13. Dating – 07

Claire Delphine Mascarena was originally a woman who did not believe in the element of fate.

she is a wizard A wizard who is devoted to exploring the truth of the world by artificially reproducing natural phenomena according to the combination of formulas and the operation of magic he tunes at his fingertips.

The race of wizards originally had the tendency to unleash their intellect only by digging up the components of the world to the root, and behind all phenomena, the cause and effect are inherent, and through this, one day one’s fingertips will be able to reach the other side of the stars. They were people who spoke loudly.

And Claire was also a human belonging to the category of typical wizards.

Of course, she is not the villain who is eccentric, irritable, and willing to sacrifice her life for the sake of her magic research, as people perceive her to be.

As all students at Nineveh know well, Claire Delphine Mascarena’s essence was a harmless woman, like a hamster or rabbit.

Erekaya del Pendragon, who openly pushes others away, and Altina von Rudel Serias, who pretends to be active on the outside, but clearly distinguishes between ‘close friends’ and ‘unfriendly people’. of human.

Claire Delphine Mascarena was as meek as her outward appearance, and although she was kind to others, she was still a wizard in essence.

Claire does not believe in supernatural elements such as ‘luck’ or ‘destiny’ that are outside the reach of human hands.

Claire’s harmless attitude towards others is due to her unique round personality, which she does not want to make clear enemies, and the reason she treats others gently is because she does not want to pay attention to human relationships that cannot be measured.

That’s what magic is. An arrogant tribe that thinks that everything in the world is moving under the laws of nature, and that by adjusting those laws, they too can someday become the rulers of nature.

However, recently, such Claire Pappin Mascarena has come to think that the element of ‘destiny’ actually exists without realizing it.

No, even if there was no such thing as fate, I was so shocked that I wondered if there might be a divine being who presides over human encounters.

Because none other than that right here, in Nineveh, I met a man named Jin.

When I first met him, I wasn’t very impressed.

Of course, because of the fact that they were from the same A class, they treated me warmly and kindly as always, but that was all.

For Claire Delphine Mascarena, the existence of a man named Jin was no different from her ‘friends’ that were widespread in Class A.

But that was the story of when he and she first met face to face.

A hundred days have passed since they met for the first time, and the relationship between them has changed a lot from the first time.

No, to be precise, Claire was looking at him in a different way from the first time. Because Claire has become a body that can no longer regard Jin as a mere ‘friend’.

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My heart beats. When you look into each other’s eyes with him, you get the illusion that only he and himself exist in this vast world.

Claire Delphine Mascarena doesn’t know what this feeling is. She learned how to adjust her magic even before she grew up, and since then, she had to pour all of her skills into learning magic and using it skillfully, so she has never been close to another man. .

But even so, Claire was a wizard. An existence that can rationally observe and verify its own state at any time and at any time, and eventually convert everything in the world into numbers.

When Claire judged herself, it seemed that she must have liked Jean.

… No, simply saying ‘I like’ might not be enough.

Because, although Claire likes her parents or siblings the same way, she could see that the emotions she felt when she faced her own family and when she faced Jin were distinctly different.

If so, could this be love?

Could it be that the woman named Claire Delphine Mascarena goes beyond the level of simply ‘liking’ the man named Jean, and is loving him as a clear affection between a man and a woman?

… Actually, I don’t know that far. No, I couldn’t possibly come up with an answer on my own.

Because all of these things were so foreign and unfamiliar to Claire, and it was like her first experience, so she couldn’t really judge that her thoughts were right.

But if this is really her first love, as she expected, and Claire Delphine Mascarena is really in love with a man named Jean-

“…..”

Unexpectedly, the self who felt that the answer drawn at the end of the conclusion was not so disgusting was present here.

Yes. I didn’t like it. No, it was rather good. Being by his side like now, having a conversation next to him, and having a meal while talking about what happened today while facing each other face to face by his side… everything was good

does he know Missing only one person, waiting all day to meet that person, looking forward to what she could do for him and what she would prepare for him, could make a woman named Claire feel so happy.

100 days is a very short time, but at the same time, I think it is enough time for love to sprout between a man and a woman.

Enough time to meet a man whose name and face you don’t know, to treat him specially, and to fill him up in your heart.

And at the end of it, it must be clear that this feeling he is feeling is none other than that of Claire Delphine Mascarena.

this is all mine According to my feelings and my choice, I embraced the man you are in my heart, treated the man special, and eventually fell in love with you.

But what? This feeling I’m feeling right now, isn’t it mine?

The relationship you have with him is so fragile that you doubt whether your feelings are genuine?

It’s really funny. Celica von Wallenstein. Why on earth and what right do you have to cut people’s hearts like that with a ruler?

Alas, I have heard that those who foresee the future are wiser than anyone else in the world, but at the same time they are dumber than anyone else because they have the power to foresee the future.

Just as a fish cannot live long after coming out on land, the power to foresee the future is a power that is truly undeserved for mere humans.

She is a foolish woman who is swayed by the future as a reward for looking into the future itself, so I think she must have been spouting nonsense at herself without knowing anything in the end.

These are my feelings only. Although, as Serica von Wallenstein said, the cause, motive, and causation resulting from it are terribly lacking, the fact that Claire is in love with a man named Jean at this moment is an undeniable truth.

Claire Delphine Mascarena likes a man named Jin. No, I love her. And besides that, what else is important?

[Yes. you are right Claire Delphine Mascarena.]

… Is this hallucination? It feels as if a voice is whispering to her from somewhere.

It was a voice so sticky, so secret as if it were whispered in her ear, and at the same time a voice so ominous that it seduced people.

[Stay by the man’s side. Observe the man. Get everything in that man’s hands. And you, do not hide your desire.]

… No, it can’t be. Claire is the most gifted woman among the wizards in Nineveh.

It is literally impossible to break through Claire’s mental barrier and whisper a deceptive voice directly into her head.

[It’s Mascarena’s child. you are a doll So, shouldn’t a doll be normal if you don’t have any doubts like a doll?]

… Yes, so this must be a simple hallucination. If that’s not the case, then, like a magician, the urge in his heart must have been embodied in this voice.

So let’s not doubt anything. Because this voice is the same as the voice I speak.

[Did you want to get your hands on that man? Did you want to stay true to your feelings and always stay by his side?]

yes i want him Although I don’t know why, even myself, now I hope to have him whole.

As much as I miss him, miss him, and want to be with him right now, he wants to feel that way when he looks at me.

… However, that would be no different than a wish that could never come true.

Because there are already great women staying by his side, who are incomparable to the likes of himself.

Erekaya Del Pendragon, and Altina von Rudel Serias.

Among the students Nineveh had produced, two women who had the most brilliant talent and ability, and crucially, were just too beautiful to be seen by the same woman, were always staying by his side.

Even to herself, Claire hadn’t thought that her appearance was lacking anywhere, but she couldn’t help but feel her own inadequacies as she looked at Erekaya and Altina.

It was because he knew very well that even if he was in Jin’s position, he would have no choice but to pay attention to Erekaya and Altina, who were shining like stars, rather than the plain self.

… hate. She is a woman who caused a nuisance to a man named Jin in the past, and now she is recognized as a classmate who eats together.

But Claire was content with that level at best, and didn’t want to back down.

I wanted to go further. At best, beyond the level of eating together, I want to spend more time with you, stay by your side at the end, and become a companion who shares life with you.

That was the only wish the current Claire wanted and longed for.

[Then, why are you sitting here with your hands down right now? If you want something, isn’t it the right thing to do with your own hands?]

But it’s a bunch. Even if I wanted it so much, he would never come to my side meekly.

No, the two women who always stayed by his side as if to escort him before that would not let his actions go unnoticed.

so it’s too much It was absurd from the start that a woman like me, who had no strengths, was sober, and lacked light, surpassed women like Erekaya and Altina-

[It’s soft. and clumsiness. That is why he did not stay by your side, but went to the side of those women.]

… what?

[Doing nothing to get what you want, just sitting blankly and waiting for it to fly into your arms? Isn’t that kind of weak heart the main reason why you are now in such a miserable situation?]

[Look out the window. With the present you, you will be able to find out what is lacking.]

At those words, Claire looked out of the dormitory through the window as if she had spilled something-

“……”

And right in front of the women’s dormitory, Erekaya and Jin whispered something sweetly into each other’s ears, and soon they giggled and witnessed a truly unpleasant scene.

“… ah.”

As Claire gazes at the scene with some blank eyes, the cunning voice begins to whisper in her ear in a very enchanting voice.

[They will spend each other’s time out of your sight, and gradually they will grow the size of their affection for each other in their hearts.]

[If time goes on and on and you become important to each other, what will happen to you as a woman? Even then, do you think that a woman like you is qualified to stand by him?]

“then… If so, what am I supposed to do? What choice do I have to make?”

When Claire muttered in a voice that made her cry at any moment, the unfamiliar voice laughed loudly and whispered secretly to her.

As if the answer he gave was an absolute truth to her.

[What do you mean, what do you do? Of course, there must be only one more answer you can give.]

[Take it. Eat everything and make it your own. And if there is something that offends you, trample it all without leaving a trace in the process. So that you never have to fear remorse, and so that no one else dares to cross yours.]

The voice that whispered in Claire’s ear grew louder and louder before she knew it, until it was enough to fill her head.

[No need to worry. Because isn’t that the only way humans use to get what they want?]