49 – Curse of Loneliness

“Change it. Here, in front of my eyes.”

“yes…?”

When I pretended to be indifferent and said so,

Violet put on a blank expression as if asking what that meant.

“Hey, here…?”

“Yes, in front of my eyes.”

I nodded, answering her perplexed question.

Then, Violet’s face, which was looking at me, turned into contemplation.

“Oh no…!!”

Violet shouted and covered the bandaged part of her face with her hand.

She pulled her knees over the chair and curled herself into a circle.

It was like a turtle trying to hide in its shell.

She hugged her knees tightly and spoke in a trembling voice.

“Boo, showing the inside of the bandages… oh no…!”

“Why?”

Violet reacted more violently than expected, perhaps because she touched the trigger.

She trembled, but I pretended not to know him and asked.

“Come to think of it, I’m curious, why do you wear a bandage on the right side of your face?”

“……”

“Oh, are you ignoring my words on the subject of commoners?”

“Hee Iik..!!”

Violet trembles in fright at my words.

She hurriedly opened her mouth and shook her head.

“That, that’s not it!! Ah, earlier… M, like I said… the inside of the bandage is a bit… M, it’s very unsightly…”

“…because it’s ugly?”

“Look, people… are disgusting… Go, cover up…”

“……”

ㅡ I got it…

Violet’s last words automatically gnashed her teeth.

It was exactly what I saw in the original.

f*ck… how can a person…

I was silent for a moment, chewing my lips, then opened my mouth again.

“……Change the bandage. I don’t care about that.”

“……”

Violet couldn’t help but cry at my answer.

My heart was a little weak at that desolate appearance.

But… he didn’t back down.

“Now that you’ve said that, I want to see the inside of those bandages all the more.”

“…Gee, really… Oh, I can’t…”

Violet bit her lip and muttered.

Tears welled up in her teary eyes.

I hardened my expression coldly at her reaction.

Then, in a slightly heavy voice, he said.

“To talk back to a commoner… Are you challenging the power of the duchy?”

“Hey…! Ah, no… that, that’s not it…”

It was an obvious far-fetched.

I had no right to see through those bandages,

She also had no obligation to show it to me.

It was just like taking the power in your hands and torturing her.

Even I already knew what was in there.

And I knew why she was hiding it and was reluctant to show it to others.

“Stop talking, do it now. I won’t say it again.”

“Heeep… yes, yes… keup…”

This is just my shallow selfishness.

The selfishness of wanting to see your story, your wounds, with your own eyes, which you have only seen through the combination of typefaces.

The selfishness of wanting to know more deeply about your pain.

“……”

“Sniff…”

Violet eventually began to shed tears and loosened the bandages covering her face.

ㅡslur…

As she moves her hands, the bandages covering her face gently loosen.

The bandage is peeling off, the purple eyes revealing beneath it, and—

“……”

“Higuk… Bo, don’t look…”

—-A huge burn mark covering the entire right side of his face.

There was a large burn scar covering from the right forehead to just above the chin.

“Aww…”

“……”

As if trying to cover the scar, Violet covered it with her hand and lowered her head.

I was staring blankly at her like that.

……The scar is bigger than I thought.

I mumbled and bit my lip.

Read at noblemtl. com

Just like that, while staring at her scars for a while, a familiar mechanical sound rang in my ears.

ㅡTitling!

[The ‘Curse of Loneliness’ engraved on Violet’s scar attacks you!]

[Due to the effect of the curse, Violet feels extreme disgust!]

[Effect takes effect after 10 seconds…]

“…The Curse of Loneliness…”

I frowned at the blue windows that floated in front of my eyes.

Then, chewing her lips lightly, she glared at the text that read ‘Curse of Loneliness’.

yes, this was it

What caused Violet to fall into the abyss of unhappiness.

The reason why she had no choice but to be hated and ostracized by many people.

A curse that makes you feel extreme disgust at the mere sight of scars…

What the f*ck are you talking about debuffs?

Even because it was a curse placed by a high-ranking demon of the Four Heavenly Kings level,

It was close to impossible to evade the contents of the curse or to grant the curse.

……

…Of course, I am an exception.

ㅡTitling!

[Skill ‘Spirit of Iron’ blocks ‘Curse of Loneliness’!]

The mechanical sound rang once again in my ears, and the blue spear rose.

I looked at him and took a deep breath.

“Haa… Yes, this is what the f*ck is supposed to be…”

‘Spirit of Iron’ is an SSS-class skill that is handed down by the Goddess, and there are less than 5 in the world.

It wasn’t the curse of the demon king, it was the curse of the demon tribe who couldn’t even become the Four Heavenly Kings at most.

If you curse this much, you can eat rice cakes.

“……”

“Bo, isn’t it ugly…? I’ll go quickly…”

While I was looking at the status window, Violet tore off a new bandage and said,

In those swaying purple eyes, there was a thick mixture of anxiety, sadness, and self-loathing.

I looked into those eyes and grabbed the hand that was about to wrap the bandage.

ㅡ Tak!

“Eww…?!”

When the hand that was covering the face fell off, the scar was more clearly visible.

At that, Violet struggled as if trying to free her hand from me.

“Oh no! Bo, don’t look!!”

He later raised his remaining hand to cover it, but it was not enough to prevent the large scar with his thin hand.

Perhaps knowing that people change strangely when they see her scars, she reacted violently and twisted her body.

“Oh, no…!! Please don’t look at me…!”

Violet begged in a desperate voice.

Tears from the corners of her eyes flow down, leaving a transparent solid line on her cheek.

That look stabbed my heart.

My breath caught in my throat as my heart pounded.

In my head, the stories about Violet that I read in the original work overlapped with a ‘cheerreuk’ sound.

A child who survived alone in a burning village.

The right side of her face was burned and she was cursed, so she couldn’t get close to anyone.

In the end, a foolish child who couldn’t overcome his loneliness and sold his soul to the devil.

—-Me too… Like you, I wanted to be loved…

At the last moment, her heart was pierced by Alan’s sword, and she spit out the lines.

She shed bloody tears with red eyes, and she turned to dust with a hollow smile at Eren.

A sad story no matter how many times I read it.

A story that made me sick no matter how many times I read it.

ㅡTuk, Tuduk…

As it all swirled in my head, tears started to fall from my eyes too.

Violet, who had struggled with him, stopped moving as she opened her bunny eyes.

“Go… Confucius…?”

Without even wiping away the flowing tears,

He quietly reached out his hand toward Violet’s face.

Then he quietly stroked her right cheek.

A feeling of heterogeneous skin transmitted through the hands.

It was smooth and crumpled as if there were wrinkles somewhere, but

It never occurred to me that it was repulsive.

“Ughhhh?”

Violet, whose eyes were tightly closed by my touch, slowly opened her eyes.

Two purple eyes look at me.

My image is reflected in those clear eyes.

“Did it hurt a lot… a lot…?”

I asked as I burst into tears.

Carefully stroking her scar, like touching a glass marble.

“How… how lonely have you been…?”

Because of this scar, how much hatred did you receive?

How much hate did you get?

A life that receives only linear hatred and hatred, without even knowing what he did wrong.

Read at noblemtl. com

Just like I did in my previous life,

Are you also locked in loneliness, soaking your pillow every night alone?

“Uh, uh uh…?”

As if confused by my actions, Violet uttered a dumb voice.

She looked at me with an expression of disapproval.

“Phew, scar… have you seen…?”

“Sniff, sniff… I saw it, but what did it mean?”

“Uh, uh…? Tongue, isn’t it disgusting…?”

she asked in a trembling voice.

Mixed in that voice were surprise, denial, doubt, suspicion, and…

….A fleeting expectation that shines feebly.

As if in response to that expectation, I stroked her cheek once again.

Then he said, wiping away the tears with the other hand.

“…Not at all, not disgusting at all.”

“……”

Violet put on a complicated expression at my words.

Slightly distorted, eyes narrowed, lips twisted, eyes closed, eyes opened.

As if choosing which expression to wear, she kept changing her expression,

Soon, he had a blank expression on his face and shed tears.

Tear marks are clearly engraved on his expressionless face and his teeth wide open.

It looked like tears that came out reflexively, without knowing what they were.

“Uh, uh… uh uh…?”

“Why are you crying?”

I asked as I wiped the tears that ran down my cheeks and touched my hands.

At that, Violet made a dumbfounded expression.

“Uh, uh… Mo, I don’t know… Why, why are you doing this…?”

As she muttered, she leaned a little more on my hand on her cheek.

The hand that was caressing her scar adds a slight weight.

As if acting unconsciously, Violet rubbed her cheek against my hand.

It’s like meeting someone you’ve been missing for a long time.

…Perhaps it was because it was the warmth of someone he hadn’t felt in a long time.

Violet, shedding tears without expression, asking for warmth in my hand.

I stretched out my hand a little longer to make her more comfortable.

Then he sat still for a while, guarding her side.