85 – broken, scattered, hated (6)

ㅡBoom bang bang!

“Raiden Lisit!! Open this door now!!!”

Alan slammed the door of Raiden’s room and screamed.

Maybe it’s because the anger that seeped into my whole body burned my reason,

He couldn’t even think of using honorifics for Raiden, who had a higher status than himself.

Alan exudes ferocious energy from his body while distorting his beautiful appearance.

In that momentum, only the murderous intention to kill the hateful man inside was thickly melted.

“Wait a minute! What are you doing, Alan! The opponent is the eldest son of a duchy!”

“Mr. Alan! For now, calm down a little bit! Acting so recklessly…!”

The voices of his friends and Maharet could be heard behind him, but Alan didn’t care.

I was just staring at the door that wouldn’t open, exploding my body’s mana even more.

—-Hurt…!

Above his tightly clenched fist, a small flame begins to rise.

A wriggling scarlet flame wraps around his arm, taking the form of a glove.

It was one of Alan’s special skills, the ‘Fire Gauntlet’.

“…..One last thing, open the door, right now.”

Alan raises his blazing fist and gives a final warning.

But, of course, the opening of the door did not happen.

Instead, a bustling sound comes through the gap in the closed door.

—-!

—-Wait… Mr. Raiden…!

It was a sound that passed through his ears like a fleeting moment, but Alan’s ears, which were raising their senses to the fullest, did not miss it.

It must have been mixed in with the fragments of that feeble sound…

“Last name, lady…?”

It was the voice of Lorraine, the girl he had deep inside.

Her voice gasping for breath, calling Raiden’s name with an exhausted trembling.

ㅡToduk

Alan’s string of rationality, which was weakly connected, is severed.

The next moment, Alan was already swinging his fist involuntarily.

ㅡQuaaang!!!

His fist, thrown out in anger, collided with the iron door, creating a loud explosion.

The armor of flame completely rips off the obstacles blocking the corridor and the room.

“I will kill you…!!”

Alan throws aside the piece of door that separated it from the front door, and storms into the room.

Embarrassed by his actions, the party frightened and followed him.

“Now, wait…! Alan!!”

“Alan! Wait!”

The stride steps pass through the front door and reach the living room.

The living room is dark because the lights are not on.

In a dark space, children had to open their eyes to secure their sight.

“……”

The dimly lit living room was literally a mess.

The floor where something fell off, clothes rolled around, and broken furniture.

The scene in the chaotic living room looked like a trace of someone fiercely resisting.

‘What the hell… What happened to the saintess here…’

ㅡ fast…

Alan’s teeth gritted as he watched it all.

Alan, unable to contain his boiling anger, spat out an incantation roughly.

“Fire Light”

ㅡ Hurray!!

With the sound of something burning, small sparks rush into the room.

The scarlet beams of light emanating from them begin to clear the darkness of the living room.

Children frown for a moment at the flashing light.

The first thing that came into their slowly growing field of vision was…

It was black blood that soaked the entire floor of the room.

“……what?”

Alan paused and let out a muffled sound.

A feeling of bewilderment passes over his expression at the scene of the living room that suddenly unfolds.

And it was the same for the people who were following him.

“What, what is this all of a sudden!”

“Blood?! Is all the blood on this floor…?!”

“Oh my gosh…..”

The fishy air smelt of blood,

Walls and carpets painted in black blood,

A pile of blood-stained towels, and potion bottles that appeared to have been used up on the floor.

The children could not hide their bewilderment at the terrible sight that shimmered before their eyes.

“Dae, what the hell is this…?”

Moving their creaking necks, they shifted their gaze toward a corner of the living room that seemed to be the center of the mess.

There were two people there.

Two people who had been hiding their bodies in the dark until just now.

One of them is a blonde girl with a surprised expression, holding bandages on both hands.

The other was a black-haired boy who was staring blankly at the children on a bloodstained couch.

“Holy Maid…!”

“……Raiden?”

Alan and Maharet muttered their names in muffled voices.

At that small call, Lorraine put on a troubled expression and began to break out in a cold sweat.

Raiden, who was sitting on the sofa, was silent for a moment, then pursed his lips.

“……f*ck.”

A curse that comes out without power.

The black eyes that were staring at the children began to tremble emptyly.

.

.

.

ㅡQuaaang!

Unable to knock on the door, Alan and his friends break through the door and break in.

The hot heat hits the cold room, and the stream of light that flows in drives away the darkness in the room.

It was the moment when all the traces of my life-and-death struggle, which I tried to hide, were revealed.

“……f*ck.”

I was stunned for a moment, then spat out a short curse word.

His throat, which had been resting from screaming all day, let out what he didn’t know whether it was words or coughs.

When I look up while grabbing my stiff hair, I see you all looking at me with bewildered faces.

Alan, Clara, Abbey, and… Maharet.

The gazes you send pierce my lungs.

I felt my breath tighten and I had to bite my teeth.

“……”

Leaning against the back of the sofa, he gasped for breath.

I barely move my twitching lips and ask you guys in front of me.

“…What the hell is this situation?”

A trembling voice cuts through the air.

Among all of you who heard that, Alan, who was standing at the front, opened his mouth in bewilderment.

“Uh, uh… that’s what I want to ask… what the hell is this situation? It’s clear that the letter…”

Like, ‘I can’t do this?’ Alan with the same reaction.

He went on in gibberish, bringing up the story of the magical mail he had picked up on the floor.

“So, so… I think there was a bit of a misunderstanding…”

“misunderstanding…?”

I was stunned for a moment at those words, then let out an airy laugh.

While exuding bloody momentum, he forcibly broke open the door and came in… Misunderstanding?

It felt like something was twisting inside me.

yes, misunderstood

Another damn misunderstanding.

That misunderstanding you’ve been having ever since you met Raiden.

“Somehow we misunderstood the contents of the letter…”

“…By the way, how many times is this?”

“Yes?”

At my question after cutting the horse’s back, Alan tilted his head as if asking what he was talking about.

Seeing that hideous figure, my fingertips trembled and trembled.

Your breathing becomes unstable, and your chest feels heavy, as if someone were holding it down.

“What the hell… that f*cking misunderstanding, asking how many times already…”

The trembling lips begin to move wildly.

It seemed as if something that had been swaying dangerously inside it would spill out.

Unable to bear it, I staggered to my feet.

“Ugh…”

“Ra, Mr. Raiden! You can’t get up yet!!”

As I forcibly moved my body from the sofa and got to my feet, Lorraine freaked out and reached out to stop me.

I grabbed her hand roughly.

ㅡ Tak!

“Wow…?!”

“Isn’t the saintess the same… have you forgotten who was the one who almost framed me as a pact with the devil in the first place…?”

Reminding me of what happened a few months ago, I glared at her with cold eyes.

Then Lorraine shuddered and stepped back.

“Mr. Raiden…”

“It’s always…it’s always been this way.”

A fool who is misunderstood and hated in everything.

That was the life of this damned body.

“The last time we met at the banquet hall raid, when we met at the wagon stop, when we met at the training ground…”

I risked my life to save someone.

I did my best to keep the peace of this story.

However, what returned was not gratitude and love, but hatred and vigilance.

—-Hey, hey, look over there…! The crazy bastard is back…

—-I heard a rumor that you made a contract with the devil!!

—-Raiden, you. I don’t know what your intention is…

ㅡWhat are you doing here, senior? Stop, don’t come closer.

At the same time as futile feelings pass by my cheeks, the voices of the past ring in my ears.

Those sharp thorns pierce my throat again.

“Misunderstood at will, despised at will, hated at will…”

A bitter murmur escaped from parted lips.

The small sound that embracing that trembling became a thorny vine and tightened my body.

Under the pressure that tore my flesh and shattered my bones, I couldn’t keep my expression straight.

“…What the hell are you saying to me?”

The face that had been maintaining an expressionless expression for a long time collapsed.

Something piled up inside of me starts to burst out.

“Answer me, Alan…”

“……”

I approached Alan with an unsteady gait and reached out with a trembling hand to grab him by the collar.

My hands are overlapped on top of the white shirt, and black blood stains spread.

“What the hell… what are you saying to me…”

I thought I could change it if I tried.

Misunderstandings, hatred, disgust, all those things aimed at me.

So I believed in it and tried…

“I… I’m exhausted… I can’t take it anymore.”

exhausted

and i can’t

Spitting out the words I had been holding back forcibly, I lowered my head.

ㅡTuk, Tuduk…

Something hot leaked from the corners of my eyes and ran down my cheeks.

Small drops of water fall and wet the floor.

The throat filled with tears was silent for a moment, then spewed out a word soaked in futility.

“…In the world, why do you hate me so much…”

A voice that crumbles without power.

It was part of a crumbling feeling.

ㅡTitling!

[Urgent warning message!]

[Due to severe mental shock, the system becomes more unstable!]

[Recommended to take a rest as soon as possible!]

The walls start to crack.