s by someone’s sacrifice.

The life of the person left behind is caught in the shackles and falls into a deep and deep abyss.

That feeling can never be expressed by someone who has not experienced it.

“I don’t like it anymore.”

Ansia knows that feeling well.

Because she was left in the world like that in her childhood when she didn’t even know what war was.

There was a monster attack, and my father died there.

Thanks to his sacrifice, Encia survived, and she is still breathing and living.

However, all of that was shackles and pain for her.

Encia doesn’t particularly hate witches.

I didn’t hate the war, and I didn’t hate my mother, who always treated me harshly.

Heaven was like that.

She was someone who had a hard time hating anything.

However, there was one thing that Ancia didn’t like.

“I don’t want to survive alone again.”

my own life.

Ensia hated herself the most in the world, having survived someone else’s sacrifice.

The fact that she is alone and living alone in the lonely winter forest.

The reluctance to keep anyone close.

Everyone was there for that reason.

If one day they leave for me, I feel that the person named Ensia will collapse as it is.

“I’m an angel. Angels exist to help someone.”

I took a step forward and stood in front of Yujin Kang.

While accepting the ferocious gaze that was only scary.

She looked at Yujin Kang with hard eyes.

“Contract with me.”

She opened the closet slightly.

The immaculate skin near the slightly exposed collarbone is painted with patterns symbolizing angels.

A red pattern that looks like wings spread out.

But it couldn’t find the sky to serve it, so it still had only one wing.

The imprint of the wings.

An agreement that angels can only enter into once in their lifetime.

When she finally found the sky to serve and made a promise, the imprint unfolded as a pair of intact wings.

but.

“Not required.”

Yujin Kang refused at once.

Then he grabbed the clothes shed that had gone down and folded them.

It was a stubborn rejection.

“I have no problem surviving without your help.”

“but···!”

“As you please. Don’t try to erase you from me.”

His eyes caught a cold light.

It was clearly the light of contempt.

“I’m afraid to be left alone, and I’m afraid to survive.”

Being left behind makes people miserable.

Those who have not experienced it cannot fathom the feeling.

And ironically.

Kang Yoo-jin, who ended the Earth War, was a person who experienced it more than anyone else.

“How many lives do you think I survived in the war?”

“that’s···.”

“You’re just using a swarm, Encia.”

It was an unchanging voice, but Encia felt a hint of cold anger in that tone.

Yujin Kang was angry.

“I look like a nanny who accepts your childishness.”

“·······.”

“If you don’t want to be left alone, be strong enough not to be. Take care of yourself. Why blame others for your weakness?”

That pitiful voice pierced Encia’s heart especially sharply.

“It’s disappointing.”

“·······.”

Silence flows.

With the giant eyes of the singularity looking down into the darkness, Kang Yu-jin’s realm is as dangerous as a candle in front of a typhoon in front of an army of ghosts.

“Disappointment···.”

one word he said.

That one word, it seemed like a poisonous heartbreaking dig.

“···Yes.”

I was not angry.

He wasn’t angry, and he wasn’t even angry.

because he was right

To be protected by someone, on the contrary, means that you are weak enough to be protected by someone.

What she was left with was all a matter of her own weakness.

“It would have been nice if I had been stronger…”

Angels are a race that only becomes strong when there is a heaven to serve them.

It is a race that has no choice but to lean on someone by nature.

Isn’t that ironic?

I hate being weak, but to not be weak, I have to lean on someone.

Encia was really disgusted with herself like that.

-Ansia…

“I don’t need to comfort you.”

He is right.

No, he was never wrong.

Although she had never fully confided in him about her situation, if she was smart and quick-witted, she would have already figured it all out.

So, he must have refused to sign a contract with Ensia.

Because she knew early on that the contract she wanted was not an opportunity to surpass herself, but an escape to overcome her weakness.

“Then, please let me stay with you.”

“·······.”

“Even if I can’t be strong, I have the courage to die with you.”

“That’s not courage.”

He shook his head.

“It’s just dodging.”

Are you afraid of being left behind and choose death?

We don’t call it courage.

It’s just a cowardly escape.

“Then what shall I do!”

Then, the thing that I pressed down finally exploded.

“This doesn’t work, that doesn’t work either, so what are you saying to me!?”

“·······.”

“There’s nothing I can do, so I’ll do what I can, but why is that such a problem? If not, what else can I do!”

“Survive.”

He said.

thump- thump-

In the clamor of ghosts all around.

He said that, looking only at his disciple.

“Survive tenaciously. Even if you are miserable, continue your life. As long as you are alive, an opportunity will come someday.”

“that’s···!”

Ensia, who was trying to get hot, eventually let her shoulders droop.

“That doesn’t work…”

Even one person has already reached this point.

But if Yujin Kang is added to that.

What if Kang Yu-jin, who had given up a place in his heart now, died.

Can a person named Encia survive?

“I can’t do it. Surviving by putting on other people’s lives is no longer…”

At that time, Yujin Kang raised her hand.

Then, with her head bowed, she blew a hard blow on Ensia’s head as she chanted.

Fuck!

“Ouch!”

A shrill scream echoes.

Ensia looked up at Kang Yoo-jin with a teary face in bewilderment.

“There are a few things you’re misunderstanding.”

“Oh… do you…?”

“First of all, I know you’re because of your father.”

Ansia’s eyes trembled.

It must have been a story he had never told Kang Yu-jin.

“I heard it from Helena, not you. It’s natural for a teacher to know about a disciple’s peculiarities.”

It’s already an old story.

After Kang Yoo-jin and Helena started dating, she must have known that Ansia depended on and followed Kang Yu-jin considerably.

And since she also had a plan to bring him to their side someday, she readily informed Kang Yu-jin of that information.

“Mom, whatever you want…”

“Yeah. I did as I pleased. You’re being swayed because you’re so dazed.”

“·······.”

He turned his head and looked around.

The area has already shrunk right in front of you.

Although his magical power pushes back the ghosts as much as possible, it was not easy to block the power of the singularity in the world of consciousness.

desperate situation.

However, there was no fear in Kang Yoo-jin’s eyes when he faced it.

“I am strong.”

he so declared.

“I am much stronger than your father.”

“·······.”

“Are you afraid of dying while fighting the beast? Are you afraid of dying while protecting you? It’s absurd. It’s a useless worry.”

Hardened eyes looked at Encia.

It was an eye with steel-like strength that did not shake even an inch.

“I don’t die like them.”

on the battlefield.

He survived by sacrificing the lives of many.

From the days of an ordinary man with nothing, he calmly accepted his own weakness.

He faced his weakness and faced it squarely.

If I had to step on my life and climb up, I did it, and if someone’s sacrifice was necessary, I accepted it.

Having survived so pitifully, I tried like crazy.

To be strong.

to kill the witch.

“The trials that didn’t kill you will make you stronger.”

As long as you live, the chance will come someday.

Even with a weak body, there is an opportunity to kill the beast.

The day will come when I will use their strength as my strength and forge it into a dagger that will pierce the heart.

So, surviving is nothing to be ashamed of.

“In the first place, don’t judge it as a sacrifice arbitrarily. It’s an insult to a person who has passed away.”

Ansia’s eyes widen.

To those words that said don’t judge because it’s a sacrifice at will.

She looked up at Yujin Kang.

“There is no sacrifice without cause. They just let it go.”

“Leave it to me…?”

“The future you will create for yourself. The hope you will give to others. The goal you will have.”

all of that

“I left everything to you.”

because he can’t

Because you are more important than all your future.

“I gave it to you.”

I wouldn’t dare call it a sacrifice.

“The only people who can truly call a sacrifice a sacrifice are those who passed away on the spot.”

Sacrifice is something to do, not something to be received.

So, those who survived should not arbitrarily conclude that their death was a sacrifice.

“What you have to bear is not mourning for the death, but the upkeep they entrusted to you.”

“·······.”

eyes, open

Memories overlap, scenes from the past pass by.

At the end, Dad said something to me.

Perhaps it was a will.

But the forgotten words slowly floated to the surface.

The last words he said come back with clear outlines of the hazy memory.

─Stay strong, Ensia.

It wasn’t words of love, nor encouragement of happiness.

It wasn’t even the fear of death, and it wasn’t even sadness.

The joys and sorrows of life are the storms of life, so I don’t want you to be filled with only happiness in the life you will go through.

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Just live strong.

Live strong and confident in the future prepared for you.

See a lot, feel a lot.

All of those meanings were implied in the short words he gave.

“·······.”

Because I was young and scared, words I had never thought of or understood.

After passing through a distant time of oblivion, it was revived by another teacher who stood in front of her.

“You said. Angels are there to help someone.”

what you said a while ago.

A proposition that Ancia knew, penetrating the foundations of angels.

“Wrong.”

But he shook his head.

“An angel is a person who serves Heaven and conveys its will.”

“·······.”

“Tell me. What is your sky?”

your sky.

The sky that I, the person named Ensia, must serve.

Until now, I thought it was someone else’s.

Because that was the theory of the angels that had come down until now.

However, Yujin Kang’s voice said that it was not.

“Who decided that angels should serve others? Neither the believers nor the constellations decided that.”

There is no law that requires others to be my sky.

The reason why angelic contracts were always directed at others was simply because that was the easiest way.

Because no one thought to look into their true inner self.

The notion of angels is just a result of their escape and avoidance.

At least, that’s what Yujin Kang said.

“Tell me whose apprentice you are.”

“…the professor’s disciple.”

“So what’s the most important thing you’ve learned from me?”

Dear Yujin Kang, The most important thing I learned in Mathematics.

how to fight demons.

mental seizure.

sympathetic.

Numerous elements passed by, but Ensia shook her head.

Perhaps, the answer may have been decided from the beginning.

“To know myself.”

To face without avoiding.

Looking closely, exploring it with an unwavering eye.

Kang Yoo-jin’s great magic science was the study of the mind, so he emphasized sharpening his own mind above all else.

He taught many things, but the underlying meaning never changed.

“Then ask again. What is your sky?”

“My sky…”

He closed his eyes.

Face your own holy power and contemplate the dormant power within.

The full power of the Constellation that was kept at the time of birth.

And, the power to kill the angels who couldn’t find the sky.

Encia always thought that it was because she couldn’t find her mate.

But, it seems that wasn’t the case.

Angels who chose to die alone.

Those who refused to find a mate and chose to be burned by the flames of the holy power, in fact, did not fail to find a heaven to serve.

Now you can see.

They found the answer in themselves.

Because I was my sky.

They knew that they were the heavens to serve.

They had to burn away because they just didn’t know how to face and accept themselves.

“My sky is me.”

My own life, supported by my family who passed away someday, that I will live strong in is my own sky.

“That’s correct.”

Yujin Kang put her hand on her head.

His holy power surrounds Encia.

The power to control the mind opened its inner side for a moment.

As a disciple of anti-magic science, not an angel.

Encia was able to face her inner side through Kang Yu-jin.

woo woo-

Holy power shimmered.

Like why did you come now?

Cries out and accepts Encia.

The carved seal on the wing shines and spreads its wings.

It was a pair of bright wings illuminated by light.

“Sacred… contract.”

For the first time among the angelic tribe, he offered himself a promise.

It was an angel that supported itself, and it was a light that lived in the world by carrying out its will without wavering.

Her power that had been dormant began to gestate for the first time.