69 – Sleeping… ? (One)

bed… ? (One)

A living corpse?

Shinui’s unexpected words turned white in my head.

Shinui asks with a serious expression as if representing me.

“Hey bastard, what the hell are you picking up and eating?”

“What do you mean by that… .”

“There aren’t just one or two energies circulating in your body, so how can you keep walking around like this?”

It was an embarrassing thing to say to myself.

I had so many things to eat lately that I vaguely knew what I was talking about.

It must have meant not only magic, but also the energy obtained from Sichuan and the volcanic energy obtained from ghosts.

“Is it such a big deal?”

“There’s no way a man called Muin wouldn’t know… . I’m more curious that there are people who can survive like this.”

Is it that serious?

I knew that Doga’s energy and Guga’s energy didn’t match, but I seemed to be getting over it pretty well.

‘Is it because of the guy Shinnoya is trying to rampage inside?’

[It won’t be just that. What kind of madman wouldn’t want to commit suicide and put two energies in his body?]

‘I didn’t mean it either…?’

[So it must be strange.]

That was the part I was worried about and questioned countless times.

The fact that energies that are completely opposite to each other exist within the body within the body.

In other words, they collide countless times.

Because they do not fit together, they will collide endlessly, and the shocks that occur in the process must be handled only by my body.

This will become a stumbling block as the level of inaction increases.

In the first place, if it was a normal body, it should have become a crippled person due to the main fire.

‘Did I take it too lightly?’

It was just a story that I passed lightly because it was nothing.

Then, the guy who says that Shin Noya oppressed him is talking about these kinds of energy… .

[That’s not it.]

‘No?’

[Yes, based on what that member said, it’s probably because he’s saving you.]

‘What do you mean?’

[Someone is glaring at and putting to sleep the energy that is going to run wild without end. .]

It was not easy to properly understand what Shin Noya was saying.

… What the hell is going on inside your body?

I urgently asked God

“Then what should I do?”

“What should I do, I have to drain all my energy or live while praying that my body won’t explode.”

“Yes… ?”

what such… ?

“Your body right now is in a situation where there is nothing strange if it suddenly explodes. It means I have nothing to do other than touch it easily.”

To the extent that faith is reluctant to touch it?

“A living corpse is a living corpse for nothing. You can die while eating a meal out of the blue, or you can die while taking a bath. That’s just how you are now.”

A state in which it would not be strange even if he died at any moment.

It was said that if the energy that was pretending to be quiet goes wild more than necessary, it will go away.

‘… He had a bomb attached to his body.’

Was it the trouble that I ate like that and thought there was no problem?

… No, honestly, I didn’t eat it on purpose, but it turned out like this, so it was unfair from my point of view.

“Is this bigger than you thought?”

Mae Hwa Seon’s words seemed to be dumbfounded.

“You mean you didn’t tell me to see it?”

“How do I know that… ”

“No, you put a nickname on the grass that looks like plum blossoms, and you don’t even know this!?”

“I could see it roughly, but if you don’t look closely, you wouldn’t know, so maybe I brought it to you.”

Even when the two old men were arguing in front of me, it was still complicated in my head.

What should I do?

It was not the time to be concerned because it was Jegal-hyuk in front of me and it was something that would come out in the future.

Before I knew it, I was in a situation where I could die in an instant.

‘… What should I do?’

Right now, he’s holding on thanks to something inside his body, but even he’s said to go on a rampage if you make a bet that exceeds a certain amount, so he probably isn’t a particularly calm guy.

If that’s a situation where Shinnoya is suppressing it again…

‘It’s a lot more shit than I thought, really.’

It was said that he was fighting a war inside his body all day long.

Unwanted opportunities gathered and eventually ended up like this.

I wouldn’t be ashamed if I took it with my own will.

As I pondered over and over again, I heard the voice of God.

“There is one way to survive.”

“Yes?”

“No, since he’s still alive, there’s a way to stay alive.”

“Can I ask something?”

It felt like grabbing at least a straw.

Hearing that, Shinui replied with a sad expression.

“If you are concerned that your energy will explode, you can close the dantian.”

“… !”

“Whether it’s the main fire or the body exploding like a firecracker, it’s because there’s already a problem on the way from Dantian to Blood Road, so if there’s no problem now, if you close it down, you’ll be able to keep your life.”

God’s word was right.

If you just crush the dantian, the energy will dissipate and the problem will be solved. That way you can survive.

However, as a warrior, he dies.

‘That’s not allowed.’

It’s not because the strength and inaction I’ve accumulated so far is a waste.

If you close the dantian, you will surely die in the future anyway.

Either by the Heavenly Demon.

Either by the Murim Alliance.

‘… Shit.’

Why is there no easy way to keep going? Can’t we go a little safer?

[Your child, you have no intention of giving up, after all, it is because of the Danjeon that a military man values more than his life.]

In a way, it’s a very foolish thing, but most of the lives of unmanned people were like that.

Shinui looked at my expression and clicked his tongue once.

“Looking at the condition of his face, it seems that Danjeon will not be able to give up.”

“…”

“Then I have no choice but to pray that your body will endure as luckily as now.”

“They said they would just touch and do nothing, but they’ve already thought of a cure, you miser!”

“… This rotten bastard, just get out of here!”

It’s hot really…

Sinui pointed toward the door with his hand, as if telling him to leave immediately after he had heard the story.

“This is where the patient is. They go out very quickly.”

“You’re still unkind… .”

“Especially, get rid of the fire quickly, starting with you.”

Mae Hwa-seon let out a good-natured smile and then naturally stood up.

When Geomhu immediately stood up and tried to take a bow, Maehwaseon stopped him by saying that he should not stand up with his hand.

“Rest well, I’ll come back often.”

“Yes… . Jang Moon-in.”

“I’m crazy, so don’t come, damn you… .”

“I’ll be back next time, Tae-ui.”

“To rot.”

Maehwaseon goes out the door and I want to follow right away.

“Wait, wait.”

Looking back, the owner of the voice was Gu Ryeong-hwa.

Gu Ryeong-hwa was looking at me with terribly trembling eyes.

“why?”

“… porridge… uh?”

“what?”

“Are you dying… !”

After asking several times, the commanding officer immediately shouted.

What are you talking about all of a sudden?

It’s been a while since I’ve seen it, so it was a bit difficult to know how to deal with it.

Did you ask because you wanted to die? We didn’t get along that much… .

-Get out of my sight, it’s disgusting to see.

… can you

I let out a deep sigh at the memory that suddenly flashed through my mind. It was definitely something I spat out to deny.

I said while looking at the old painting.

“I guess so.”

“… Why why… ”

“yes?”

“Why are you so calm…?”

“Is there anything to be afraid of? You’re not dying yet.”

“You don’t know if you’ll die tomorrow…!”

“But you are alive now.”

At my words, Guryunghwa’s expression changed something strange.

Is this such a strange word? Even more so, why did aging become more serious?

There’s no such thing as love left for me.

[It’s a strange word, since it’s not something a kid who hasn’t experienced the boundary between life and death would say so casually.]

‘Well.’

[I thought it looked like an old man, but there’s a bit too much. I hope this is also included in what you will tell me later.]

‘How do you know whether it’s in the story or not, and make such a conclusion?’

[No.]

‘…’

ha.

As the weight of unnecessary talk was added, the fatigue also multiplied.

He brushed it off with a deep sigh and said while looking at the old man.

“I’m going back to Sega in a few days. You must go too.”

“not… go.”

“Are you not going?”

“A place like that, there’s no way I want to go back… !”

“Yeah, like that.”

When I said that I didn’t have to go, Gu Ryeong-hwa’s expression became more grotesque.

Just by looking at his expression, I could see that he didn’t want to go.

“Are you really not going to take me?”

“He said he didn’t want to go.”

“ah… ?”

“What do you think your father would say if I told you that I couldn’t bring you to the tinkling barrel because you didn’t want to go?”

“…”

“That’s right, just as you thought, I won’t say anything.”

Perhaps with a distinctive hard voice, ‘I see.’ It will end in one word.

This is the Taeseondan I was supposed to receive… . Ah, Taeseondan is the problem.

‘Honestly, I think it’ll be better if I get it now and eat it.’

I heard that firecrackers are still ringing inside my body, so if I add more, shouldn’t it be poison?

I thought there might be a problem with that part.

After alternately looking at the swordsman and Gu-ryeong-hwa in her arms, I wondered if there was a need to come.

Certainly, this place would be more comfortable for Gu Ryeong-hwa than in Kuga.

[Your brother’s heart, what is it?]

‘Please don’t say such creepy things.’

It looks like a dead person, but the bloodline is a piece of shit… .

Just like in my previous life, I just decided not to care.

[You always say things against your heart.]

Ignoring Shinnoya’s words lightly, he bowed to Shinui and Swordsman.

Afterwards, Jegal-hyeok’s eyes met, but he ended up just holding his eyes for a moment.

For now.

Closing the door like that… .

It was only after Maehwaseon had already left.

Could it be that you have already left… ?

I want to go back before night falls, so I put a bet on my feet and try to jump.

“Wait, I don’t know the way… ?”

… what?

******************

“It’s strange.”

These are the words Shinui uttered in the cabin after Guyangchun left.

strange

It was really strange.

The fact that such energy was gathered in the boy’s body, which would have been a long way from becoming a contract.

Even though they growled hostilely at each other, their energy didn’t explode.

Even the attitude of the boy who listened to him.

‘It’s an eye I’ve seen somewhere.’

Eyes that were carefree even after hearing his death right in front of his nose.

He might be afraid of dying, but his face calmly accepted it.

Those eyes were eyes that God must have seen somewhere.

But maybe it’s because of my old hair, I can’t remember it properly.

Sinui asked Gu Ryeong-hwa.

“Little boy, what was your brother doing?”

“… Yes?”

Gu Ryeong-hwa was taken aback by the sudden question of faith.

Gu Yangchen, what are you doing… .

One year older brother.

At first, he was a kind and proud person, but at some point, he changed drastically.

And.

The person who saw the last of my mother.

Since he was so young, his memory at the time was hazy and hazy like a dream, but Gu Ryeong-hwa knew that Guyangcheon was there.

Together with my father and Gu Cheol-woon.

“…”

“Lyeonghwa… ?”

Gu Ryeong-hwa clasps Geomhu’s hand tightly as if he is uneasy.

“Kuhm… ”

Shinui, who saw that, turned his head.

It seemed like there was something I shouldn’t have asked.

“Then where did you see… .”

…!

It came to mind.

Sinui remembered who those who had eyes like those of a boy were.

It was so long ago that I forgot about it for a while.

A long time ago, when he was just starting to make a name for himself as a clinic, there were people who were in charge of treatment.

Their eyes contained a deep abyss that humans could not dare to embrace.

It seemed that he was detached from death and had no regrets about life.

As if to prove it, the eyes they had had those who took their own lives after a while leaving behind the joy of being alive.

“… How could that child have eyes like that… .”

demon scene.

Those eyes resembled those of the survivors who survived from the demonic realm.

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It was already after the sun had set when I came back to the volcanic wave.

“It’s already nighttime, I haven’t even had dinner.”

Mae Hwa-seon, who found me arriving late in search of the road, said sorry to me with a sorry face.

Oh my God, I really forgot about it… .

What should I do with the volcanic energy in my body?

‘I can’t even take my energy… . Since you don’t seem to have any means right now, wouldn’t it be okay if you pretended not to know?’

I skipped over the same stupid words.

No, if that’s the case, why did you take it… ?

In the end, the only thing that can be obtained by visiting Sinui is that Jegal-hyeok was Shinui’s grandson.

It was said that I was currently on a deadline.

‘… life.’

Nothing ever comes easy. Always.

What crime did you commit in your previous life… .

‘I did, but a lot… .’

Come to think of it, yes… .

I wonder if this is also karma in the end, so I try to comfort myself thinking so.

There were always things that couldn’t be done.

just like now

“… What kind of situation is this?”

It was a place given by Hwasan for guests.

The escorts will be nearby for vigil, and the attendants will also be nearby.

“But what are you?”

A decent sized room, not too big or too small.

In the middle of it, there was a person who was diligently avoiding the futon.

At first, I thought it was an attendant, but I couldn’t mistake it because I could see her distinctive hair.

“What are you doing there?”

Inyoung focused her eyes on my voice.

Then, he tilts his head with a look on his face asking what he is asking.

Namgoongbia was the one who worked hard on the blanket.

“blanket… .”

“Why is Sojeo doing that… ?”

“Are you going to sleep?”

“where… Could it be here?”

“yes.”

“together?”

“yes.”

“… why?”

… why?